#alter box

I am beginning my journey to understanding myself in a new light. My previous understanding of myself, the one I have built my entire life on, is founded in negativity and severely flawed. I am wanting to evolve myself and my energy into a form that pays respect to the power it has taken to sustain my existence up to this point.

I am flawed

I have an understanding of this deeper than any other being that knows me. I am working to reflect and strengthen my relationship with my energy. I am honestly amazed at how much energy this has taken from me over the past week. But I have also never been in tune with myself in this way. Please see my humble little beginnings below.

Humble Beginnings

This is what I have so far:

Many index cards filled with sigils I have been dabbling with.

Selenite

Clear quarts (not in good shape. Looking to get another when I get paid)

Amethyst

Pyrite

Himalayan pink salt chunk

Mortar and pestle (aka cat bowl and beach stone)

Magnetic balls

Cleansing salt

A jar spell I made for self-positivity and protection.

I have been working on the following:

Research. I have what I suppose could be called a grimoire of sorts started in my OneNote (soon to be transferred to paper once my self-confidence goes up)

Collecting. By this I mean taking inventory of the things I already had in my apartment and hoarding what I want to use in my craft by my spot on the couch. My husband has yet to ask any questions.

More research. I know this is never ending and I am so excited about it.

Meditation. This has been difficult for me. More difficult than I expected, as I seem to have forgotten my naturally restless mind. I have been using my magnetic balls and clear quartz as well as some relaxation incense (and schweed). This has helped a lot, but I am still practicing and learning.

Sigils. I have found a way to make sigils that I like A LOT. So what if they are boring. They are imbued with my intent and I really think this has been strengthening my energy.

Sleeping. This has been, so far, the only thing worrying me. I already have issues with sleeping at night (for instance it is 4am and I am way awake), but I haven't been able to stay awake during the day this week. I have been doing work at my makeshift alter for the last week and it has been strangely exhausting. I may need to slow it down a bit.

A quick peek inside my alter box. 😀

The box itself was a gift, but I've seen similar ones at Walmart for less than $5. On the bottom of the lid I've drawn my sigils for protection and banishment to keep out negative energy.

The containers are from various things I cleansed and repurposed for storage. (The clear ones are from sprinkles while the blue one was a toothpick box.)

I store birthday candles inside the blue box. They're grate for a quick spell and if you're a closeted witch like me! (Sometimes you can even find birthday candles in hard to find colors such as black!)

The one of the clear containers on the right hold bottle caps I use as candle holders. Melt some wax into the cap and stick the candle right inside it! 😀 The other one I use to hold pennies I've turned into physical representations of sigils and runes.

The leaf represents earth, while the stones represent something corresponding to their color. (Red/pink = fire, Clear = air, white = spirit, blue = water green = earth.)

I also usually have some sort of memo/mini notebook inside to use as a junk BoS/journal and write things inside it.