#aquariu

Aries: It’s quite the conundrum you find yourself in. Maybe, if you weren’t so isolated, if you had someone to care about you, then you’d find a reason to improve. Yet, you don’t see anyone who cares, so you don’t care. A twisted mirror of your own perception. You drink, and your spiral, and hopefully you’ll realize soon that there might be people who care about you. You shake your head harshly, dismissing that idea, shaking it right out of your skull.

Taurus: You’re in a maternity ward, looking over the rows of cribs with a soft look to your many eyes. You love humanity, it’s so beautiful, and the newborns are the most beautiful of all. So full of potential, so quick to change. The older ones can get stuck in a rut, stagnating in their everyday routine, but the young ones, oh, the young ones couldn’t stay the same minute to minute, let alone hour to hour. You trace your hand gently across the edges of the cribs you pass as you walk. The young ones are always growing, quicker than their parents can track, shooting higher and higher towards their inevitable stop, they’re always learning, always curious, gaining new ideas and discarding them so fast. It’s enough to make your chest burn like you need to breath. You’ve come to the ICU, now, and you’re standing over one of the neonatal units, looking in at the tiny baby within. Ever so slowly, ever so reverently, you open it up and pull the child into your arms. You coo and rock them carefully. Out of the corner of your eye, you watch as a Death walks into the room. Though your voice is sweet as you sing a lullaby, your gaze has flickered to it and your eyes have turned sharp. This child was doomed, but not anymore, they shall not have it. Tomorrow, the doctors are all going to be baffled by the newborn’s sudden strength and the nurses will call it a miracle. That had nothing to do with you.

Gemini: (There’s a spot of your memories that you refrain from touching. A dark patch, from after you “died” but before you became whole. You have a feeling that something bad happened in that time. You have a feeling you don’t want to know. You don’t think about it.)

Cancer: You text your partner and ask if he wants to go for drinks. He asks about business, asks if you need to discuss anything, and you have to derail him and say that no, you didn’t mean for business, you just meant drinks, like old times. You don’t get a reply for a long time, and when you do it’s a rather unassuming “sure”.

Leo: You wake up and it’s warm. There’s no wind. There’s no snow. It left and you’re somewhat sad about that, but that’s pushed aside because of course it left, it got what it wanted and it needed to travel, so this is a happy occurrence for it and you’re happy for it.

Virgo: Pablo tells you the news. Your vikings are dead. They found the boats crashed against the shore, ripped and melted from an attack from... something. (You and everyone else knows better than to ask what that something was.) You. You don’t. You just. You.... You eat a flower cookie, trying not to choke on it, because your throat is suddenly much tighter than you’d like and the cookie is suddenly way too sweet and it’s sticking to your throat, the sugar strangling you, and you think you’re crying.

Libra: You suddenly remember that it’s getting close to Halloween. Wow. That snuck up on you again. Things are serious right now, but that just means you obviously need a bit of fun, and that’s your justification to yourself about celebrating when there’s more important things to be done. To be fair, though, last Halloween, you bought your candy store in a festive fit, so some sudden, overenthusiastic decorating isn’t the most irresponsible thing you could have done.

Scorpio: Dear Journal... no that looks stupid. Oh good, this program won’t let me backspace. that’s just there now. I guess that’s fine? I don’t know, it looks so stupid, why did I think that was a good idea?

Sagittarius: You feel stupid as you set an extra bowl of cereal beside you, but you saw the old woman today and she spoke to you as though you were a friend, called you her favorite, and the package you had to deliver shifted and oozed and made noises you’re sure humans weren’t meant to hear, and your own failures keep spinning in your mind, and everything seems to be keeping you awake, so at this point you have nothing to lose. 

Capricorn: It’s stupidly easy to steal a motorcycle. It’s not the most heroic thing to do, but you’ve had your fair share of grand thefts and this is child’s play in comparison. You leave immediately, while it’s still dark. You aren’t sure where you’re going, but you’ll know when you get there and you need to get out of this rhythmless city and away from this unplotted mess. You head east, towards where the sun will rise, and just book it.

Aquarius: You don’t want to forget. (You don’t want to have forgotten.) This feels like deja vu, like you’ve been here before, but not. It feels like you’re caught in a flashback, but you’re living in the present and can’t recall your past. Why is this the thing making your empty memories ring?

there is no way im spending 1 dollar a capsule, which is what petsmart charges u. It is literally cheaper to buy gel caps thru amazon and osmocote at home depot and make ur own if u want and have time. ur plants WILL need supplementation bc its not all in 1 but it gets the job done!

honestly tho, i prefer getting my shit thru aquarium co-op. I like supporting ethical small businesses and tbh the amount u get for the amount u spend is rlly good imo. The tabs actually sink and they're shrimp safe so thats why I use em (my tanks all have shrimp in em). i also use their all in 1 fert, easy green and have had amazing success in my tanks. There r other things on the market, i just find aquarium co-op to be the best and most affordable for me.

Downside with them is u pay shipping unless ur getting like a lot of other stuff (at least 70 USD for free shipping) but lets be real shipping for like $10 isnt bad if u buy multiple things like glass cleaner, ferts, food, supplies, plants ect. i try to time things so im getting my ferts at the same time as my food so shipping feels worth it. (u also typically get a free sticker too! Ive gotten a loach, logo, and tetra so far...)