I always feel like a failure when I realize the one thing I even have source memories of past season one is THAT scene in season three. You know. That one. The one where they dress me up as Krista or. Historia or whatever her other name was. Because it was the only other episode I saw before I completely dropped my source.
I always just wonder... What Erwin was thinking. Why Sasha and Connie laughed at me after. (Seriously guys I think you're cool and all but. Why...?) And god Jean. Jean, I'm still so fucking sorry you had to see all that. I felt like the weakest thing in the universe during all that. I'm so sorry.
I guess I should've been better huh? Should've done something other than sob my eyes out. It's all just fucked. It's all fucked and it always reminds me why I never watched on further to see what happened to me. I couldn't. I just wasn't strong enough to.
-Armin Arlert Fictive
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