#autosadism

Nothing I want more than to make a bitch cry in horror as i destroy my body in front of her. I’ll scare her so bad she calls me a sick fuck and runs away like a frightened prey animal.

Because that’s right, run bitch.

I’ll stab myself in front of you and laugh at your fear

looking up at me with your trembling little eyelashes. like you're scared i'm going to hurt you.

how ironic, when you babble so much about being so strong and pain-tolerant..

you stop on your tracks and your lungs freeze the moment i get close.., i really do love how scared you get, angel. just love watching you pick apart my empty face for any hint of how to minimally brace yourself from me, even if we both know you wanted to feel alive, even if you begged me for this. its time to be a brave girl now. i know, you know, that you want it.

you wanted to be the best version of yourself you can be, and you said this would help you. you want to be my beautiful and brave little angel don't you? let me pick where you will deserve your next pretty scars.

you're going to sit here and think about this pain while I use you and watch you.. touching yourself until your blood dries off the floor.

ill tell you over and over about how pretty it looks on you. squeezing your cuts while I shower you in compliments and kisses. such a strong angel we have here. surely you've shown me you can do anything you put your mind into.

Being such an absolute kitten while I grab you and cut you. Knowing how much you like it. I know you're just a broken slut and this is all you can think about most days. I see my obsession reflected in your eyes.

I will leave you scared of how wide I smile everytime your new cuts gush out from how deep i will go on you. I'll serve your cuts in lemon and coo your cries with so many kisses while dancing my bloody hands on your body and licking the dripping blood for you.

Ill make you sit in your own blood puddle and touch your new cuts while I fuck you and tell you how much you've thrilled me with your sacrifice. How happy it makes me to see you allowing yourself to be used like this.

Ill tell you how well you're taking my torture while you cry in my ears. Ill kiss all of those tears away.

of course angel, i will take care of you when I'm done.

  Autosadism

“Autosadism, or automasochism, is behaviour inflicting pain or humiliation on oneself. It may be related to self-harm[1][2] or a paraphilia involving sexual arousal.[3] It can be viewed as a form of masochism,[4] a sublimated form of sadism, or a means to experiencing algolagnia, a sexual tendency which is defined by deriving sexual pleasure and stimulation from physical pain.“

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a MEI [自虐AUTOSADISM] 

AUTOSADISM: behaviour inflicting pain or humiliation on oneself