#bpd sun

I know Terra was the "therapist" of the show for a while before she pulled back and shut that down ((which, yk, valid for many reasons)), but I really want Moon to do a deep dive on his own experiences and research mental health issues. I want him to go down a bit of a rabbit hole. I want him to find resources and I want him to tentatively try different things and see if those help bc he's scared to unlock his emotions and he's nervous and he wants to find coping skills.

And I want him to find personality disorders. I want him to find ASPD and think "Oh. Oh, that's... huh." I want him to look into actual sociopathy and the treatments/assistance/resources for that. I want him to research other comorbidities and to find a whole slew of options to look into.

And I want him to wonder if the vault of emotions even CAN be opened. I want him to think about it, and I want him to weigh pros and cons and be very distracted by the idea of it all. I want him to do research on a laptop at the kitchen table and have a little notebook of organized info and I want him to find less common presentations of disorders and conditions and I want him to be INTERESTED in it.

I want Sun to come down the stairs late one night to get a snack and find Moon either gremlin-mode with snacks, and I want Sun to see the stuff he's been doing. I want him to ask. I want Moon to hesitantly explain.

And I want Sun to see that there's... a lot of notes. A lot of tips, tricks, etc. I want him to see workbooks, spread sheets, notes in margins, highlighted areas, tabs and reminders and a reward system. I want him to see the effort in it. And I want him to maybe not believe it - Moon's focus can switch on a dime, after all - but to acknowledge that his twin is taking this seriously.

And then, I want him to accidentally knock a page loose from the back, and I want him to see a whole other list. I want him to look over it, to see Moon kinda shrink and scramble to say how it was just an attempt at putting a framework to bounce off of, that he isn't trying to diagnose anyone, it just seemed a good place to refer for improvement and-

I want Sun to see discouraged BPD listed among a few other things under his name. But there's areas for everyone on the sheet of paper, small color coded areas, potential psychosocial proclivities, even a few tentative diagnostic launch points.

I don't want Sun to be mad. I want him to be tired, and maybe a little embarrassed, because he's done his own research in trying to deal with mental health issues while raising a child, and none of this comes as a surprise to him. I want him to ask about it.

I want them to talk, late at night in a quiet kitchen, and I want to see them tentatively cobble together a healing journey. I want one to be nervous, hopeful, resolved; I want one to be unanticipatory but willing to let it fall how it may. Sun won't get his hopes up, but he will also not impede it.