I didn’t choose this shit, these are just the ships that I gravitate towards.

... And like Demetri confronting him about it.

(There is an amazing fic that alludes to that on s06 but they don't really talk about it).

It could be around s04 after the Christmas Fight. Eli tries to act as much as "Dem's Eli" as possible around him and Demetri keeps getting more freaked out or angrier and pushing away. Civil, but not friendly, it's what he's aiming for. But the more he does that, the more Eli pushes with trying to appeal to his nostalgia. Demetri gets progressively more paranoid, thinking that everything was fake and some sort of manipulation. It ends his fling with Yas... it could be because he starts thinking everyone is manipulative, but I think it would be because Demetri becomes obsessed with unpacking his past and keeps asking for her help in trying to read every memory under this new lense and she just gets tired (and worried) and prefer to cut him loose while they are still in good terms (sort of). Regardless, this keeps going with Eli growing more and more desperate and Demetri more and more put out, paranoid and even bitter until something happens and he blows up and just says something like "did you even have sleep enuresis or would you just piss yourself so you could sleep in my bed?" out of nowhere. And then they talk and he's like "I would very much prefer to meet the real you this time around".

Tbh I’ve been having some mental health crises and had a good old menty b on new year’s, so I’ve just been focusing on getting through the day. I’ve been really depressed about all the misogyny, homophobia, and racism I see in general, and how they’re leaking into my fandom spaces, and when I started spiraling, I couldn’t stop and it did a number on me. But I’m trying to pull myself together and keep on doing what I think is critical in the current political climate—making queer art and boosting queer visibility, even if it’s just on tumblr and AO3 for now.

I know there aren’t many of us left, but fuck it. Maybe I’ll be fortunate enough for at least a few people to stick around, or maybe my content will help draw in new fans. All I can do is post my gay little truths and hope for the best, right?

It’s been hard on me to see such a lack of interest in the gay karate nerd boys after the show ended, but it’s ultimately outside of my control. All I can control is what I do, and how I choose to take care of myself in what’s (for now!) a lonelier space. I’m hoping that if I make an effort to be more active and engage with the fandom more, it will energize others and encourage them to do the same! I myself am terrible about interacting with other posts as much as I’d like, and since this is a sideblog, I can’t just give a like and come back later :( I’m going to make an effort to change that. What I miss the most about Elimetri is the community we formed, but I’m as crucial as anybody in bringing that back.

I can’t predict what’s going to happen with my ship’s fandom, and I’m not sure I want to know. I do enough worrying about the future of our planet and society at large! Right now, I’m trying to be cautiously optimistic about the binary boys and “live the moment,” as Eli’s dumb Matthew McConaughey ass would say. I mean hey, I still get comments on AO3, and people still read and interact with my stories—the Elimetri community DOES still exist!! And ultimately, as long as I have an audience, I will write. And I will talk about the lads. And the girlies, too, and the headcanons and the theories I have for these blorbos.

SPEAKING OF. Something BIG is coming!!! I have no idea when, but I’ve been cooking on an analysis that I hope will be this account’s magnum opus, and I’m so excited to share it with the internet. I feel like this is what I’ve been building up to since I started this account, and the time to release it is now.

Or. Yknow. In a few weeks. Whenever I have the energy XD