#allistic

Inspired by a post of an autistic mutual stating they respect all the autistics who withhold their opinion whenever they hear someone saying something wrong.

Sorry, but I cannot focus longer than 10 sec. on something unrelated to my goals. You want me to understand something? Then make it about how to get the best out of it. Knowledge for the sake of knowledge itself is - in contrast to literally every autistic I met - not a means in itself. Knowledge is power, it is a weapon meant to elevate me.

I do not care if any nano-dihydroacidatophide or simply a demon is responsible. Both are just abstract items to me. Give me a quick instruction. Do not tell me how and why it is. Just tell me what makes it work and skip all "beauty" and "fascination" around it.

We have “allosexual” as a counterpart for asexual.

We have “allistic” as a counterpart to “autistic.”

(same root etymology even)

i always think "but the universe dosnt protect us from tragedy?? there are ppl who die of a brain bloodclot for seemingly no reason. there are ppl who got hit by a drunk driver while sleeping safely inside their house. poverty & starvation caused by inequality kills so many ppl globally every day. HOW CAN U SAY EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY AS IF ITS A FACT????"

but then i remember: they dont believe it literally. i was only taking it literally becuz im autistic. what they ACTUALLY mean is "i will very likely not die from these hard circumstances (tho i might) and therefor i will be around afterward to say to myself that the hard circumstances hav ended; i will say "see? i survived! im fine!" and if i dont survive, i will not be able to tell myself that things were not fine; therefor the narrative that things are always fine persists. anyways, i feel better emotionally now if i cultivate confidence that i hav a positive future... so its actually intentional gaslighting for mental health reasons, not literal fact"