#aspd moon

I know Terra was the "therapist" of the show for a while before she pulled back and shut that down ((which, yk, valid for many reasons)), but I really want Moon to do a deep dive on his own experiences and research mental health issues. I want him to go down a bit of a rabbit hole. I want him to find resources and I want him to tentatively try different things and see if those help bc he's scared to unlock his emotions and he's nervous and he wants to find coping skills.

And I want him to find personality disorders. I want him to find ASPD and think "Oh. Oh, that's... huh." I want him to look into actual sociopathy and the treatments/assistance/resources for that. I want him to research other comorbidities and to find a whole slew of options to look into.

And I want him to wonder if the vault of emotions even CAN be opened. I want him to think about it, and I want him to weigh pros and cons and be very distracted by the idea of it all. I want him to do research on a laptop at the kitchen table and have a little notebook of organized info and I want him to find less common presentations of disorders and conditions and I want him to be INTERESTED in it.

I want Sun to come down the stairs late one night to get a snack and find Moon either gremlin-mode with snacks, and I want Sun to see the stuff he's been doing. I want him to ask. I want Moon to hesitantly explain.

And I want Sun to see that there's... a lot of notes. A lot of tips, tricks, etc. I want him to see workbooks, spread sheets, notes in margins, highlighted areas, tabs and reminders and a reward system. I want him to see the effort in it. And I want him to maybe not believe it - Moon's focus can switch on a dime, after all - but to acknowledge that his twin is taking this seriously.

And then, I want him to accidentally knock a page loose from the back, and I want him to see a whole other list. I want him to look over it, to see Moon kinda shrink and scramble to say how it was just an attempt at putting a framework to bounce off of, that he isn't trying to diagnose anyone, it just seemed a good place to refer for improvement and-

I want Sun to see discouraged BPD listed among a few other things under his name. But there's areas for everyone on the sheet of paper, small color coded areas, potential psychosocial proclivities, even a few tentative diagnostic launch points.

I don't want Sun to be mad. I want him to be tired, and maybe a little embarrassed, because he's done his own research in trying to deal with mental health issues while raising a child, and none of this comes as a surprise to him. I want him to ask about it.

I want them to talk, late at night in a quiet kitchen, and I want to see them tentatively cobble together a healing journey. I want one to be nervous, hopeful, resolved; I want one to be unanticipatory but willing to let it fall how it may. Sun won't get his hopes up, but he will also not impede it.

Cuz with moon seemingly “cured” of his emotionless state feels really insulting to the ASPD community and I doubt they’d ever do something like that.

He moves one foot per day before needing a nap

Moon likes to watch really gorey movies because it soothes his leftover Killcode urges. Sun doesn’t like horror, though, so he tried to get Solar to watch with him. Unfortunately, Solar didn’t even really know what a horror movie was until Moon made him choose between Saw 2 and Terrifier 2.

YOU TAKE AWAY HIS AGENDER.

YOU TAKE AWAY HIS AROACE.

WHAT THE FUCK IS EVEN LEFT???

GOD I FUCKING HATE TSAMS RIGHT NOW. THE WHOLE FUCKING REASON PEOPLE CONNECTED WITH MOON AS A CHARACTER!!! AND YOU WANT TO TAKE IT AWAY IN FAVOR OF WHAT??? JUST TURNING MOON INTO ANOTHER SUN?? INTO A BLANK SLATE??? BECAUSE HE ISN’T “NORMAL” ENOUGH FOR THE WRITERS??? BECAUSE HE’S ONLY AROACE AND AGENDER BECAUSE OF HIS ASPD (YOU KNOW, HIS ENTIRE FUCKING PERSONALITY), AND YOU THINK THAT HAVING ASPD IS “WRONG”!!!