#awky

I have literally been locked in my room mostly for this quarantine and I really need to STOP STRESSING over classes and PEOPLE.

I was in my Korean class for a zoom and end up getting placed in the group with a Korean guy who legit was my FRIEND but we really didnt get a chance to link up this semester and I have always kinda gotten weird vibes from. (Not in a bad way, just in he probably doesn't think of me in a friend way.)

I really need get over making mistakes in Korean but I was honestly a bit embarrassed. I am just glad I finished all my homework in the course but oof it always feels uncomfy to mess up in front of ppl who know you.

Also, in GENERAL I need to stop trying to engage with those who do not reciprocate the effort (that guy being one). I will eventually learn to not seek out relationships with others when I/they can't make time for each other. I will learn and I always have a MIGHTY God to lean on.

Lastly, I feel better just writing this out and I think I'll continue to do so :) Thanks for readin'

Life is so short, none of this highschool stuff matters. Say what you need to say, stand up to people. If someone’s rude, call them on it. Don’t let anyone put someone else down. Just…don’t. Speak up, dress how you want, laugh as loudly as you want, dance in the hallway like an idiot. Don’t be afraid to be honest, and tell people how you feel. Don’t be embarrassed about what you eat, and don’t beat yourself up when you get a bad grade or don’t make the PR. Because you’re healthy and strong and happy, and that is so amazing and rare. Love people, build them up with all you’ve got. If you like her hair, tell her. If her eyeliner is on point, make a big deal of it. Make people feel good, love yourself, drink a ton of green tea, and scream your favorite songs like they’re the air you breath. DONT SETTLE FOR LESS. You deserve respect and honor, don’t let anyone treat you like trash. Don’t let yourself treat you like trash. Don’t let anyone treat anyone like trash.

People are all different and unique and beautiful, protect that.

Don’t be afraid of love, but don’t feel like you have to find someone right now. If you don’t like anyone, you don’t; go to a movie by yourself and have fun bc I’m my best friend anyway.

For King and Country is the best.

The sun will come out, you will PR, you will get to college, and you will have fun friend days. Keep going.

If there’s something you’ve wanted for months, and you can afford it, get it.