#ashocean

I don’t write love poetry, i write about god’s work.

I don’t know much about religion, but everytime i see you, god, i am taken to church.

Anecdote: I went to catholic primary school and once when I was 9,

I kissed my best friend on the forehead and thought it was a crime

So without saying why I told my parents, I have to make a pilgrimage and say i’m really really sorry to jesus christ our lord.

Now? I’m 17, comfortably bisexual, and because I don’t fly easyjet, I’ve never gone to Lourdes.

I’m not that religious. But the only pilgrimage I would make is to you

and I would unlace my boots, bow, kneel down, and pray in your pew.

I don’t know much about religion, but I know about devotion

I’m not saying you’re my god, but something about emotion

Like this is just too powerful to leave it unspoken.

I don’t know about religion, but I know about music.

But side note: I don’t understand it, singing in public makes me feel sick.

But i’d sing hymn after hymn about you and in spite

Of my broken voice, how your eyes fill me with light

And holy watercolour stained glass like i imagine god’s might might.

I don’t know much about religion, but i do know what awe is

The bravery of confession and its terrifying catharsis

I find strange ease in spilling my sins to my silent god upon high

And yet when you’re next to me i struggle to breathe “hi”.

Again, i’m not saying you’re my god, but god help me, in my mind,

The idea of you answering my prayers seems far more divine

And also scary as hell. Hell, so was writing this poem,

‘Cause I don’t write love poetry, I write - well, I don’t know.

I don’t know much about religion, music, awe, or devotion,

Christ, I don’t even know how to describe my emotions

I don’t know lots of things, but there’s one thing I do:

I don’t know about love, but i know about you.

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