Zoey has spent her whole life figuring out how to navigate between extremes, to give people the correct amount of herself so that they won't reject her. She thinks she's much better at it than Celine is, because Celine never had to be good at it. Celine's a force of nature, a legend among legends, the hunter who raised a child alone while defending the Honmoon, also alone, while rising to the top of a male-dominated field, while finding and training the next generation of hunters to secure the future of humanity. Zoey is just Zoey, and for all her accomplishments, she always knows, deep down, that she has to walk that line if she doesn't want to be alone.

So she will. She won't ask for more than what Mira and Rumi have chosen to give her. How greedy can she be? They already share their friendship, their love (if not the kind of love Zoey would prefer), and their sweet, perfect, beautiful child. Asking for more would be too much, and Zoey won't let herself be too much, not ever, not to them. She'll be enough. And that will be enough for her.

Full fic on ao3

Pure Polytrix kid fluff inspired by prince's Baby Bean AU AU

Ha-young is excited when appa asks her to play hide and seek for the first time. She doesn't entirely understand the rules, or even the concept of rules, but she knows appa is being silly when she runs around the corner of her and eomma's bed and the purple hair on top of her head sticks out and Ha-young toddles over and half pounces, half falls and is rewarded by a shower of kisses and the sound of her parents' laughter and hugs. Then it's her turn, and she knows she does a good job hiding under the blanket because eomma isn't very sneaky about how hard a time she's having. "Ha-young! Where are you? Are you under the bed?" Ha-young can actually see the reddish pink of eomma's hair moving around through the gaps of the knit fabric of the blanket. "Are you…hiding in the closet?" Ha-young hears the sound of eomma throwing the closet door open and giggles. Eomma and appa's closet is SO BIG, eomma will be looking there forever. Forever passes quickly, and then eomma is on the hunt again. "Are you…hiding behind the lamp?" Ha-young giggles again, and squeals when Auntie Zo joins her under the blanket. "Oh my goodness, Bean, you are so good at this!" Auntie Zo whispers, but it's loud enough for Ha-young to hear. Ha-young LOVES it when Auntie Zo calls her "Bean." Ha-young loves Auntie Zo, period. "Can I stay here with you? You have the best hiding spot." Ha-young can't make the words yet, but she smacks her hands against the bed a few times and hopes Auntie Zo understands. She thinks it works, because Auntie Zo cuddles up nice and warm next to her, until… "Gotcha!!!" Eomma pulls the blanket off with a shout and Ha-young is almost scared, but then Auntie Zo is tickling her gently and pulling her close, and then appa is there, the pretty rainbow marks on her skin shining, and eomma is sliding onto the bed behind appa, and they sing to her together and the whole world lights up when they do. Ha-young loves playing hide and seek.

This fic. I swear. It was supposed to be 12k, tops, three chapters, done. Then chapter 3 became 10k and got split in two. Then chapter 5 materialized from nowhere. Now chapter 5 is over 8k and I haven't even written two out of three sex scenes yet. So I guess this fic is actually going to be seven chapters. BUT THAT'S IT. NO MORE. I'M DRAWING A LINE IN THE SAND AND I DON'T CARE HOW HORNY OR JEALOUS THEY GET, NO MORE.

Anyway. Here's a preview of what I guess will now be Chapter 6.

Rumi is more than OK. Rumi is fantastic. On top of the world, in fact. Who cares if she failed the two women she loves most in the world over, and over, and over again? Who cares if Mira's off practically having threesomes in public with other idols, and Zoey's probably doing the same, only more discreetly? They're better off without her, and she's doing great too. In fact, she's about to have sex. With a person. As soon as her limo drops her off at the restaurant. After. After she is done at the restaurant. She is not going to have sex at the restaurant, and certainly not as soon as she is dropped off. She debated whether she should try to have sex with two people, but decided against it. On the one hand, she likes threesomes in principle, but on the other, she thinks her positive experiences with multiple partners were the result of the specific partners she was with, and she's not at all interested in trying to replicate that experience with one or more strangers. She's also convinced that trying to have sex with even one stranger could be catastrophically embarrassing. What if she smiles wrong (she's so close to getting it right, she knows it, and when she does, look out world!), which is less of a risk and more of an extreme likelihood. Especially when she's nervous, which she is. Or would be, if she was going to be naked in front of a stranger. Fuck it, she's still nervous, even though it's only Yoona she's (probably) having sex with. Yoona hasn't said they're having sex, which is a potential obstacle, Rumi knows, but they've had sex before, and they're about to go on a date, so surely they'll have sex after? Yoona made it clear in their text message exchange (Rumi was absolutely not asking someone out in a phone call) that she still finds Rumi attractive. That's what people do, right? Normal people. Not half-demons who can't figure out how to smile properly. Rumi frowns. Mira probably didn't even take the women she's having sex with out to dinner. She probably just swaggered up to them and said something really, really cool, like she always does, in that husky voice, like she didn't even care what they said because she knew they wanted her, and of course they would, because it's Mira, who wouldn't want to have sex with Mira? It's not a competition. It's OK if Rumi has to take a woman out to dinner before sex. It's OK if Rumi only has sex with one person at a time, instead of two, or however many Mira has sex with at once. More than three people seems like a lot, even three can be hard to manage, not that Rumi would ever complain about it, she doesn't mind a degree of difficulty, but she imagines that with four people it's probably just two sets of two people having sex, and maybe they trade off sometimes? She briefly considers what it would be like to have sex with Mira in front of the two women she's been … seeing recently. She'd show them a thing or two. Or three. She shakes her head. It's not time to get distracted by thoughts of Mira's long legs and strong arms and perfect bedroom eyes and how hot she looks when she wears her glasses naked, or whether the fact that Zoey hasn't been as public with whomever she's seeing (she's obviously seeing someone, because she's Zoey, and Zoey is amazing and probably has people falling over to ask her to marry them every time she goes to the grocery store) means that Zoey is actually serious about whomever she's dating for more than sex. The thought is painful enough that it almost makes her rethink her decision not to ask them to take her back, to fight for them. Almost. She knows they're better off without her. And it's not a competition. But if it was a competition, she would make sure to fuck Yoona so good she couldn't walk straight the next day. If Yoona wants her to.

Yes, Rumi is going to have sex. No, it is not going to be with Yoona. Sorry Yoona.

Link below to the fic, probably Chapter 5, a pure ZoeMira chapter, will go up later today.

Chapters: 8/? Fandom: Warrior Nun (TV) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Sister Beatrice/Ava Silva, Minor or Background Relationship(s) Characters: Ava Silva, Sister Beatrice (Warrior Nun), Shotgun Mary (Warrior Nun), Shannon Masters, Sister Lilith (Warrior Nun), Sister Camila (Warrior Nun), Original Female Character(s), Sister Dora (Warrior Nun), Yasmine Amunet, Michael Salvius, Father Vincent (Warrior Nun), J.C. (Warrior Nun) Additional Tags: Married!Bea, Pining, Jealousy, Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, hurt!ava, Inferno References (La Divina Commedia | The Divine Comedy - Dante Alighieri), Dante Alighieri References, Song: Francesca (Hozier), Divorce, background relationship drama, Background Sister Camila/Sister Lilith (Warrior Nun), Background Sister Camila/Yasmine Amunet (Warrior Nun), Background Sister Lilith/Sister Dora (Warrior Nun), Multiple people have compared the background drama to The L Word, Messy, Ava Silva Needs a Hug, Sister Beatrice is Oblivious (Warrior Nun), Jealous Sister Beatrice (Warrior Nun), halloween party shenanigans, failing marriage, Couples Counseling, Mary and Shannon are Happy at Least, Short-term Ava Silva/Michael Salvius I'm SORRY, Sex, But I Wouldn't Call It Smut, What Do You Call It When The Sex Scene Is An Angst Scene?, Crying After Sex, Fluff and Angst Summary:

Beatrice was sure she had found the love of her life. The woman of her dreams. Someone who had endured the worst Beatrice's parents could dish out and stayed. Someone who fought by her side through the hardest times of her life. Someone who left her, for a time, but came back and reignited a love stronger than ever before. The woman she was going to marry.

Unfortunately for all involved, that woman's name was not "Ava Silva."

Chapters: 7/? Fandom: Warrior Nun (TV) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Sister Beatrice/Ava Silva, Minor or Background Relationship(s) Characters: Ava Silva, Sister Beatrice (Warrior Nun), Shotgun Mary (Warrior Nun), Shannon Masters, Sister Lilith (Warrior Nun), Sister Camila (Warrior Nun), Original Female Character(s), Sister Dora (Warrior Nun), Yasmine Amunet, Michael Salvius, Father Vincent (Warrior Nun), J.C. (Warrior Nun) Additional Tags: Married!Bea, Pining, Jealousy, Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, hurt!ava, Inferno References (La Divina Commedia | The Divine Comedy - Dante Alighieri), Dante Alighieri References, Song: Francesca (Hozier), Divorce, background relationship drama, Background Sister Camila/Sister Lilith (Warrior Nun), Background Sister Camila/Yasmine Amunet (Warrior Nun), Background Sister Lilith/Sister Dora (Warrior Nun), Multiple people have compared the background drama to The L Word, Messy, Ava Silva Needs a Hug, Sister Beatrice is Oblivious (Warrior Nun), Jealous Sister Beatrice (Warrior Nun), halloween party shenanigans, failing marriage, Couples Counseling, Mary and Shannon are Happy at Least, Short-term Ava Silva/Michael Salvius I'm SORRY, Sex, But I Wouldn't Call It Smut, What Do You Call It When The Sex Scene Is An Angst Scene?, Crying After Sex, Fluff and Angst Summary:

Beatrice was sure she had found the love of her life. The woman of her dreams. Someone who had endured the worst Beatrice's parents could dish out and stayed. Someone who fought by her side through the hardest times of her life. Someone who left her, for a time, but came back and reignited a love stronger than ever before. The woman she was going to marry.

Unfortunately for all involved, that woman's name was not "Ava Silva."

Beatrice is very normal about Michael, then meets Michael and is even more normal about it and no one goes to the hospital or anything because of how normal she is, then she has a very important conversation with Ava.

I'm back, I'm writing again, I'm posting again, it's all happening. I feel invincible, might post a KPDH one-shot AND a Warrior Nun one-shot before year's end, absolutely do not hold me to that, but I'm feeling good.

Inspired by @jtl07's post, because I also like to look at numbers for fun. Here's a general roundup (thanks to jac for sharing this template):

So all of these numbers are slightly less than last year, but I've been super busy and unable to write for the past two months or so, so I'm really not bothered. If anything, I'm kind of surprised that my numbers are relatively stable despite that, since the Warrior Nun fandom is a lot less active this year than in past years.

A lot of those numbers, of course, are due to me dipping my toe in the KPDH waters. Green-Eyed Monster, my mild jealousy Polytrix smut fic, is not just my most popular fic of 2025, it's my most popular fic PERIOD. Fic is five months old and has my most hits all time, most bookmarks, tied for most public bookmarks despite being a pure smut fic, most kudos, most subscriptions. This is very funny to me, because it's not my best work, at ALL, but stay horny everyone, glad you enjoyed it. Chapter 7 is partly written, I'll finish it eventually.

The one category Green-Eyed Monster doesn't lead in, or come close, is comments. My most comments this year, and all-time, are for maybe my favorite thing I've written so far, In The Eyes Of A Child. At 102,988 words, it's also my longest written work so far, with more than 20,000 words on my next-longest work. Despite being written almost three years after Season 2 of Warrior Nun aired, this fic ranks 44 out of 5189 Warrior Nun fics in terms of total comments, which I attribute to the wonderfully positive reception it received from those who read it, even if that number was less than for most of my other fics, and the fact that I responded to most comments. It's also the first fic I wrote this year with a main character named Mira.

I posted five fics this year to AO3 (might make it six soon), compared to seven apiece in 2023 and 2024, but that's just because In The Eyes Of A Child was a beast and I lost two writing months. Third most popular this year was She'll be enough, which is my most kudosed one-shot after two months in existence, fourth is The Adventures of Bean (and Big Kitty): Hide and Seek Edition, fifth is put me back in it (darling, I would do it again).

General thoughts

This year had me thinking a lot about the way fandom develops over time, about popularity in fandom, and art generally, the way certain things catch fire and others don't, and the importance of art that doesn't catch fire. I've been fortunate and am appreciative to have a relatively high level of readership and positive reaction in both fandoms I've written for, but I always try to remember that there are other writers with works of equal or better quality who have not been as fortunate. And it is fortune: the best fan fiction authors I've ever encountered are very often ridiculously under-read. Everyone writing for Warrior Nun, I wish I had more time to read you all, but I appreciate you whether I had the chance to read you or not. KPDH fandom requires no encouragement at this point, keep on burning hot.

Future plans

What I'd like to do next year:

Finish put me back in it

Start publishing a post-canon KPDH fic (I've got some good stuff written, but I need to write further to make sure it all hangs together before I start dropping chapters)

Finish my Warrior Nun werewolf Bea fic I'm Coming Out of My Cage and I've Been Doing Just Fine

An AvaBeaLil Fake/Secret Dating AU

An original work (!)

Some one-shots for Warrior Nun, and maybe one or two for KPDH