I, V (227M), recently recanted my religion for my lover, PF (504M), but he doesn't seem ready to try again in our relationship.
I fell down a bit of a zealous rabbit hole and wound up making quite a mess of things, but I have seen the error of my ways and I seek to amend them. I love him deeply and dearly, and I know he has some affections for me as well, but he remains distant even after I have recanted my beliefs in what I had thought to be a superior deific being.
I am ready to begin righting my wrongs, but I want advice on how to get him to meet me in the middle about things.
I'm sorry if this sounds rude but you guys are HOW OLD? You know what, not gonna worry about that part actually. There's other parts that are way more important to actually pulling cards. I'm going to use the Transient Light Tarot by Ari Wisner for this reading. Your card is the Revealer.
What happened with that color balance? I promise I'm usually better at taking pictures than this.
A fairly common thing to do in specialized or themed tarot decks is to rename the Major Arcana. In this deck, the High Priestess is instead the Revealer. The keywords of this card are intuitive, unbiased, inquisitive, and seeking.
It's tempting to pin down "truths" to gain a sense of security, whether it's "truths" about yourself or others and particularly in terms of how other people feel about you. But the work doesn't end after you get a snappy sentence to describe things. The Revealer wants you to keep seeking the answers that want to be explored. Do not be afraid to be challenged or to listen to opposing views; clearly you've already done this so far if you've gotten to this point, but it doesn't stop at your current point. Exchange dogmatism for an open mind and a compassionate heart so you can keep making steps towards the middle ground you seek.
A line in particular that sticks out to me for this card is, Refine wisdom like silver. Not sure why, but it's very poignant.
Good luck out there, V. Hopefully things go well for you and PF.
~J
