#angst ask

I knew this kind of ask was coming 👀

Can S possibly do what wanda did when they were overtaken with grief? Like can they make the mc out of nothing and create their own little narrative and take control of a small town to live the life they imagine having with the mc before they were taken from them too early?

Bat shit insane S era?

This is what they deserved.

After everything they’ve been through with you.

The two of you deserved a happy ending. Not some quick death and a pitiful burial with only a hand few of loved ones there to attend. 

That’s why they felt no guilt or shame when they look at you now. Your face warm, eyes filled with light. You stood in the shop they rebuilt in your old ones image. They stared at you as you came towards them. Their hands trembled at their side as your reached out for them. Your hand grazing their cheek.

They shuddered at the warmth, leaning into your touch.

“Hello, S.” You smile.

The same smile that you gave them when you had blood in your teeth, eyes fading and body loosing its blood. They gasp at the thought, flinching away from you. Turning away, slapping a hand over their mouth. Their breath becoming sharp as they stared wide eyed at the ground.

“Oh…oh, S. Look at me, honey.” They slowly turned back towards you. You had come closer and your face was so soft. Then you reached out again and wrapped your arms around them and squeezed. “It’s okay, baby. I’ve got you. You’re safe now.” That, that moment right there. Time froze and so did they.

Any regret they felt vanished when they returned your tight embrace.

Ah, well, I should have seen this ask coming. To tell you the entire thruth, as I read that ask I thought a bit about TKH ROs possible reactions and you're right in saying that this will be out of character for Arthur. I'm going to explain what I mean under here:

Arthur: They have a way with words that always takes into account the other person's feelings, as a result it's very rare for them to end up hurting someone accidentally. And if Arthur hurt you on purpose, you can bet there won't be a way back from that.

No guilt, no plea for forgiveness. Only cold black empty.

Evaine: as soon as they hear themselves and what they just said sinks in, they immediately widen their panicked eyes on the tears they can see on MC's face. And then they're back again, this time as the perpetrator, the one to scream, the one to hurt-

This would be a near-flashback experience for Evaine, they take a panicked step back, choking on frantic apologies while going for the nearest exit. Evaine's head is screaming at them to run, to get as far away as they can because you won't want them anymore after this, but they somehow manage to take some deep breaths and to ask for forgiveness in a low voice.

Yniol: Yniol's viciousness, so strong in their sudden rebuttal, comes completely to a halt as they see the tears they have caused. They are scared of themselves for a fraction of a moment, then after that so ashamed they could cry. What have they done?

Yniol's words are pleading, their eyes even more so. They reach out with their hands, stopping at the last moment "forgive me. That was horrible to say."

Morien: Morien has a very long history of practicing self-hate, this would be no different.  Despite being a physician, they are quite familiar with hurting others, but not like this. They wish they could take everything back as soon as they see tears on one of the only person they have ever cared about so deeply. Morien takes a hesitant step forward, offering an immediate apology instead of the bitterness of an argument now long forgotten "I didn't mean that, love."

They are going to give you as much space as you need from them. Alternatively, if MC seeks comfort, they will provide it and be there for them. Until night comes, that is. Because Morien will think over your tears and the pain in your eyes for a lot of time to come.

Gwyar: oh, Gwyar is one of the most considerate person in the castle, but they can become quite heated in an argument and, expecially if they are hurt, lash out. Gwyar wants to take it back immediately after they say it but now it's late and they can only freeze as tears gather in their person's eyes. They reflexively have to hold back their own tears as they stammer a barely-understandable apology. If you'll have them, Gwyar seeks out forgiveness through physical contact and/or pacifying gestures. They're going to be down and a bit more distant for a few days, though, afraid of sudden rejection on MC's part.

Imagine ROs and MC are fighting because of something and the ROs accidentaly say "I wish I never met you" to MC and then they realise what did they just said, but it's too late, when they look back at MC they know they broke something that they can't fix?

And how about making it like deep crushing almost relationship stage for more pain?

FERN!!!

This is your last angst ask!! I mean it!!

Zane: His shoulders tense, he'd said these words before- but not in a while. The two of you had gotten better, close, heck, even closer than before.

Yet it's all crumbling in front of eir face now.

Your eyes seem distant, lost, like you've finally given up.

And the buzzing starts.

-

Evander: Why now? Why now are you finally getting enough of him? After everything! After all the things he's said, done...

You stare at him, devoid if emotion. It fucking hurts.

"hey. Dont do that" he growls "You dont get to give up when we're so fucking close."

"close to what, Evander?" You spit out, it makes him tense and he considers his words carefully... Before they sink in defeat

"nevermind."

-

Aimé: You immediately feel Aimé's cold hand wrap around your wrist.

"I'm sorry!" Xe rushes to speak "I only said that to hurt but- I dont want to hurt you, mc" xe pleads, xyr eyes are wide with worry and fear, fear of losing you, of losing whatever this was becoming.

"please... Mc" xe whimpers "say something..."

But you cant.

-

Nova: She hadn't thought she'd be capable of lashing out like that, saying things she doesn't mean. Nova stares at you, shocked at this outcome.

How could she mess this up so royally? Why?? She was just angry- she didn't mean it.

And the way you're looking back at her- she hesitates to apologize, would it even be worth it?

Yes. Yes it would.

"mc." She straightens her back "I didn't mean that. Can we talk about it?"

"no." Nova feels like you just slapped her.

-

Kane: No! No no no no they didn't mean it! Please mc, please!

When you turn your back to them they reach for you- then hesitate...

But ultimately they grab your hand.

"Mc. I- I didnt mean it" they beg, pleade "You're the best part of my life"

augh my heart

"please don't leave me" - Ezio

Wow this is absolutely lovely and I’m very glad that you liked Agony/Bliss, I needed a bit of cheering up today 🥺❤️!

Okay so rec’ing a few angsty Wolfstar fics (I’m presuming you mean Wolfstar??):

Trust Me To Take You Home

Halloween, 1981. Remus finds Sirius before the aurors do and is forced to make a terrible choice. He thinks Sirius killed the Potters. Happy ending! (alt title: remus lupin’s no good very bad couple of months). I don’t think the author is on tumblr but if I’m wrong please let me know?

Heavy in Your Arms by @mollymarymarie

Sirius is the perfect Slytherin student. Until he finds a Wolf in the Forbidden Forest. Until he finds out that Wolf is Remus Lupin. Until he carries a battered Remus Lupin back to his bedroom to nurse him back to health after a violent blood moon. Wonderful fic

For Whatever It’s Worth also by @mollymarymarie

Remus just ended the secret fling he'd been having with Sirius over the summer, and Sirius is not alright. There’s a part two with Remus’ PoV. Beautiful…

Keep Your Electric Eyes On Me Babe

Basically Remus being an oblivious pining idiot in canon marauders pre Wolfstar/ get together fic! I don’t know the author here, but if they are on tumblr let me know?

Well, We’re Mates

Sirius asks Remus out, he says no (for a few days) - massive Sirius pining… Also don’t think author is here but let me know!

And of my fics, in case you wanted a bit more angst:

The Prank - Boys Don’t Cry

I know you’re a beast Lupin. I intend to prove it. And when I do, I’ll have you expelled or worse. We shouldn’t have to put up with the likes of you. You’re a threat to everyone. You don’t belong here. I don’t know how you live with yourself.

He stared at the words, afraid he might be sick. He felt like he couldn’t breathe. He could see his fingers shaking. He could feel Snape looking at him. He folded the parchment up, unsure how to respond. He needed to say something.

All Too Well

Prompt: Wolfstar angst - Snape gives Sirius an ultimatum

Lonely Nights in Grimmauld Place

Post Azkaban angst:

When she mentions that name, his mouth goes dry and he thinks he might be sick. He’s holding onto the tumbler so tightly it might shatter in his hands any second. He looks down at the ground. Potters… images of two smiling, kind figures, Mia Potter holding out her hands as though to hug him and Monty Potter grinning at him. The best people he ever met. Dead. Worse, he failed to protect their son, his brother, his family. He closes his eyes and shivers, sees himself entering Godric’s Hollow, as though watching a muggle film, sees James’ body on the ground in front of the stairs, Lily’s crumpled form in front of the –

From (x||x)

        High Tide clinched his fists tight, glancing down at the insignia on his chest. A flow of memories flashed from his optics, each frame some horror and horror coming. He let out a sharp sigh, glancing down at you.

        "I tried once." He mumbled. "Back in the days. I... was used to date a Decepticon cadet, but I didn't know what side they were... We get along quite well, at this moment, the war wasn't that restrictive and destructive. We spend some good time together."

        A pause.

        "Until their Decepticon group found out about it. They were cruel, not as much brutal as DJD are, but they sure are. I confronted them, I didn't even considered our sides in this war." His servos started to get shakey. He swallowed dry to keep talking.

        "It was an intense debate. Until they finally did what I feared the most. The leader of the group killed my ex-partner from betrayal, cold-blooded, right in front of me. At this point, I didn't think on anything else, and let the rage flow through my veins."

        His vocal cords almost vanished completely, as he's trying so hard to hold his cry. "A-And the last thing I saw was me, covered in energon and... and my almost dead partner there. I tried my best to try to keep them alive... But I failed. I failed miserably! I just stood there and killed the entire team, all by myself, while they were bleeding to death, and after that, I almost meet their fate for my injuries! Because I am nothing but a sensitive guy! A stupid sensitive mech!"

        High Tide snapped. After long years – even decades – of not venting out, he finally snapped. His expression, before angry and frustrated by himself with angry tears flowing down his faceplate, slowly turned into a sad one, as glanced down at his servos.

        "... After holdin' their body, slowly turning grey as their sparks slowly stopped to glow... I spend some days alone. Almost considered dead."

        High Tide looked at you, slowly backing away.