Jul 6
I’ve been on no touch for two days. Denial was getting into dangerous territory for me because I was touching so much, I would get so sensitive, edges started happening with little to no touch. and of course the ruins. Fuck the ruins. They do not provide an iota of relief. They do the opposite and turn me into a feral cat in heat.
So I decided it would be best to chill the fuck out so I didn’t become a menace to society. I still am a menace to society, but just like, a lil calmer of one. The ache is still here, so I’m still very much feeling the denial but just in a way that isn’t quite so painful :) I told myself that I need to be on no touch until at least Tuesday. We’ll see what happens tomorrow I guess
