@asphodelform
How many days spent here, and Obi-Wan has yet to achieve anything remotely resembling peace?
ENCOY is not quite enough like Coruscant to settle him. The trees and rivers, further out beyond the city, do not make meditation any easier when he is so disconnected from the Force at present. At times he tries to tell himself that it's only natural to be so unbalanced without it; at others, he scolds himself for being unable to accept his shortcomings. He is failing to find serenity at every opportunity. He can do nothing about his present situation until he acknowledges that, but it hardly seems like a time to self-reflect.
That may very well be the largest of his problems. Even now he cannot be patient, not with himself and not with this world. This place only frustrates him. It has been full of nothing but unpleasant surprises for what is turning into weeks, now.
It should be unsurprising, then, that he manages to encounter one more as he half-heartedly investigates historic Old Yesteryear. Even still, Obi-Wan is entirely unprepared to find what can only be a ghost standing among the denizens that mill up and down the sidewalk. Over a decade of learning to pick his former master out of a crowd makes the man's profile alone almost impossible to miss. Obi-Wan grinds to a halt all the way down the street.
Qui-Gon is exactly as he lives in Obi-Wan's memory ( on the best days. on others, Obi-Wan instead thinks of nothing but standing before the pyre until the flames had died and only ashes remained, ) painfully alive and unburdened by both the many years that have passed for Anakin - a young man, here, whose childhood disappeared without Obi-Wan getting to witness so much as a moment of it - and the grief that Obi-Wan has spent so many days trying to leave behind.
For a moment he is terrified that the Force has returned to him only to show him this vision. But he feels none of his missing connection, and beyond that, this is so far removed from any glimpse of the future - or the past - that the Force has brought to him before.
Denizens part around him like he is a rock in the middle of a stream, and Obi-Wan can't begin to imagine how shaken he looks - were he more proud, he would wish to leave. Someone so lost and rattled should not be one of their earliest impressions of the Jedi. He can't will his feet to move in either direction, but he does raise his voice, full of tentative disbelief and on the precipice of wavering. "Master Qui-Gon?" Please. Please, please please.













