#anon..

when artem cried.. oh when he cried. when he couldn't even bring himself to even pretend to strangle rosa... the children never saw it in real time... with his event.. where rosa recreated a scene from his favorite movie, just for him.. they never experienced year 1 and 2 artem in all his glory without knowledge of the Future.. truly the horror of it all.

they never read por una cabeza and considered that the Mid Artem Card, not because of its character writing, but because of its underwhelming plot. when the Mid Artem Card was the one that offered character development from atmospherics, with artem fully respecting mc's choices and decisions, even if that meant rejecting him entirely...

i mean my vision of him was influenced by yours to some degree because holy shit, but he's a walking contradiction!! he's so grounded and not interested in complexity at all (apart from pvp strats), yet he's a star person!!! ethereal being!! yet so lowly physical, growing out of soil and yummy nutrients yesyes

he loves like he fights, laughing, going around it, hyping everyone up but himself. his body hurts most days but its okay, he's used to it. diabetes do be a bitch. he'd rather follow than lead because he does not like responsability, but once he's responsible for something he'll hate himself over the smallest mistake, even those that arent his fault.

he thrives under bright sunlight and dim silver starlight, because plant!!! and starchild!! he hears when the Universe sings! he hears black holes drumming onto spacetime and supernovas bursting into laughter! and sometimes he just lays in a patch of sunlight and soaks it up like a well-loved cat, even for a brief moment bc he's bad at staying still.

he's bad at hating too. he can't quite manage it. it takes a lot for him to feel genuine dislike for someone instead of just indifference or pity. he was not molded with the capacity to hate anyone but himself.

i could go on man

anon i wrote u an essay and tumblr deleted it . i hope this suffices but pls know ive been chewin on this for days and my goodnes , i love what u have to say abt him , Especially about him and his ability to hold hatred its so *cradles the words* its So *beholds the cucumber* Its So *turns into bubbles*

that second last bit abt the sun also hit me . he was supposed to do this ;-; this is a glimpse of what life should have been like , and instead it is a gift of a moment , and then lbr he feels bad about needing a break . 'whats wrong with u ? everythings fine , get up and go do something , why arent u doing anything ?' stop ittttt ;---;

yes ;0; grgrhjgf he was supposed to be a star , he was made out of love and life and milk and dirt and light , he was supposed to carry the torch of his entity , and instead he spent his entire life defying the design he was given ; n ; just bashing himself up because he learnt what a strong hero was and went well , thats gotta be me ! n then he comes fresh off his three+ year long bender into the island and is just . Who the fuck Is he . and What is his life . of course hes gonna be a mess the second u scratch the surface and learn what contradictions are there . his upbringing and core values that had to take a backseat so he could survive being a hunter ;-;

this is.. just very odd. ej is in college and working four jobs, the least of his active concerns are the definitive break up between gina and him. the entire point of him saying that there are things he would have done differently was to emphasize / parallel ricky (the literal main character of hsmtmts,) not missing his chance to do things the right way. his way.

as far as pw not being bones, that’s just wrong? gina porter and ricky bowen are in love. their entire narrative frames so much of this final season because they were destined to come back to each other (i.e the hat, ricky saying “full stop” during love you forever, their animal shelter date where ricky sang the theme song of her favorite childhood show to her, just so she knew he would never make fun of her, etc etc) where does gina having unresolved feelings for elt*n play into any of that?