#anightvaleintern

Things got revised and filming preparations began. I saw the actress they cast, and she couldn’t have been over 150 lbs and I was like HOLD UP NAW FAT ACCEPTANCE WAS SUPER IMPORTANT TO MAGGIE YOU DON’T LIE LIKE THIS and they reneged again. 

My very good friend Maggie @anightvaleintern​ passed away a year and a day ago. Maggie, I still miss you so much. I think about you all the time. I carry a small piece of you around with me whenever I am at my happiest and most positive. I put your ribbon on my hat, and I know you are with me in  spirit in those times I need you. You helped forged me into the good, confident man that I am today. 

Maggie Davidson loved, lived and worked in Lubbock, Texas. She was a vibrant and creative soul who cared for family and friends, volunteered her time and money to help battered women and LGBT teens and was a champion of those individuals that couldn't speak for themselves.

In lieu of flowers, Maggie’s parents have asked if people could donate to the charities that are important to her: MADD, Planned Parenthood, The Trevor Project, the ACLU. 

I can honestly say I’ve never cried so much about anything. Maggie was my friend, and while we didn’t speak to each other a lot, I knew she was there if I needed her. We knew each other for around two years before we met in person. She needed a place to park her car when she took a plane from DFW. She remembered I lived in Dallas and just asked. That was Maggie. We both thought what was really hilarious was that it was Thanksgiving and all my big conservative family was going to see her car and all the liberal stickers on it. They definitely did ask who’s car it was. That was three years ago. We became better friends after that and she would come down for the annual Ren Fair and when we got tickets for Welcome To Nightvale. We talked about sexual and romantic orientations when I was just figuring that stuff out. 

             One thing I will never forget about Maggie is that for the longest time she didn’t smile for pictures, at least not ones that were for the internet. She said that was for, “the male gaze.” It definitely made me think about things from a different perspective. Maggie was a tank in the best sense of the word. She stood up for what she believed and held true to them. I want to be more like that.

              I met Maggie’s girlfriend Ereka today and she treated me like family. She and Leigh are going through so much grief right now I’m basically on a picnic. I wish we had been friends before this. We hugged a lot and comforted each other. We laughed with Reese about the Ace colored stained glass windows. Reese was amazing too. What can you say? There is nothing you can say to make the pain go away. But I’m glad I was there.

So there was always the possibility that the live steam would not go well. I had a friend of Maggie’s Whats App me some of it, so I at least got to hear Ereka’s speech (and cry through it, and smile through it)

There were ‘what would maggie do’ badges and there was such a long line of people. They printed out some of her art work I choose for her. They had my favourite photo of her with Sugar in his little doggy graduation cap. To my surprise, they read out my eulogy for her. I cried.

I also saw her Urn. It’s pink and blue and beautiful and so extra. It’s very Maggie.

There was so much laughter and a lot of cyndi lauper which my boyfriend grinned at a lot. (A boyfriend who has looked after me this week despite being very sick.)

Maggie would have loved the service. And bawled her eyes out.

It still hurts, and will do for a long time. But she’s at rest now and the people important to her got to say what they wanted to say.

So in light of ‘what would maggie do’ I’m going to pick myself up and carry on.

Those were some of the best 6 years of my life, Maggie. I’ll never forget you.

Last night my good friend Maggie @anightvaleintern was killed by a drunk driver. I only just heard about it an hour ago and it’s just now starting to hit me. I met Maggie on tumblr through our mutual friend @startrekrenegades. Maggie was an amazing person and even better friend. For those of you that have been following me a while you may remember that it was an off hand comment by Maggie that made me realize I was full blown asexual to begin with. I know she always liked that story. Literally my favorite yearly event was when we would always meet up for a weekend at the renaissance fair together. I was really looking forward to this year. 

Maggie was beautiful, she was talented. We met on tumblr and decided we were firmly stuck with each other. We taught each other a lot about patience (And I one upped the best friendship by introducing her to her girlfriend, @nobiliorpomis whom i also love very much)

I was supposed to fly out and see her for her 30th birthday but plans changed. It was still something we were going to do. She wanted to visit England and do the 'london tourist' thing, I wanted to show her everything else.

She's still my best friend. My Moth Girl partner. The Slytherin to my Ravenclaw as silly as that sounds. The Forest to my Dee.