#angst post

TW: BAD AND/OR AGGRESSIVE PARENTING

Charlie and Sirius angst (idk if I'll actually turn this to a comic

Thx @t0ta11yhumann0ta1i3nh3h3 for his help!!!

I think they would have a rough dynamic, considering The "Evil mastermind" Sirius is and how much he values himself and his goals

OOC: WARNING This post will have that will a 35 second video that contains all of the following.

Flashing, Glitched screen filters, Moving/flashing text, Starts with ear ringing effect for 5 seconds,..Slow to Racing Heart Beat Audio Lute Hyperventilating & Crying Audio..

Proceed at your own risk.

[ALL THIS IS MY BLOGS OWN LORE/HEADCANNONS.NOTHING IS CANNON.]

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Am I In Love...With Adam?

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He is a respected friend.

I respect our "̵̫͌Friendship"̵̫͌too much to allow Μ¥Ş€Ł₣ ŦØ β€ such a conflict to ever occur and ruin it.

He is also my general. My Boss.

An Archangel.

Not to mention, It would be an unprofessional and unbalanced relationship.

I was created to run his army, Protect Heaven-

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I was supposed too......Too....

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ḏ̵̥͗α̴̪̿́̂͠м̴̠̗̺͊͜и̴̗͙̞͙́ ̴͍͇̪͂̍͗̾b̵͓͎́̄̑̐͊i̸̡̻̳̗͒̿̔̆̕т̴̝̪̝̌͂c̷̢̡͓̞͂̐̂н̴̪̻̳͗̉͘̚.̴̨͉̝̄ ̴̡̧̪̦͝ͅḇ̸̧̪̯̅̇̊̀я̶̡͕̽͐є̵͇̦̫̂̓α̸͖̣̌̊̃т̸̡̹̀н̵͚͇̌̇̌͂̀є̵̰̙͙͋̅̃̀.̷̜̳̭͇͐ ̶͈́͑g̷̬̪̲̋͗̎̄̊͜ͅє̵̧̛͍͓̐̄̎т̶̠̙̝̬̘͑̅́͘ ̷̨͕̖̏͂̅͠i̸̩̝̯̯̇̉̚т̴̲̝̰͔͙͐ ̷͓͕̂̌т̵̱̲͐̓͋σ̸̞̔̃g̵͍̝͒̾͂͗̚є̸͔̈́̀̉̃̍т̸̬̫̓̍̇̆н̶̲̯̌̂є̷̜̺̪̥́я̸̤͓͎̂͗̂͜-̴̹̻̠̗̿f̷̢͉͍̟̓̀̃̌̈́υ̶̥̠̞͙̊̇̋c̸͍̀̇̂͌̆k̸̮͂̇̒.̶̻̗̯͆̒̈́̏̎]̸͙͂̋͝

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R̸̡͔̭͕̞͙͓̈̓͊̂̉i̷̼̐ġ̶͉̩̘͝h̷͎̻͖̣́͆̈́ẗ̷̡̛̮̣̯̹́̊͜.̵̯͙͓͖̮̙̼̍̀̌̊͘.̴̖͆̔.̷͎̖̼̆͒̌̃̓̂͝

̷T̶̟̑h̴̨͌i̵͔̽s̷͇̄ ̴̡̑Ī̴̜s̶͎͒ ̵̨̐N̷̞̎ó̵͖t̶̫̏ ̵͉̇R̶̳̉ḙ̶̏a̴͈̓l̴͕̏.̵͔͋.̴̠͘

̴͙̗͉̪̿̄̈̾J̶u̵s̷t̸ ̵A̷ ̸P̸a̴n̶i̶c̶ ̴A̷t̷t̶a̷c̸k̷.̷.̷.̷.̶.̵

̴J/u/s/t/ N/e/e/d/ T/o B/r/e/a/t/h/

̵͚̃̚͜.................

Ahem..

The fact that Adam see's me his closest friend, is an honor of mine.

The Feelings...."Love" I would have towards him is what one would have for a close friend they value & respect. I am sure Adam feels the same.

I would never assume anything more than that.

Why are you all so instrested in my love life??

I don't have one, Im too busy with my work.

I'm at work right now and I was talking with Soap about how sometimes it's really difficult to get up in the morning. Some asshole overheard and told me to stop 'being a lazy bitch' and now I'm hiding in the break room having a panic attack.

Aynür's inner turmoil.

This takes place near the end of the second movie and the start of the third.

Aynür is frozen in grief. She honours her younger brothers death, but she's left lifeless. Throughout the whole movie, she shows little to no emotion. Her family is everything to her. Losing a family member was equal to losing a part of herself.

Lo'ak narrates her part as "My sister? She was frozen in grief. She was there but not there. She was never the same after my brothers death."

~it was really late at night. johnny sat in the lot looking up at the stars as his arms bled. johnny was used to the burning sensation his arms had after a blade ran across them. Johnny sighed and took a drag of his cigarette, thinking about how he’s gonna have to wear long sleeves for a while. The gang was used to him with jackets and hoodies on at all times, never thinking of it. it was until the next morning that Two-Bit had found johnny asleep in the lot, his arms having dried blood all over them. Two-Bit panicked. he thought Johnny was dead. Two picked up johnny’s sleeping form, tears falling down his freckled face. Johnny woke up shortly after, forgetting about the cuts on his arms and realizing Two-Bit was holding him. When Two saw Johnny stir, He hugged johnny so tight and sobbed into his hair.

“I thought you were dead!!” 

Two-Bit cried. It was just now that Johnny saw that his arms were exposed. Two-Bit turned the boy around and held his shoulders. 

“why would you do such a thing to yourself, kid?”

“I don’t know- My Ma and dad were fighting and I’m just so tired of it! It feels like Nobody cares for me anymore.” Johnny kept Rambling around as Two-Bits gaze softened.

“we care.” 

Johnny shut himself up at his friend’s words. 

“I’m sorry-“

“Don’t apologize, kid. Let’s get you cleaned up.”

Two-Bit walked johnny to his own house and sat johnny on the couch. Two Cleaned the cuts and made sure they weren’t infected.

“…are you gonna tell the gang..?”

Johnny asked softly as Two-Bit bandaged his arms.

“Only if you want me to.”

Johnny shook his head.

“alright. I won’t tell. …but you gotta promise me something, kid.”

Two-Bit looked johnny in the eyes.

“promise to tell me if you feel like doing this. you scared the shit outta me. I don’t want to lose you.”

Johnny nodded.

but the eggs really are so young in canon. they're like. ten. at most. if we want to be reasonable and not say "they're literally three months old."

and just thinking about chayanne. being ten years old. he and tallulah had to get a chair to hang up the crown for the techno memorial.

he's so young and fragile but he's trying so hard. he's ready for war at any moment. he's his uncle's nephew through and through, but the Blade had an infinity to become what he was. chayanne is trying to be an ancient blood god at ten years old.

and I think q!phil realizes this. or at least realized it. Back before the codes started really getting bad, in the peaceful times, when they were just vibing on an island and the worst thing that could happen to an egg was Random Act of Slimecicle, he and Wil both tried to keep Chayanne and Talullah from becoming warriors.

And if we're operating on the principle that DSMP is like. kinda canon. like canon when the angst calls for it. phil and wil know what happens to children who have to see war. children who reach for a sword when they wake up in the morning. children who know how to strap on armor before they can tie their shoes.

and they didn't want that. quesadilla island was supposed to be a fresh start. was supposed to be safe. was supposed to be nothing like the smoking crater Wil once ruled.

but Philza is the angel of death and carnage follows Wilbur like a shadow.

The eggs never had a chance.

Chayanne could have never been a normal child.

There is too much history, too much weight on his young shoulders.