2. Tell us about what you’re most looking forward to writing – in your current project, or a future project
For Rose Puppetry, the final chapter. The entire project started out as a oneshot to deliver on one specific thing, which hasn’t actually happened yet in it, and won’t until the last chapter. I’m extremely excited to get to finally reveal what that is.
For Dead Souls Living, just all of it. It’s now occurred to me that I don’t think I’ve really clarified in my various ramblings on the topic is that my current struggle with writing Souls is that I literally keep getting too excited by how close I came to canon to be able to sit and calmly write it. Like, the fic is currently in Time Out bc I cannot actually think of it without getting at least a little bit giddy.
Just I’m used to carving out my own little space and being satisfied that the best I’ll ever be able to do is compromise with canon so I can be content and enjoy it. Others get to have canon validate their ships and things, and I can be fine with not being a part of that (even if I did tend to lean toward jealousy at times). But, it was fine, that’s how fandom worked for me, and I accepted it.
(to be clear, there’s nothing wrong with deciding there’s parts of canon you like and parts you don’t. I consider figuring out how to compromise and deciding what works best for you in terms of fandom engagement extremely good skills to have.)
At the same time, it is utterly intoxicating to see things like a relationship dynamic, a character arc, or hell even an extremely specific plot point that you care about, that you’ve thought a lot about, play out in the actual canon. To realize you’re not just scraping together what crumbs you can find to create something (that you doubt is actually in character anyway), and is the best you can really do, given your own interests. To realize, instead of being on the outside watching everyone else be validated and wondering (craving to know) what that’s like, you’re at the table for the feast itself. You get to know what it’s like.
It is very hard, I’ve found, not to let it go to your head.
(also why I’m sort of giving myself a cool down period at this point. It’s all well and good to be excited for canon content, but, if I let that excitement go too far, it could end up sinking into entitlement, and that would suck, like a lot.)
8. Is what you like to write the same as what you like to read?
Not particularly right now. Although that’s largely because I’ve been consumed by reading almost entirely jonmartin fics for the foreseeable future (cause that’s what happens when one of the characters is canonically asexual and his identity is respected by the fandom for the most part, it’s very easy to get obsessed). In that ship’s case, I’ve found I can be satisfied by what I read that I don’t have a burning itch to write as much for the pairing.
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