Monologue from The Beginnerās Guide
Iām sorry. I know I screwed up. If I can apologize, truly and deeply, will you start making games again? Please. I need to feel okay with myself again, and I always felt okay as long as I had your work to see myself in.
I mean⦠is something wrong with me? Because I know that I did an awful thing, and Iām doing it again right now. Iām showing people your work. But I canāt stop myself from doing it. Thatās how badly I need to feel something again. Like Iām an addict. There has to be something wrong with me.
Can I apologize? What if I tell you I was wrong? Will that work? Will that fix it? I⦠I donāt know. I donāt think it will, but thereās nothing else that I can do. Just, tell me what you want!
I.. Iām sorry! Iām sorry! Please⦠start making games again. Please help me. Please give me some of whatever it is that makes you complete! I want whatever that wholeness is that you just summoned out of nothing and you put into your work! You were complete in some way that I never was! I want to know how to be a good person! I want to know how to not hate myself! Please!
Iām fading, and all I want is to know that Iām going to be okay!




















