#askaban

I have this headcanon where Barty, Bella and Sirius are cell neighbors in Askaban and to communicate they use a secret language through knocking on the walls that they invented as children in their abusive holiday home (yes, yes, they were rich but sad).

So every time they thought they were going crazy, every scream and laugh that echoed off the walls, every full moon, you could hear quick knocks:

tok-toktok-tok.

it will all be fine.

tok--tok

we are here.

tok.

I'm not even starting this talking about Harry, but the whole Sirius going to Askaban episode. First of all, Dumbledore testified AGAINST Sirius Black, knowing that the aurors hadn't check his wand to see the last spell that was casted (proof of crime), and knew he didn't even get a chance of trial before being sent to Askaban FOR LIFE. He saw Sirius and James grew up, he knew they were more brothers than anything else, he didn't care about any of that and just helped Sirius downfall. Also, before the Sirius and Peter scene, Sirius tried to take Harry (as it was his right as the child's godfather), and Dumbledore just said "nah I’m sending him to an extremely abusive house hold".

Like okay you could use as an argument that Harry would be safer because of Petunia's blood or whatever but guys, really? Harry would really be better of growing up with trauma than with his loving godfather? And do you all really think that Sirius could have not protect Harry? Sirius would easily die for that kid; he would do anything to keep him safe and honestly if Harry's safety was really that worrying couldn't Dumbledore himself help? Isn't he like the most powerful wizard or whatever? He literally treated Harry like a pig for slaughter (EVEN FUCKING SEVERUS SNAPE COULD SEE THAT).

And also, why the hell did he think it was best to just let Harry not know about the Wizarding World and his own family history? Why couldn't Lupin or Sirius (if he wasn't in jail) visit him? Why did Harry need to be isolated from everyone who truly cared about him? Dumbledore just sat there not caring while Harry didn't even have his own room until he was eleven years old (THE BOY LIVED UNDER THE STAIRS!! HE GOT USED TO SPIDERS CRAWLING AROUND HIM!!) and always got beaten up by at least one member of his so-called family. Dumbledore made the poorest choices someone could have made.

And do we literally need to talk about his past? Like, really? He was the shittiest person ever. As someone who has younger siblings I can't believe that someone would treat their siblings like Dumbledore treated his own, specially how he treated Ariana, I would literally drop everything for my younger sister, I would gladly take care of her until she didn't need me anymore because I love her, Dumbledore did not care about his sister (or his brother) his regret was just to stop his heart from feeling guilty. "Oh, he regrated that and still blames himself for her death many years later!" GOOD AS HE SHOULD just a pity that Ariana didn’t have the same opportunity.

Dumbledore was literally friends with a Nazi and yes, he was responsible for Ariana's death and he should be haunted by that for the rest of his life. He was manipulative and a coward, I hate that his talents blinded everyone from seeing his flaws who he truly was. No, I do not believe he was a heartless monster that didn't care about anyone ever, all I'm saying is that everything he does is according to his own plans and beliefs, he does not care who he will affect, if he judges that decision as the right one he will not pay that much attention to what backfires, as long as it doesn't hit him. And I mean, couldn’t he have asked Minerva for some advice? Half the stupid shit he has done would have been avoided.

And really guys, he couldn't have excuse harry for the year so he could spend some time with Sirius? Losing one year of school is more important that making sure the boy’s only family wasn't miserable? Sirius was going crazy at the house, after more than a decade locked away, he finally breaks free, just to be locked away at the house he grew up in, a house that only remembered him of the abuse he suffered there. Harry and Sirius were really so fucking mistreated.

OH, AND THE FUCKING DEPARTAMENT OF MISTERIES BATTLE! What was he doing while everyone was there fighting against death eaters? He had something more important? Why just arrive at the end???

There are so many quotes in the Prisoner of Azkaban that just leave me like *hand over heart* oh my god

(page 97) Fred’s explaining how Mr. Weasley had to go to Azkaban once and returned completely shook after just one day. Would like to point out that Sirius had to spend over 4,000 days in there...*hand over heart*

(page 188) Lupin is explaining to Harry how the prisoners of Azkaban don’t even need walls to keep them caged... most of them go mad within weeks. The fact that Lupin was able to describe this in much detail means he knew of it before or he was worried about Sirius and researched it. 

(page 206) At the scene of Sirius’s framed crime, he was (according to Hagrid) white and shaking, pleading that he be able to raise Harry as his godfather. This man would have raised Harry as the happiest boy ever.....