#awm

Im doing better now, rhe previous host fronting wasn't helping for sure! Our usual scheduled front is back and operational !!

I think being autistic my first thought is "i am autistic and i need accomodations. They are required to give me accomodations. So if i tell everyone then someone will help me"

Im very lucky in my life to have people who are gentle and explain how that actually comes across.

Telling all your managers or anyone who will listen can come across as messy.

Not everyone needs to know. Even if they wanted to help they wouldnt be able to. Its not on your teamlead to provide accomodations. They are not required too.

Where you get those accomodations is through HR and your doctor.

Its difficult because i feel that it is unfair that short term non comitted accomodations arent respected. By the time you start working with hr to get accomodations its too late.

You are already in a burn out, struggling to function and needing that break.

During this time having grace and patience to go through the slow bureacratic system feels unnecessary.

Its not perfect. Its not fair. And we have to work with it anyways.

Less is more. Tell the people absolutely necessary. Get it in writing. If you were willing to work but from home because that was more accessible. Get it in writing that they wouldnt allow you.

Update, as writing this out, because i was clear, grounded and provided only necessary information (which was vague) I was given permission to work from home and meet the acccomodations i requested!

I have the house to myself,

and the AC is humming

Just looking outside I can feel

the heat hitting the blacktop

All I can think about this holiday

is when I confided in a high school

friend and told her that I am sad 

about “_______”; which is ironic

Because years later, I am still 

blue over “_______.” I guess 

you can say that when I kissed

“_______” for the very first time,

there were fireworks going off inside

me. The last time we kissed just a couple

I sit here and think,

about last years new years drink.

It seems that time has passed us in a blink,

I’ll miss the sound of our glasses as they clink

You used to tell me “we’re so in-sync”

When I was in the first grade, we were tasked with writing our own bios for the yearbook.

They gave us some prompts to help us out.

“I’m special because…”

I wrote:

“I’m special because I like ice cream.”

Which is true, I’ve always had a sweet tooth.

When I was in the twelfth grade, I fell for a girl who lived near the train tracks.

She said:

“Don’t be silly, we’ll come back.”

Which is true, cause years later, we did.

I’m glad we were just idiot-kids.

She’s sweeter than ice cream

Hotter than a kettles steam;

Richer than vanilla bean.

Then one day out the blue,

We both just grew and grew…

The other day, I bought a pint of Ben and Jerry’s, Chocolate Therapy.

I have sitting in my freezer,

You, in Jacksonville, while;

Me, in Philadelphia, currently;

It was 60 degrees in the city today,

Despite it being December,

I still think about the end of November.

Onto a new year, or whatever -

Onto the next endeavor.

I wish we were still kids, so I could ask your

mom if you would come out and play.

We’d spend the whole day!

Together, forever, or whatever.

I hope the sunny state made you smile

Write back to me soon,

it’s been a while.

People are mean,

People are scary,

People are:

Big

Fat

Stupid

and

Hairy.

People are cruel,

People are cool,

People are:

Tools

Fools

and

Ghouls.

Sometimes,

Too cool for school.

You’re blessed if

you find someone,

who makes you feel