#arf posting

Warriors Sona!

Slowly getting back into the actual roleplay scene of things cause, less circumstances currently! Actually have time, which is grand!

Y’know what? Trench said this and it’s been pinging in my mind for a hot minute or so, so I wanna get into it.

To start off: Resprite, once fused with Stryss’ Sheepmom, is very wooly! Guy with natural curls + huge fluffy sheep makes a really fluffy Momdad!

On that note, I feel that Resprite is probably a bit conflicted on her wool. The Sheepmom aspect of him is quite fond of it, likes being wooly and being able to use it to give comfort, respite. The Botanist portion of her is a bit more partial to being cut down. As a burgundyblood on Alternia, and in a…likely not well respected profession, he tried to keep himself very well put together in order to get what little respect he could. So it makes for a bit of an interesting time when getting shorn.

I do think he really does like the social aspect of shearing though. It’s something she only really shares with people he’s especially close with, so likely only really Perpep, Stryss, and *maybe* Lykoii. It shows an extreme sense of safety and trust, especially to allow something as sharp as a blade to get that close to him.

With Perpep it’s of course something..for lack of a better term, more intimate. I think he tries to show her that he trusts her a lot, she wants to let her have free agency with it. It’s a bit hard to articulate but, there is an inherent..understanding, solidarity, perhaps, being both parts sprite and lusus. Resprite trusts Perpep a lot more than it may initially seem given his somewhat quiet demeanor, and generally wants her to feel comfortable with that trust. I really like to think that they balance each other out quite well. I’m just a bit rough at articulating it-

With Stryss and Lykoii, that’s his kids, family bonding. Stryss is someone she had taken care of, as a lusus, ghost, and Sprite, that’s his daughter! Stryss already knew how to shear Sheepmom when needed, so not much change with Momdad. I like to think they catch up with one another fairly often, cutting hair and wool while chatting about what’s gone on in their lives. Lykoii is a bit more distant but, that was SheepMom’s first ‘honorary kid’, that’s someone she tried to take care of when she could, and that translates over to Resprite too. The Botanist knew of Lykoii as well, and his thoughts were pretty complicated but, it’s a bittersweet fondness at the end of the day, I think. Although not his kin, Lykoii is someone Resprite generally cares a fair bit about, and someone she would likely trust enough to help, similar to Stryss.

Hehehe, I love the way this is worded

There’s of course, his long standing fear of being seen as weak, as vulnerable. But that’s pretty obvious and clear cut, in all honesty. He has never wanted to give Calfuray even more chance to get the upper hand, he has never wanted someone to feel as if they could overpower him cause, at least when it comes to physical strength, many others probably could. He hates it so much because, in part, it’s true. He is well aware of how he is weak in many forms to those around him at any given moment. He know he would not be the one to survive to adulthood, he knows he’s far weaker than any of the Alternian trolls, even many of the Beforan ones too, in all honesty, the only true thing he almost always has above others is his mind, his intelligence.

Which, goes into another thing: I don’t know if it’s 100% a..fear? But it’s certainly a sore spot. Perhaps one of the sorest spots possible for him.

Calbhach does not want to be seen as incompetent, as incapable, as whole and fully inept. He holds his intellect as a weapon with a vice grip. He feels it’s one of the only things he can use to protect himself but. In actuality? If one takes a clear look at his life it has done nothing but fail him time and time again. And deep down he knows it as well. He worked his life honing his senses, taking in whatever information it could, and in the end it didn’t help him. Endless experiments, countless hours, and more effort than what is reasonable, he worked to find a way to stay alive, to live, to find a way out other than the impossible chance he would predominate. He failed to find a single way out. The game is what saved him, what saved all of them, not his doing. He killed Calfuray but he failed to truly subdue her like he planned, she still got the upper hand with godtiering. He died alone. His thoughts on his sister ended up being false, and even then, even if they weren’t, his plans went awry. Nearly everything he has tried has failed, and it doesn’t get any easier navigating the intricacies of godhood, of culture with another species, of living and regretting, of slowly trying to earn forgiveness, that of which he doesn’t feel like he deserves for a long time.

I would love to play! fear games :D.!

Um, disclaimer that this is probably not very..coherent. It’s a lil late and I’m gonna probably ramble (and come up with stuff on the fly, like usual)

It’s. Probably pretty standard and obvious for clurch members (and ex clurch members) but I feel Lykoii, once the game is over- hell, maybe some before that, he’s really scared of being seen as unfaithful. From practical beginning of what he could remember, he’d been with the clurch, following to its doctrines, reaping the blood of its teachings. And given it was such a…messy break from it. He lost his community, his sense of self, his lusus, and so much more in one terrible breath? It’s. A lot on him, frankly. It’d be a lot on anyone, but to someone already so…hard to put into words but gestures vaguely at the already trying so hard to appease his lusus, conform to the clurch to the best of his ability, and the total absence of…really any good support systems. It’s not great. And he feels horribly guilty for it all.

For so long it was all that he’d known, he was supposed to be faithful, he was supposed to be good. And he has his thin rug with the idea of if he does everything right he’ll be fine ripped from under him.

And it kinda..keeps going? He can’t stay loyal or attached to anything for too long while on the run. Anyone or anything he gets a hold of, he can’t stay with for long. He can’t put them in danger, he can’t put himself in danger. Which makes his friendship with Styrss so, unique, for lack of a better term, for both of them. Someone who has refused his anxieties and worries, who kinda spits in the face of the dangers he feels and accepts her fate. Someone who, at this point, has the freedom to do so much, nothing holding her, and yet, stays as she is, kinda letting the world run by her. And given she’s such a pivotal connection to him, both before and after the game, he is really worried about showing that he’s faithful to her, that he cares, that he’s not going to abandon her, even if they don’t see eachother for wipes at a time

This transfers to Calixtus in many ways too I think. He’s honestly just as clingy as they are. He wants to show that he’s there, that he loves them with his whole heart and he’s not going anywhere, that despite everything that’s happened, that Calixtus is always going to have someone committed to them, that will choose them. I think, with all the complexities of renouncing his faith and then. Being in a relationship with a relationship with the species of God is. Kind of messy in his brain, at least for a lil bit.

Also. I can’t talk about Lykoii without talking about Sphinx too- having gone through so much of the same pressures, going from hating to understanding to caring more than he would have ever dared while on Alternia, it’s a lot! The space siblings are complicated to say the least but, they check in on each other a lot I think. They may not expressly talk a lot sometimes but, I feel that perhaps they send little things to one another, or would fix part of the other’s spatial domain if they see something’s up, the works of small actions showing immense care

. scars i meam

Tumblr did not let me see this ask for like- a week so- here we go :] (warning for well- I suppose mention of physical trauma and abuse)

I’ve already talked about some scars and physical features of a lotta critters [here]

But to add on:

Andras has some rough slurryspay scars. They were gotten under the care of its previous culler before Calrie, and they’re quite prominent on its smaller form, especially given how emaciated it was before it got into better care. Andras also has some scarring along the edges of its fins due to fin rot, also due to previous unfit culling conditions.

Both Calrie and Crypto have the troll equivalent of appendix removal scars. Calrie’s is in a bit rougher shape than Crypto’s and occasionally causes her discomfort. Calrie’s came from precaution and Crypto got his after early signs of appendicitis.

The Battered has plenty of the scars to be expected from her time on the intergalactic fleets. Although not used for helming, she’s got plenty to show all of the mechanics she’s had to work on. There’s a lot of small scrapes and cuts that have scarred over time. Later on she will lose her right arm from part of a hull’s collapse.

The Starlead has a myriad of scars from their time as a ship captain, and subsequent stranding on their first starship. Some of the most notable they have are many small pinprick needle scars from using helming nutrient ports once the ship’s supply stores began to run low. They end up with a large scar across the right side of their face, marring their eyesight and cutting across their ear fin.

Before The Carillon had assistance from The Nnanntis, she would be a lot more careless in her feedings, resulting in a very few small and mostly faded scars along her arms, most resulting from scratches from ‘prey’ with more fight to them. She was a lot more reckless in her own care before her current quads. She also has a few bite scars, for. various reasons. :P