#aro reading

Monika becomes obsessed with the "real" player behind the screen, ie "real" love in the form of romantic love, and starts devoting all her time and energy into getting their attention and having them all to herself. In doing so, she destroys everyone else in her life, her friends and clubmates, and causes the club to collapse.

Eventually she ends up cutting off every other connection she has, ie deleting them, so it's only her and the player. But when the player breaks up with her, deletes her, she realizes that she now has no support system to lean back on, and she only has herself to blame.

i do not believe lucifer has romantic feelings towards chloe

i do believe he loves her though

like, you can pry the idea that lucifer is alloaro from my cold dead hands

throughout the entire series lucifer is never shown to feel any sort of romantic attraction until the last few seasons, and even then its only been season 5 (and technically season 4 but rlly just season 5) that the word love has been properly put to his feelings towards chloe. until that point their relationship has been about breaking down lucifer's walls and making him vulnerable, both physically and emotionally.

that doesn't require the prerequisite of romantic love.

and now listen listen listen, i ship them, this show got me invested and i ship them hard

but that being said, the specific way that lucifer reacts in 5b to the question of 'can he love' hits me in a very specific way.

so the thing about love in a non-romantic sense is that there's really not enough focus on it. the meaning of love is very muddled and because of the focus put on solely romantic love, if you haven't felt romantic love, the meanings different types of love get mixed together very easily.

i personally have had a very hard time trying to figure out if my platonic love for my friends could possibly be romantic because id never felt romantic attraction which has lead to several times in my life where ive wondered if i can love (both romantically and because of the focus put on romantic love, generally too) and wondered if i could care for my friends fully if i couldnt feel romantic love. which really does seem to be lucifer's dilemma. he clearly cares for chloe deeply but him questioning his ability to love causes him to question his ability to care.

plus the fact that chloes reaction is both being ok if he doesnt love her but also insisting that he isnt incapable of love in a way that has love meaning caring

and now yeah, "oh but he tells chloe he loves her" and "he put the ring on her ring finger is heaven" i tell my friends i love them every night, and i mean it completely. i have these 2 friends who i am super close with, insanely so, close enough that i could totally see us more or less living our lives together without any of us being romantically attracted to either of the others.

and thats exactly what i see in lucifer

like the answer to 'can he love?' didn't matter when it came to how he cares for chloe. he cares for her and, romantically or not, he loves her.

him and chloe are in a qpr and still like to use terms for romantic relationships.

also i want to bring up the fact that there are in fact some aro people who are in romantic relationships and the fact that there are aro identities that do feel some romantic attraction so