To him Worth, it was something he could earn. It’s something like belonging.
And love is wanting to protect, to fight until you’re wrecked,
coming back reformed, reborn and stronger too.
“You fight till you’re basically in pieces... You can’t eat a thing... You choose to do these things?”
Why. Why. Why. Why. Why. Why. Why. Why. Why. Why. Why. Why.
Why did he strive to be strong? Why did he have to shed blood? Why did he throw away his humanity? Why did he have to throw away weakness?
Was it to protect the existence of someone important?
(I don’t want to lose anyone anymore.)
That’s right his life had been defined by loss. Do you know what it’s like, to look into the casket and only see the torn up remains of your father’s corpse? It should have been Kuroiwa’s father who was left behind. When he lost an arm, no, he should have been torn entirely in half.
His father, he wanted to one day work alongside him as an investigator. He was looking forward to working along side him.
"Kukie Urie, allow me to spell it out for you. The one you truly hate is your father himself. The weaking that died and left you behind all this while.”
At that moment the conscious mind of Urie Kuki that was still struggling to take control snapped as if it had never existed in the first place. It was all a pretense. He had the organs of a ghoul sewn into him after all in order to become stronger. He facilitated the process by letting the rc cells wrap around him, and strangle his bones from the inside out like they were snakes spreading inside of him. It was not like at this point he was suddenly no longer human.
No, for a long time now he had been a human in name only. He was strong, s-s-s-s-strong, so strong! There was no point in hiding otherwise.
If he hated his father than, everything he had worked for this entire time had been pointless. Urie somehow could accept that. The words the clown weaved around him like a net to be caught in were somehow more comfortable than what he had been telling himself all this time.
He had been snatched out of an inopportune moment. The exact moment before he could be saved, no right now he was still filled with all those murderous feelings desperate to escape, but the last remnants of his mind could not see anything familiar.
A street? He thought he had been in a building. A clown, where was that clown? He looked around desperately, he needed to fight. To prove he was strong. (Definitely). He was definitely strong.
Urie heard, casual whistling, and the sound of light foosteps. His head turned around tongue flopping around wildly.
"F-f-f-uruta. Rank 1. Suspicious, watch him! Because I am your dog! (Grrrrr). How ridiculous he’s not a threat! Do you really think somebody like Furuta could kill the Washuu? B-but, if you say Bark, I’ll Bark! Make me a special class after I kill him, Matsuri!”