Had my first meeting at the reproductive clinic/center today AHHH
It went really well. My diagnosises are still a possible hurdle later on, but so far they haven't believed them to be a problem so that's nice. I also need to loose a bit of weight but I'm still under the max weight for treatment... just would be better to get a bit under it. It's something that I've got handled though so it's fine.
There might be a slight issue with me not ovulating tho. Like of all things that was not a thing I was concerned about. It means I'll likely have to do a medicated cycle, which I had sooo hoped not to have to do, but it might end up being a good thing? Idk we'll see.
The next appointment with the councelor isn't for another 2 months. I had expected 1 month wait, not 2. I keep being glad I am being proactive because this whole thing really could've taken me another 2 years if I hadn't gotten the ball rolling early. It has to be two different appointments with the councelor, minimum, but it should be done before summer holidays? Idk, but I'm hoping to be able to do my first attempt with my august cycle, but if I keep being regular despite maybe not even ovulating I might be timing it weird. I don't even know it's so much waiting and I really should just add another 2 months to my expectations because that feels like what has kept me sane thus far.
It is kind of annoying that I had to have like an hour meeting with my psychiatrist last year to get the referral, and now I have to see a counselor twice so I'm spending a lot more time doing this than most other people. Yet, every time I think the time is getting close I freak out so much. But I'm freaking out less because I feel like more and more things are getting handled.
This summer I'm going to clean out my apartment so much, and I'm so excited for it. The tip is going to get sick of me lmao (I'm giving to second hand and charity shops as much as I can). It's like the last things that need to be done... besides getting all the things and all that. Also anchor furniture to walls etc bc woah
I am feeling a lot better about it because my mom and dad I felt were going to be the biggest hurdle, but my mom has started hinting about me having kids now lmao. Every time they talk about people not having children she goes like "hint hint nudge nudge" to me.
One thing that makes me hope that the september cycle is the one is that then the baby might come on my dad's birthday, and imagine it being a boy... I just can't. I used to think I would struggle to get excited to have a son, but now I'm just as excited for either... but having a boy and giving him my dad's name as his middle name would feel so special.
Right now I feel pretty set on the names I'd like a child of mine to have, but I'm sure they'll change dramatically. I love Jesper as a name for a boy, and Althea for a girl. Like love so much.
(I'm also really scared I'll have twins, it's why I'm scared of a medicated cycle because it increases the risk by a bit, like IUIs produce more twins that IVFs now!!)
