Yesterday was a real brain busting anger episode.

No one got physically hurt, so that's good. I used my plan of throwing myself outside to walk and hopefully better channel my anger.

To motorist I must apologies. In my defence I was not thinking clearly. I have never been so angry. I was walking on the road right next to the curb, yet all vehicles were moving into the coming lane of traffic to pass me walking on my crutches. Just going out for a walk can rough going on me. The chronic illness alone never mind the brain injury, neck back etc. I'm thinking whats more dangerous than me walking on the middle line on the road. It got to the point no matter where I was they passed me on the opposite lane of traffic (very rural area) still very dangerous. One guy gave me the finger. My anger was so fueled by me being tiered, physical throbbing, frustrated and still angry 4hours later, that I responded in the like. That's not who I am. That's my angry brain talking. What have I learnt? Just throwing myself outside is not enough. I must have a detailed plan and route. Instead of roaming aimlessly, pissing off motorist and loosing my phone.

I was way past abel to operate heavy machinery, I know now do not drive when angry. I'm still waiting for psychologist services, so much for free medical care.

On a good note a somebody found my phone and returned it. Which did alleviate a good portion of my anger after realizing that I lost my phone. It's just a phone went through my mind too. Note to self backup photos, recipes, notes etc. That will solve another issue for the "next time". I really don't want there to be a next time either. So I must manage my self and my energy better. I have a distraction in mind. Breathing and mindful thoughts. A change of scenery, a shelf life for the anger.

Perhaps if I recite a mantra and watch my breathing as soon as I notice Anger Elevation. Ten they cart you away in handcuffs screaming about my precious. At some point I became quite winded which didn't help myself in that moment either. I must get my breathing under control as soon as I realize 6-7 angry. Regular exercise is so important, but I can't always be physical.

Ridiculously proud of this.  

Big thanks to @moon-valley-drive for creating these hilarious characters! 

The fantastic comics of @moon-valley-drive.

I became best friends with @moon-valley-drive and all I got was this lousy T-shirt.

I need to make a better one!