Friendship: Miguel & Demetri
Pairing: Hawkmetri (although the focus is intentionally more on the Miguel and Demetri friendship here)
Happy pride month!!! This felt like a fitting last AV100 for Miguetri Monday :3 This is a 6-parter with 600 total words! Based a little bit in some headcanons I came up with here about why I think Demetri actively hides his sexuality, despite being fairly open about other aspects of his personality.
CW for canon-typical homophobia (because Kyler doing that stunt with Demetri's cast like...very definitely had homophobic undertones), internalized homophobia, and the general fear of being outed based in concerns about personal safety and social alienation.
5 times Demetri was too scared to tell Miguel the truth ( +1 time he wasn't)
âGets laid more than anyone, isnât that right, Eli?â
Miguel only rolls his eyes.
At first, Demetri thinks his new friendâs put off by the dismissive sentiment. But as the conversation ebbs and their attention shifts to the rich girls, his stomach tightens.
Miguel saw how he looked at Eli, didnât he? Did he think it was gross?
âI donât care if Yasmineâs the meanest girl in school. Iâd kill both of you just to get her to spit in my face.â
Thatâs what a normal teenage boy would say, right?
âLetâs ask the dragon queens to dance!â
Demetri wishes the punch was carbonated. Maybe that would fight the nausea he feels imagining having to fake any kind of interest in these three perfect strangers. Putting on a facade requiring 10 times the phoniness he usually shows his friends.
Besides, girls who watch Game of Thrones arenât stupid. Theyâll smell what he is. Recoil, shove him away. Shout what Eli and Miguel probably already suspectâsomething no denial can fix.
And then heâll be alone.
âSlow your roll,â Demetri says. âWeâve got time.â
Miguel chocks it up to passivity. Thank fuck.
Kyler knows. Kylerâs always fucking known.
The years of bullying. Making sure Demetri saw him harass Eli about how âno girlâ would ever want to kiss him. Drawing a dick on the arm he had to know Eli snapped and showing the entire cafeteria.
Maybe some other Cobra told Kyler about the break. Maybe Eli himself did the bragging. Doesnât matter.
Point is that Miguel saw Kylerâs stunt.
Demetri feels sick. Eli left him. Now the only other person heâs come to trust with his entire self will, too.
But when Yasmine finds him later, he realizes his one out.
He yells angrily after Yasmine, feeding the illusion this was all by accident. Sam and Miguel smirk.
Itâs clear they buy it hook, line, and sinker.
Theyâre happy for him. For who they think he is.
The normal and uncontroversial Demetri. The one who isnâtâŚthat.
And Demetriâs come too close to losing Miguel already to break that illusion.
I promise Iâm the same as you. He pats Miguelâs shoulder, relishing how secure he feels. Nothing to be ashamed of.
He hears Miguel tell Sam love conquers all. Demetri doesnât have the heart to believe it.
Itâs pathetic, and Demetri knows it. Miguel and Sam deserve better.
But heâs in too deep to admit everything with Yasmineâs a farce.
It still begs the question. How does Demetri fix Miguelâs relationship when he canât even tell Eli heâs in love with him?
Regardless, Miguelâs stuck with Demetri this long. Demetri has to try.
âI get Yasmine a charm for every fight.â Why are they even still together? âShe can barely lift her arm now.â
Useless to ruminate. This house of cards is better than Miguel and Eli knowing the truth.
Despite everything, Demetriâs still a fucking coward.
âPlans for senior prom?â Miguel eyes Demetri curiously.
âIâm going with Eli.â
He could backpedal. Retreat into the cozy blanket of lies that always kept Miguel around.
But graduationâs next month. Fuck it.
âWeâre, uhâŚdating, actually.â
The way Miguel lights up makes Demetri wonder why he ever felt the need to keep it secret.
âAnd you didnât tell me?!â
âI was worried youâd be weirded out!â
âAre you kidding?â Miguelâs beam is blinding. âIâm so happy for you guys! And Iâve been waiting for you to ask him out since, like, sophomore year.â
âWait. You fuckerââ