HELLO, HI! I WAS READING OVER YOUR PAGE AND I SAW ANGO SOOOOOO I WAS HOPING I COULD MAKE A REQUEST. If it’s a bad idea please feel free to discard it.
Could you hc or a one shot of Ango and anyone else of your choosing, with an s/o with an ability similar to corruption. Where they can lose control of themselves and become really destructive, and the s/o is pretty reckless with this. (Maybe a little bit of hurt Angst?)
Anyways, that’s it from me. I have you have a good day/night! <3
Pairings: Ango × s/o with a destructive ability
Warnings: angst, mentions of explosions and death
Pretty excited because it's my first request!! Thank you!! I have to say it was a bit challenging because Ango is one of the most difficult character to write for me, since we see so little of him. But I did my best 'couse I love this little guy. Really hope you like it @nvllxiety
A relieved sight left you once the doctor told you that you could go. You didn't really listened at him while he warned you about resting, while he said that the injury was actually serious and that you've been very lucky to still have your left arm. But who cares? You could only think about him. He decided to wait outside, he said he didn't want to annoy the doctors, that he didn't like the smell of the room, that it was to cold. Oh, you wanted to belive it was only that, you really wanted to belive he wasn't mad at you for putting yourself in danger even if you had promised to never do that again. So why few hours ago you jumped into that explosion? Why you acted like you didn't hear him scream to stay back? You love him, you really do, so why do like danger so much?
It would be nice if you could just say "I love this city and I want to protect it at all cost". Oh, how nice it would be! But there is more, and you know. A normal person would think twice before leaving everything they love behind, before jumping in an exploding building to save people they never saw before. You liked it. You liked putting yourself in danger if that meant using your ability. You liked visualising the atoms in front of you before separating them, before freeing them from the restrain nature imposed. You liked that. And maybe you liked that a bit too much. It wasn't rare that someone had to physically stop you. It also happened that they had to sedate you before you "gave freedom" to the atoms of an entire city. And the people who lived there. Before you discovered what your limits are.
Ango did recognise the utility of your ability, he really did. He always mafe sure you had the recognition you deserved after saving thousands of people. But if only this ability wasn't yours... To be honest, he hated it. And hated himself for his thought. He would gladly see thousands of people exploding rather that seeing you jumping in the middle of a fire. And yes, he loved you with every single cell of his body, but in those moments... If only you could esitate a second, if you could look less exited...
Out of the hospital you look for him, hoping that he's not that mad at you. Why does he have to made at you? Why? Isn't he happy you saved his men? But you know why he's not there, and it hurts.
You see him next to his car, ready to take you home. He has a bag in his hand: he bought you a snack while waiting.
Smiling, you wave at him and start to walk towards the car. You soon find yourself running.
"Don't run y/n. You just got out the hospital. You're injured, don't you remember?" He says harshly, pointing at your left arm. And at your forehead. And at your knee...
He opens the door and helps you entering the car. He then gives your favourit "hospital snack". But he doesn't say a word. He loves you to much to fight you after you got out the hospital.
You don't want to fight. He doesn't want to fight. It happened so many times, you both know how it would end. It hurts knowing that the reason why he's so mad at you is because he thought you died few hours ago. But does he think you liked it? You liked hearing the entire building falling over you? You liked thinking that it was the end before using your ability? At the hospital they told you that you (and all the government men inside the building) had being said to be dead. The saw the building falling after the second explosion once you were already in. The said that Ango was ready to run behind you -four men had to hold him back, they said-, screaming that you were alive. He tried to order to his man to enter and to look for you. But it was to late, it would have been a suicide. Like it was a suicide entering after the first explosion.
You look at him and understand that this time is different. You still see in his eyes the idea of you being dead. Will you ever be able to forgive yourself for that?
"I'm alive, Ango. I wouldn't have done that if I wasn't sure to succeed" what a lie you just said. You would run in a battle field if it meant using your ability. "Ango, I'm fine I said. I'm always fine. I know what I'm doing."
"You call this "being fine", y/n? I talked with a doctor, they told me how fine you are." He tried to stay calm, to concentrate on the car in front of you. "And want to know a thing? You don't know what you are doing, y/n, you do not know what you are doing. You would listen to me, if knew how to act in certain situations, because I know what I'm doing"
"I'm not your subordinate. I help you: that's it. You don't like how I work? Find someone else to save this damm city, call those children that work for the Agency. You seem to like them much more." Forcing yourself not to cry you look away. You know he hates the fact you don't exactly work for him.
He doesn’t want to "control" you, but in that way he would fell safer knowing that you would do only what you previously agreed. He hates himself for that and you know. How vicious of you reminding him.
"That's true, you aren't." He sounded so frustrated. If only you could go back in time... "But don't act like I have to beg you to jump in an explosion, please. You like that and it's fine to me, but please... really y/n... I'm begging you, don't act like you have nothing to lose."
"Like you wouldn't do the same if you could"
"No, y/n. I wouldn't. And to be honest, any normal person wouldn't" that hurts, it hurts for how true it is "And you want to know why? Become I love you. I LOVE YOU." He didn't expect to scream those last words. He pauses for a second. "But maybe, you don't. Maybe you really fell like you have nothing to lose. Or maybe you you think it's funny making me die every time"
"Oh, so you think I don't love you Ango. OK, sure. Maybe you think that I don't think about how much I love you every time I'm about to pass my limits..." maybe you shouldn't have have said that.
"You see? If you actually cared you wouldn't try to kill yourself or "pass your limits", which is the same thing: a suicide. I know I guy just like you..." He sighed "maybe, if you still love me, you should consider quitting this lifestyle"
" I'm your partner, you can't tell me what I have to do just because you're scared to lose your job or fail a mission" oh, how dumb you felt. He looked like someone punched him in the face. The look of betrayal in his eyes....
"Just because I'm scared of losing my job?! Y/n, have ever considerd that maybe, but just maybe, I'm scared of losing you? Scared of losing the only reason that makes my life worth of being lived? Scared because I love you? And if I lose you... scared that I will never be able to get over it. You know I would spend evey day of my life feeling guilty, feeling so damm dumb for not having spent every single second of my life with you!? I love you, I'm not asking you to stop everything, but to be more careful"
You are now crying like a baby. How could you be such an egoist? You love your boyfriend more than your own self and yet you forget about him every time you can use your ability. Your head hurts, and it's not for what happened before. It's because you are trying to think about just one time one you said "no" to the danger. But all you remember is Ango screaming while you run towards it. And that Ango next you every time you end up at the hospital. You remember his eyes, you fell his pain.
You two don't have an easy relationship. He's never there and you are addicted to danger. He works for days without even coming home and you dream about the day you can use your ability. But you love each other. You would die for each other.
"I'm sorry Ango" you whisper " I'm really sorry, I don't know why I do this. I love you more... more than everything. I don't know why I'm like this... but oh, Ango, I only you knew. If only you could be me for just a second... the freedom I feel... and I know you hate it, but every single time you are praised for saving this city I'm so happy for you, because you deserve so much more and I forget about everythin... I would do everything again... I love you, I love you, I love you..."
And it's true. Everything you said it's true. You don't know why you are like this. Why you are not scared of death. You know, deep down you know that you need help. But it's also true that you wish that Ango had the right recognition. Even if that meant stopping thousands of explosions for him.
You are know home, both of you crying. He helps you getting out of the car. You can feel by his gentle touch that he's not angry anymore. Anger became worry.
"You need help, y/n. I can't lose you. I can't. I love you to much to stay sane if something happen to you"
You hug him. And you put all your love in that hug.
It slowly gets more passionate. All that anger and love and desperation turns into a kiss. But calling it kiss is not enough. There is so much in it: it speaks louder then thousands of words. Words that would be to painful to be said, because you almost died today, because he saw you dying today, and because that happened too many times before. And will happen again. You both know it. You both know it and you choose the only reasonable thing to do: kissing each other.
