#amaikuma

You see, lately I’ve been looking back in my past. I’m honestly shocked at how much I remember, even more so at the memories that I have before being adopted.

It’s like… It’s like a dream. (And yes, I’ve made sure that I was awake before writing that. Lesson learned: No more sleep writing.) Before I met you and Dad, I was… Well, I was broken. I didn’t know if anyone would ever love me, or actually considered me their daughter. To actually love me like their own. I was so scared and lost because I didn’t know what would happen to me, but then before I knew it Mom had adopted me. I was on my way to a new home, a new Mom, a new Dad.

Then came the first few weeks of me not talking, barely making eye contact, and trying my best to ‘stay out of the way’. But bit by bit you told me about yourself and your ‘adorable husband’, you bought me new clothes (which were very cute, might I add!), tried your best at finding what games and food that I liked. You did everything possible to make me feel home, to show that I was home.

I also remember the time when me and Dad first met. We were both sort of ‘cut from the same cloth’. I was so worried about Dad not liking me. I’ve heard so much about him from Mom that I wanted to show him that I was good enough. It didn’t take long for me to realize that, even though nervous, he tried to get to know me better. Everything from gardening, to making crafts, and worrying about Mom made our bond stronger. I always found it funny how little words we shared, yet were able to tell exactly what the other meant or felt.

I guess what I really want to say is, Thank you. You both gave me so many wonderful memories and lessons. (Remember when I first called you ‘Mom’ and ‘Dad’? That was such a big day!) When I was little, I found it absolutely amazing how much love you had for one another! I would often wonder if there was enough love for me, but here I am confident that I am very loved! I want to thank you both for your patience and your love, without either I wouldn’t be standing as I am now!

I believe it’s time for me to stop writing for now, so far I’ve managed to get 3 people to ask if I was alright. (It’s hard to say ‘yes’ with tears in your eyes.) Anyways, I’ll see you both soon!