Freebooter4Ever

cool boy

i dunno, when i was younger i used to cultivate multiple crushes because i never wanted to be too invested in one person so if one became impossible i just moved onto the next. as i get older, and especially as i get sicker, i am finding i prefer to observe rather than participate, like i am beginning to understand the lure of being the fairy godmother. like ah, yes, i see the type of woman this man would go for. or man this man would go for. :P its way more fun to find crushes and then invent love for them than to be constantly reminded of my own utter lack of desirability. i might have been too obsessed with hello dolly as a kid.

i keep reminding myself that last time things got scary i couldn't eat and i couldn't poop at all, so if water poo is what keeps me eating at least that is a slight improvement.

i took a break from work to go to lunch with jenn... first time in a while trying to eat a sandwich again (fingers crossed). jenn's friends with the owner so he set aside the sandwich just for us before they ran out for the day, he's the sweetest!

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heatwave showers and waiting for the swelling to calm down before i can put compression gear back on