Jan 31, 2022
#One thing i learned this weekend#Since i havent had to face it since literally pre pandemic#I found out i still dont like it when dudes who express even the slightest tiniest miniscule interest in me touch me#Like yesterday he went in for a hug#And i was seized with a fear i have not felt since when hiker boy and i first started kinda dating#I thought it was gone#But i guess if i dont face it the only reason its not there is bc im not dealing with it#Avoidance?#I miss nick he was the only one able to pull me out of those disassosiations#Freebooter4ever
