#askcapitalr

R: Hey, uh...anyone still out there?

(( hey guys...sure has been a while huh? missed ya <3 ))

R: Oof, that’s a loaded question...

R: But, I mean...hell, it’s a good story.

R: This sounds dorky, but my art therapist had me draw this like? Feelings comic thing. Help solidify the good feelings and put away the bad, yknow?

R: Anyway...here.

R, movie announcer voice: Long ago...there was a man who was SUPER sad...but this one time, a bunch of strangers on the internet showed up at a rally he was a part of after he very drunkenly invited them on the Worldwide Web. That day, he met 30 rad as hell people and they all had an awesome time and R was the coolest and most popular, hottest, most creative, and best person ever.

R, normal voice: I love this picture so fuckin’ much. But, in all seriousness, Courf wrote that for me.

R: TADAA! Hey guys! Long time no chat!

R: Like, 2 years no chat, to be precise... there’s still so many of you guys out there! It’s crazy. Let’s check the inbox, I can’t believe you guys have already sent in messages.

R: Heh, sorry about that...the whole disappearing without a word for 2 years after I made you all concerned about my problems bit.

R: Things at the rally just really...got crazy. I-I mean, everything is great now! Nothing bad happened, it was just...I needed to get away for a while.

R: So, I did, but when I got back, I just kinda forgot about all this... it wasn’t until I found my old laptop in storage that I even remembered it.

R: But, I mean it that I want to do this whole thing again. I’m so much...better than I was then, I mean comparatively, so why not? It was fun.

R: There’s also been some pretty...uhhh...wild changes for me these last 2 years...if anyone’s curious.

Enjolras: I could show them MY comic...that may clear things up.

R: It’s your’s. Feel free.

Enjolras: I’m a shit artist, but...here.

[TRANSCRIPT OF COMIC

I felt so so so terrible. It had just been so shocking, I hadn’t known what to say. Lovely timing, isn’t it? Awesome.

I decided to approach it how I approach everything...RESEARCH! I closed myself in my flat and read any book, article, or TED talk on enrequired love and how best to make someone forgive you. If he was willing, that is.

And then Courfeyrac and Combeferre decided I’d done that long enough. They made me live “like a person” and also address what to do next.

Courf also cut my hair for me! Something about being able to see my surroundings and my feelings, too.

A couple of days later, Éponine gave me Grantaire’s train information and the keys to her car to go get him with the threat of murder if I messed any of it up. Terrifying, but fair.

And, when I saw him, I told him the truth in, if I may say so, a marvel of research and writing. But, I choose to keep it to us...sorry... But, the important part is that it turned out just fine for us...perfect.]

Enjolras: So...that’s it.

Enjolras: Basically...I may be good with politics, but I’m shit with feelings. Less shit than I was, but still shit.

R: Oh, shut up.

Enjolras: At least I know I love you.

R: *dying animal noise*

Enjolras: R, this looks great! Oh and look! Aw, hello again, everyone! It’s good to hear from you, I hope you all are well.

R: Dork. What are we up to? Frankly, we’ve just been trying to stay cool.

Enjolras: Well, that, and my being in first year of Master’s School. And Grantaire’s art. Has he told you all he’s being paid for it now? Hired on retainer for...

R: *sigh*

Enjolras: Say it.

R: ...a political campaign...

Enjolras: Haha!

R: Yes, I’m aware that it’s on. I just had to finish something up real quick.

R: I...realize that it’s been a while, and I’m sorry about that. But I’ve been a little busy.

R: If you direct your attention below my eyeballs, you’ll notice a lack of bags. I’ve been getting back on top of my sleep.

R: ...

R: Well. Joly made me go talk to a doctor. That isn’t him or Combeferre, thankfully. 

R: Guess who’s an insomniac? It’s me! So I got some pills...that require I cut back on my drinking. Which blows. But, on the bright side of things, Enjolras noticed and gave me a hug.

R: He doesn’t really do physicality with me, so...I’m not gonna lie, it kind of made the whole thing worth it. The whole...trying not to be awful thing.

R: Éponine reminds me to take my meds. I have a good support group...it’s nice, actually.

R: Anyway, there’s big plans for today. The rally is here. Finally.

R: It’s about and all that, so I have to change shirts once I’m done painting, but then we’re gonna head over to the park and try to... I dunno, change the world, I guess. 

R: And after that...I’m going to ask Enj to come onto the blog.

R: I am scared shitless.

R: And I don’t necessarily want to tell him how I feel about him, but...I want to talk to him. I’m ready to talk to him. I need to talk to him.

R: So um...yeah. Let’s do it, I guess.

R: Oh my god, man.

R: Okay, first of all. Happy birthday.

R: Second of all, coming out to family can be really really rough. I know what that’s like, especially as bi. All sexualities have their own difficulties coming out, but I get the bi thing, and-

Laurie: Did I hear birthday and bisexual?

R: uh-

Laurie: Sorry to intrude, but I made bi pride cupcakes and if it’s your birthday, you should definitely have one. Happy birthday, sweetie!

R: Um. Thanks! ...it’s not mine but thanks anyway.

R: Well, there we go!

R: No matter what happens, you have a family here. You should never be afraid of hiding who you are, because even if you lose everything, you will always have a whole world of people standing behind you who love and support you.

R: Now, thats not to say the worst, will happen. I’m sure your family will love you just the same, but even then! We’ve still got your back.

R: And until you're ready to come to a LGBTQ rights event or a Pride march, I’ll just hold onto this cupcake for you.

R: Happy birthday.

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