There is Thunder in Our Hearts
Written for Femslash Fete on Dreamwidth
Prompt: Thunder
Title: There is Thunder in Our Hearts
Ship: Happy Meek/Kiryuin Aoi
Fandom: Uma Musume Pretty Derby
Word Count: 3,294
Rating: T
Warning: Choose Not to Warn
Tags: Age Difference, Mentor/Protege, Love Confessions
Happy Meek placed her hand against the glass and it fogged at her touch. The other side was battered with raindrops. She watched them carefully and how they distorted the vastness of the training grounds to become small and miserable.
“Is the URA Finale really going to be washed out?” she asked.
Aoi stood by her side and sighed. She placed her hand on Happy Meek's shoulder, “I don't know, sweetheart.”
Happy Meek lowered her head. Her lips curved down into a frown and Aoi seized up. She didn't want her trainee to be disappointed but look at the weather.
The storm didn't seem like it was going to ease up any time soon. The rain was nothing less than miserable. Constant. Endless. It transformed the grassy tracks below into swamps.
“Don't give up. You know what they say: expect the worst but hope for the best.” Aoi encouraged her.
Though Happy Meek didn't seem to be buying it.
“We still have two more races before the URA Finale. Let's aim to clear those first.” Aoi added.
“Ah, true…”
Happy Meek was enrolled to race both the Tenno Sho and Arima Kinen. She had to get those out of the way first and wasn't really enthused by the challenges that they would bring. Her career so far as an athlete Uma Musume had been middling to say the least. Plenty of silvers and bronzes but no golds.
She was always in the shadow of her rival who was trained by Aoi's close friend and colleague.
All Happy Meek wanted was to race lots and win lots. So far, she had done plenty of the former and very little of the latter. She was always just out of shot, out of frame by the time she passed the finishing line. The disappointment after disappointment had begun to take its toll.
Both she and Aoi knew what was on the horizon if this unlucky losing streak kept up: she would be forced to retire. She would have to give up on her dream of being an idol athlete. The thought hurt very much, more so than the aches in her heart and strain in her body after just falling short of victory once again.
With these thoughts on her mind unspoken, Happy Meek’s expression was, well, unhappy. Her face stormy all the same as the outside as she worried that this was yet another setback, or worse a sign to give up. If the URA Finale was cancelled due to the rain, as was the rest of the bright and sunny future Happy Meek had naively envisioned when she first entered Tracen Academy three years ago.
Concerned for Happy Meek’s obvious spiral of misery, Aoi flashed her a smile, “C'mon, cheer up. There's still plenty we can do today despite the news.” Aoi reminded her.
Happy Meek nodded, “True.” she mumbled.
Aoi's expression was determined. She retracted her hand and pulled it into a fist in front of her breast. She puffed out her chest and readied her thoughts, ready to elucidate wisdom she had learned from either the Trainer’s Handbook or even her parents before her. She took a breath and just as she was about to give Happy Meek the best pep talk of her life…
Bang, crash! Thunder shook the building.
“Ah!” Happy Meek exclaimed.
She pulled away, scared. She hunkered down at her shoulders and grabbed her ears. Her tail thrashed as she winced.
“Too loud!” Happy Meek complained.
Aoi fussed over her. “Oh, it’s okay, it’s okay.”
She cradled Happy Meek’s face, had her look up at her panicked albeit smiling. She caressed Happy Meek’s cheeks, her thumb did a backstroke over them as she hushed Happy Meek. She calmed slightly, held by her beloved mentor and trainer. She exhaled and forced a feeble smile.
“Your good, your good… You just weren’t expecting such a big noise.” Aoi consoled her.
Happy Meek shook her head.
No, she was not. Now, she was and when more thunder boomed, she felt more prepared this time. Lightning illuminated the sky outside in blinding white through the rain. She eased herself off her hackles and Aoi slowly let her go. Her hands moved downwards. She took Happy Meek’s and held them firmly but lovingly. Happy Meek gazed into Aoi’s eyes and her heart skipped a beat.
Aoi’s eyes sparkled and she found her words beyond consolation. She smiled and she had only the most pure and genuine of intentions as she imparted wisdom and pep unto Happy Meek.
“I believe in you: in us. We have thunder in our hearts, we’ll take the things we’re scared of and be bigger than them.” Aoi replied. She squeaked. She panicked again and grabbed her hair, she blushed. “Ah! I think I quoted an old pop song. And totally forgot what I wanted to say.
Happy Meek stared at her with big, wet eyes. They were wide and in awe. She smiled.
“Let’s do our best, Kiryuin-san.” Happy Meek replied.
She had a quiet certainty inside of her. Whatever Aoi had wanted to say before the thunder had caused a frighten, it likely paled to whatever she ended up saying. It was likely more hers, freed from the motte and bailey of what she had been taught and what she had been raised. She needed to open up a little more, embrace her individuality and flexibility.
Kind of like that friend of hers… Happy Meek suspected that was why their colleague and peer were so successful. Though she dared not say it aloud as Kiryuin Aoi had her own charm and drum to march to the beat too. She was a good trainer. Happy Meek wanted to do right by her.
Inspired by this incident, Happy Meek did her best. The following days provided soft ground to train on. Good for stamina and guts training so that was where they pivoted. Happy Meek needed some more of both of those stats if she wanted to place on a podium in her next two races.
The experience of training served her well. It gave her the boost she needed in these intense final races. But it wasn’t enough. It turned out the same as the rest of the dozens of races that she had run during the past three years. She came close but not close enough.
Kyoto was beautiful in the spring. The turf was vibrant and firm. The brilliant blue skies were dazzling, broken up only by the sun’s rays and the city’s skyline which blended the traditional with the new. Even from the racing green, Happy Meek could make out the Kyoto radio tower amongst the buildings and she could just imagine the crackle of news, of the winners and losers who would be reported via. She looked around as she took her place at the starting gate. The racecourse was large, it roared with countless fans and vendors who hocked their goods, from salty snacks with adorable merchandise.
Happy Meek was up against all kinds of competitors. Girls who wore military jackets and a determined expression on their face. Girls with long legs and powerful glides. She was just herself and herself wasn’t good enough to get more than third place.
But at least bronze came with the good news that the weather had improved back home. The URA Finale would go ahead but first, the Arima Kinen and that meant more training.
More hoping for the best.
They took a bus through the town, passed by the Mogami River and plenty of agricultural fields. Nakayama had a homey feel to it, Happy Meek thought and yet, it was host to the most prestigious race of the classic year. The population probably tripled to accommodate the tourism that accompanied the race. The girls, the trainers, the family members, the fans.
Happy Meek took her position at the gate. She looked through the faces of the people in the grandstand. She didn’t think she could count that high and yet, it was only Aoi whom she truly searched for. She shuddered. She glanced amongst the other girls.
Let whatever happens… Happen.
It was the longest, hard race of the year and Happy Meek did her best to go keep up. At least she could say at the end of it, she put up her dukes and had fought with the best of them in her generation. She placed somewhere in the middle of the pack.
The turf just kept going and going. The sun was blazingly hot over the open grounds of the race course. The sound of her rivals overwhelmed her: the sound of their footwork, how they breathed and even muttered under their breath. Happy Meek was quiet. Her heart quaked. She was exhausted by the end of it. It was her worst placement of her career so far and she hated it. She cried to Aoi afterwards.
They were in the tunnel together afterwards. Happy Meek had placed sixth.
“I’m sorry.” Aoi murmured.
She wiped Happy Meek’s tears away and Happy Meek felt like the scum at the bottom of a pond. She didn’t have what it took to be on top, to the one who shone. It was infuriating. She worked hard, she had the drive, she wanted to make Aoi proud but something bigger than her was stopping her.
“Don’t worry, the director said that the URA Finale is open to anyone who ran the Arima Kinen…” Aoi tried to console her.
But it did little to quell Happy Meek’s spiral of self deprecation. In the shadow of the limelight, of the glittering concert and the pristine podium, the shutter of flash photography and the gleam of a shiny ribbon. She had none of that. Only cleats worn dull.
She sobbed onto Aoi’s shoulder and Aoi rubbed her back.
“Let it all out…” she whispered.
It was embarrassing. It was childish. Happy Meek both loved and loathed every second of it. Kiryuin Aoi was, by far, her most important person: the voice who cheered her on the loudest, the one who comforted her the quietest. They were in it together as two beginners and so far beginner’s luck had evaded them, leaving only a novice’s heartbreak.
All Happy Meek wanted was a change of fortune.
There was little time to prepare, however. Time marched on and the URA Finale came before either she nor Aoi could be truly ready. The sun was shining. The birds were singing.
First came the qualifiers and Happy Meek ran like the wind.
She had nothing left to lose and everything to gain. She couldn’t believe it. They had to check the footage but she did it. She had eeked out her first win of her career but it was hardly a big one. It was an uphill battle, across the flat verdant turf of Kyoto.
But it gave her a jolt of hope. It was a totally different feel and taste to her salty tears of defeat but it wasn’t quite enough to make her believe that things had improved. She threw herself into random training. There wasn’t enough time between the off days to give her or Aoi time to truly focus. She just hashed out what she could in wit, maybe speed if she had the energy in reserve.
Second came the semi finals and it was everything that Happy Meek could have dreamed of.
She was lined up amongst plenty of familiar faces and fierce competitors. She shook out her nerves, kept her eyes ahead. She ran like she always did but with a touch more grit. With a touch more passion. She didn’t want it to be all for naught and with a metre between her and the girl behind her…
She did it. She crossed the finish line where she came in an unbeleivable first again and she couldn’t believe it. It had to be sheer luck. Karma paying its debts and she would be in a world of hurt the day after tomorrow. It would be a vile weakness to let this sudden success get to her head. She locked in and Aoi held her hand through the last of the training they could afford.
Third came the actual finals, the end of the year and the end of her career if she wasn’t careful. Happy Meek stared down the medium race course. She watched blades of grass quiver in anticipation as microphones boomed and speakers played the numbers game of favourites and fans. She was given lip service down at number four.
Her hands trembled. Her knees knocked. She flashed a smile to her great rival and that was that. On your marks, get set, go. Everyone raced at full power. Full throttle. It may as well have been life or death and Happy Meek was engulfed by the ferocity.
The ground had just a tiny bit of give underneath. It reminded Happy Meek of how the turf had been on the training grounds after the poor news had broken that the URA Finale was at risk of a wash out from the rain. She tried to blink away these thoughts but she thought of those moments in the storm, scared of the thunder and lightning.
Scared of disappointing Aoi and bringing shame to the prestigious Kiryuin name.
Happy Meek ascended. She kept running. She passed by her rivals, her friends, and strangers alike. The race seemed all but endless as the roar of the crowd overwhelmed her. This was it. The epitome of a race well run. Good sportsmanship, precious memories, and then so much at risk and at reward. She focused on herself.
Her rhythm, her pace. Her goals, her loved ones. She thought of what Aoi had told her and right now, it was all she could feel: they had thunder in their hearts. Poor, sweet, and easily scared: absent minded with two left feet, Happy Meek was far from a force of nature like a storm and yet she fully believed Aoi’s words. She would become the sweeping tempest of a victor.
In those words that Aoi had spoken, in the cold and dreary afternoon of a storm, Happy Meek found important courage within her because it truly was now or never. She sped up. Five hundred metres, four hundred metres, she panted, three hundred metres, two hundred metres, her arms were cut by the wind, one hundred metres, zero metres, her heart pounded like a drum. She was exhausted but she felt unburdened by it.
She would never have to run a losing race after this ever again and yet. Somewhere in it all, in her head which was clouded by all the time she had spent with Aoi, in sorrow and in joy, in mirth and in melancholy, she had done it. She hadn’t even realised until she saw it out of the corner of her eye.
Her idol costume on the big screen and then and only then did she realise. She had been the first to pass by the ornate metal decoration which had been erected for the sole purpose of the URA Finale.
How… How?
Happy Meek was basked in so much cheer. In so many voices combined as one just to encourage her and she slowed to a jog. She waved hello to old and new fans alike. She searched for Aoi’s face first amongst the near endless crowd which had been built up in the URA Finale’s grandstands.
There was so much to do afterwards but in the tunnel, it slowed to a snail’s crawl. She and Aoi had all the time in the world for Happy Meek to catch her breath and prepare for her very first concert wherein she was the heroine in position zero: centre stage and with a solo in the middle. It was going to be glorious but not as glorious as all Happy Meek wanted as she had one on one time with her trainer.
Happy Meek smiled and Aoi covered her own mouth. She was beside herself in glee. Music hummed in the distance but they felt like they were in a world of their own backstage.
“I did it.” Happy Meek declared. Her voice was still its usual soft volume and yet, the confidence that she held was entirely new. “I won.”
“You did!” Aoi squealed. “You did it, you won!”
There were tears of joy in the corner of Aoi’s eyes. She was so cute. So happy. So over the moon. Happy Meek had never seen her like this before. They had finally done it together: they brought in her biggest win and finally, a jewel for Aoi’s resume.
Happy Meek’s heart wavered. She needed to do the right thing, to return to favour. She reached out. She wiped Aoi’s tears away. Her fingers trembled, she was awkward as she smudged the tears away. Aoi’s skin was warm and taut. She had never touched it before.
“What are…?” Aoi’s voice trailed off.
She couldn’t complete her question. Happy Meek couldn’t answer it. The words she wanted to say were so near and dear to her, they slipped out effortlessly as she looked up at Aoi with all the admiration in the world.
“I was able to do it because of you, Kiryuin-san.” Happy Meek confessed. “I thought about you. I wanted to make you happy and I remembered what you said. About how we have thunder in our hearts. Then I heard it. The thunderous applause and the next thing I knew… I'd won.”
“I… I’m so glad.” Aoi cried. “I’m so glad that my words were able to move you… That’s… That’s all I want as your trainer.”
“I’m glad I was able to be your trainee, Kiryuin-san…” Happy Meek murmured. She took a breath and she savoured how her lungs inflated so fully for the first time after the race. She closed her eyes briefly and when she exhaled, they opened and she saw what she wanted in such pristine clarity. “I’m glad I was able to make you happy because… because you are my most important person, Kiryuin-san, I mean it. With all my heart. I never want to be apart, I can’t imagine anyone being as important to me as you are.”
Aoi was taken aback by Happy Meek’s words. She flinched at the touch of Happy Meek’s gentle fingers still by her face. Aoi looked deep into Happy Meek’s eyes, the pink glistened with such intensity. It was entirely possible that this was the most that Happy Meek had ever spoken to her in the past three years. Even Happy Meek was thinking as such as her words lingered, ardent and uncomfortable. She was of so little words but they always meant such enormity. Especially in this instance. Aoi hesitated but Happy Meek meant it all and possibly even more.
Even if they had to cross lines between trainer and trainee, mentor and protege, student and teacher. Happy Meek’s feelings transcended them all and became all encompassing.
“I want to keep running with you, Aoi-san.” Happy Meek affirmed.
“I… I do, too.” Aoi hesitated and, yet she softened into Happy Meek’s touch.
Happy Meek’s heart skipped a beat and she smiled shyly. There was more ordinance outside of their hidey hole in the stadium. It sounded almost like thunder but no, it was Happy Meek’s name being called for the winning concert. Aoi smiled and encouraged her to go and meet her peers on stage. Happy Meek nodded and made the silent promise: all that she would sing would be sung for her dear Kiryuin Aoi.
Because all the thunderous applause in the world paled in comparison to what Aoi did for her.
















