#alitlamp

The world that was made to be managed by man & kept living by God was soon lost to the deceiver & was for many years kept alive by God made a place to die as a result of the separation made from what the beginning began as & was now redeemed for all who really believe that Jesus Christ came to ransom man from the end of life in death into unity & homecoming to the true home of those made to have life. Years went by as the world became a place of things allowed to make earth no longer being a place that is kept fresh from what Jesus birthed… it was becoming filled with things that made it decay and become secondary to what it was in its natural state at the progress of many things that kept things advancing towards a state of mind where things not meant to be noticed for reasons of their resemblance to older stages of the earth that were filled with the earth’s transitions between new fallen redeemed & finally things to make more like the world is not as exciting as the things we think seem like it’s something that is separate but not created. It was a period of change in that the ways things were beginning to be prioritized as man changed the thought of this is what was wrong because of people thinking about a man who died on the cross instead of all of the things being made to seem like they were newer than the settings about to become reset with the emphasis on more of creation left to be converted into things made that were symbols that were finally able to make & explore areas of our possibilities for the first real era being completely tinged by the things left behind for things that seemed more promising because they were made to experience our ability to make things that felt new, unnatural, & utilize them to create gaps and lapses on history & traditional group thoughts, & rationalization. It was very important to everything alive as creation was fading but by bit into some thing usually made to be the thing we immediately isolate & contain for complete separation of the things we made to seem better than things made that were not a reflection of the possibilities for man to create what was man’s best ideas towards staging &a correcting older systems that weren’t made to know exactly who did what or where but were more to report movement as opposed to the signals that were introduced as a result of things feeling responsible for covering the earth in something that brought everyone to a level of technology which then as opposed to just reporting it essentially filmed the entire world every person to show that it is possible for anything we couldn’t quite prove would benefit from the records of its people encouraged by the fact that there will never be another incident where a man gets credit for dying on a cross and rising from the dead & the world can now see the things naturally made to feel like it’s because of something unnatural that was made a new development as other things changed & made the world into a more competitive place to share things it unnaturally came to agreements on in unnatural ways, people could now pay for anything sold with a tracker which was a new infinitely charged attachment nearly all of Earth’s countries began utilizing preventing less robbery, or violent crimes, but more instances of people in lines that were monitored in addition to the people who thought it was natural to encounter problems with the change & felt safer connected physically to the device that became to many a way to ensure they could die with their money finally, & not lose anything to what is jealous of it, & secondly it offered many many people new to the unnatural form of payment which occurred in pay cuts only or standard credit which was viewed as traditional but unnatural & new because it focused on making sure you had more credit if you had bad credit & low credit if you had good credit so that because of the additions attached to consumers it meant systems needed to be induced that could basically combine the attachments as one signal indication location, vital signs, a live video from the things the consumer aligns with the final signal used to report balances, of every transaction’s credit applications, relationships to known affiliates with a summary of any trends in activity or location inhabitation, & finally the receipts of all advertisements & any reactions that matched the things sent to sell what didn’t get picked up in an unnatural routine for most who when funds were made theirs many would go buy unnatural but usually repetitive occurring like planned stops to get something while they had time to plan what would happen if they stopped & bought anything else as a form of buying time to plan unnaturally new ways to broadcast the most powerful moments they get until they have as much money again which switches in increments unnatural, 2 weeks, 3 days, less than both of those in 8 days, but the thing the new equipment really paid attention to were people who stopped, or who gathered in groups under the structures still teeming with people who don’t sleep in the same place or people who have conversations meant to be heard & ignored in order to pass written communications to other groups unable to respond for sometimes 1 hour because the paper has to be unnatural & seen instead of faxed or sent over the internet which was now completely unrealistic with how to find things you can’t search any cache the servers are connected and only someone verified as sender can ever send requests for information because of the Columbia Crisis where 900 hackers built walls that prevented patrol screenings from having the option of detecting breaches, the security of the internet assets worth money, ideas, or films or recordings, made to be downloads were stolen by an unknown man who never managed to sell one item before he was seized and imprisoned for taking the recordings instead of paying to see the once safely stored pile of recordings that were remaining property of a movie buff who had to only watch them one at a time because he was locked out of what he owned until the world could see how it can better make everyone able to seem they way they all look and walk when they are able to shop without having to ever carry anything that made them seem important or uninteresting based on usually one or two differences between those who walked like people afraid to walk or move like their device with what they have to spend or borrow if it’s a lot for someone with the history of late payments. Some agencies purely studied the things that showed movement or consistency or the average daily amounts. Some people’s numbers would get noticed as odd or low interactions with known associates combined with long hours to no changes in movements in the house which indicates a lapse in focus & a remorseful emerging person who always looks guilty for being disobedient & not responding to multiple ads sent at the time of the lapse. Everything was already proving that things become explained mostly in that people stopped being evasive the minute they felt like it didn’t matter if they tried to hide one of any aspect requested, the crime rate fell worldwide but cyber crimes, the destruction or trespassing of anything on the internet that could resemble a crime about to be committed, were becoming highlights no longer posted to the attachments of men, because to see a man oppose the New Order in cold blood was soon after many cases of imprisonment with restructure of constitutional priorities made to feel like the old religious programs that used to make people feel like the world went to a church that was less than the people who were told to restructure what they themselves looked like, weighed, had to memorize,had to work for free making attachments for new releases, & being told by people who monitored that if he will give one connection he’s been meeting & exchanging keys to vehicles abandoned because gasoline is now for vehicles that build, or for boats registered & properly docked always. There was an agreement reached where for the next 10 years the only gasoline to be sold is for building & industry trucks. It has to be made many businesses that are near hubs or communities needed as places tripling their sales but also tripling their illegal visitation meetings where people have to hide in crowds to see someone they’ve been kept away from for reasons that don’t like making it known that someone saw someone with the plan to meet but as they got close to contact the person who was warned gave up hiding & the crowd had him in a line where he had to buy a game which made people walking able to forget they were sometimes even recorded walking & the different recordings analyzed by recruiters for resistance soldiers or people who were to meeting all the while it is a sting to get the lesser known inexperienced people they can’t predict as well to get caught as a way to reset his logs, and determine what he does to keep the way he has them say he’s consistently buying the same things nights people are out for a store wide sale that sends movement to a nearby deputy who’s got a plan for shutting down any riot attempts at the sale that is unnatural because it’s clothes that say words made under the patterns of things thought to write out of towns near him stores that would turn up things not naturally insightful but made to say it’s a newer day it’s a system that’s got a half of a cell in New York and the other half in the remains of the finance district that was attacked and disabled by men with a bomb that destroyed all record of the things that changed in the 7 years it collected how money was changing hands & how money was leaving the streets or finding the criminals needing it to make it seem heroic to do crimes that don't pursue criminals but just lock down cities & run & run & run until they come out like people unable to avoid arrest because the standoffs are over & the only real criminals now are the people who expose the entities coming to agreements about shared momentum restrictions & ways to improve the quality of life for the world while taking only what makes sense for created resources the biggest powers of military exposed that choose to report to city blocks where the block was said to be empty which means there are huddles where people end up saying to the cameras in essence that we can't say anything they will think we are not good mixes because it's all coincidence or make it seem like we even are here for a reason & I get caught walking 20 min & they time my blank spot and I get into the sent ads but it means they know we are here, let's try to meet at exactly same hour tomorrow, & then trade communications when it's more likely we can have two runnies meet & exchange. Nothing gets said at the impromptu meetings to suggest power or intent to commit to breaking a law at some point but generally people perpetuate an exasperated shocked state of thinking of ways to change patterns but the only way that lets members trying to begin a small group to begin being permitted to associate is 11 days because it takes 5 days to see the expanse of one cycle of variations in movement or account activity that coincides with the repeated small group meeting that seems like something that is staged so others can meet once at random . People were allowed 10 members to peacefully gather but it was showing too many combinations of patterns where the group we thought would meet again ended up filmed as a false introduction for non-traditional friendship & maintenance but ended with 700 different points of patterns repeating in a night where the meeting was proven to be too difficult to determine what was made to be passed so well with only a 3 person lock radius previous interactions preview. It was like we knew Earth was a cage warped by agreements reached & very few non-biased non participatory in anything resembling where he lives usually in a castle that makes sure he's protected and allowed communication that is protected. Everything begins finding how they want to begin testing the tactics & procedures of keeping everyone separate unless it's really just seeing people walk near enough but not talk & people call for reasons like they are not sure they will stay in touch, or maybe plan to stay in touch there are a few tunnels that let out in a basement that has paper and pens for quickly assembling smut to pass out in simple to catch changes in patterns that resemble something trying to be unnatural when it's simpler & more difficult to track walking like alterations or the biggest nightmare... where people are checked on for health but can wait together like the people who would meet if it meant one reason to risk what they had to share something came up on YouTube in checks-locations that knew how to arrange a pattern of clay that makes people watch him for exactly 20 min but while he zoned, a phone alarm went off in systems which only rings when a meeting has to be secured. He loaded a handgun that was primed & he left the pattern but took the message written before he loaded & walked like he was afraid to hurry because of status & money. He got inside the passenger door of a moving truck & announced his authority in telling the driver to take a left on hope. The alarm button meeting was the first time the strange unnatural pressing nuance that made you feel like it's all his even though I knew to him he has the masses already scared to repeat or do completely random grids walking letters through to other letters & they always left you alone when you stopped at where it's dirty but not because it's something that resembles an actual structure or group of walls to conceal the gathering which indicated something New & Unusual that met with someone who knows how to Prime people's sexual inhibitions & regulate the 10 minute fuck flicks that make people look like little animals wearing cameras that they make to seem sorry or unhappy about when they begin to relax how they are being seen by others wearing the similar clothes & attachments, wanting to do similar things like take things apart to make phones that sometimes have cell service but people never have time to talk besides to remember when cell phones had to be distributed like common medications to the people who used them to somehow plan them at the perfect time get a click back showing lists of 200 numbers & the printer ejected two lists all active operators who would patch you to people who sounded more like someone alive but dead in that each line that switched the drug connect got separate calls between the phone he stole to answer & the phone that rings to tell him to call. They gave him the name & number he went to the numbies house, someone for hire you control by the texts to do one meetup connect making it so two parties can meet almost but more to establish the thing that was making itself made felt by the tire factory & as the people who start every 10 minute increments flowing from the factory to the streets with the cops waiting like greedy pigs to see who walks to walk & who's meeting to talk about things hidden from the new lie that this protected alleged creator of every created work of life given good things made to shine so it was obvious that he was there. The three people meeting up said right away that the word is that the men who agree on things with systems or pay scale decided it needs to be more work for more retirees & for pay that says it's not the thing that gets you worried it's the initial thing that makes the announce then it's four things that are lengthy in the agreements but we're about undeveloped places getting to be not contained & rerioting after the place gets quiet people starting to walk then run, people running down streets to join in riots that take hours to shut down because nobody lives knowing they are doing something that is enough to be decided that a killzone can solve the fear element but not the containment of something making the whole world afraid to react except in hope & redeeming prayers sent by created things tapping morse code eventually letting them know it's good to be something that is the highest thing to feel happened to make it obvious they were afraid to fight the wild dancers rioting it has to seem like they are doing the fuck they want to make the cops seem afraid then a cop took aim and they all unloaded rounds on the shattering crowd that went to buildings made to be outdoor toilets & the riot members felt fear that they still might get shot even though it's over. the unusual presence ate like a king most nights but it wasn't materials found in edible formats it was the spirits rising inside this void that couldn't even receive any contrast in how this unusual thing began to plan an air attack on the riot shanties housing Africans not given enough of anything to ever allow their labor to resemble automation it was always the way the work seemed like it was made to seem less like employment and more like something that you do out of the fear of opposing any of this order of people who have already begun taking things planned by people to stay able to spread hope, drugs, weapons, and anything else that needed lines, in 40 minutes on a busy street in Rome a child was made to begin work at age 10 and a riot broke out in Peru where 2 cops were beaten to death with rocks and 2 cops were crushed by a bat for attempting to stop a 3 hour buildup riot. I heard things outside, how it didn't sound like a system checking like normal, it sounded like an arrest with a warrant & then 4 arrest taking people along like attachments to things new edge where this & that means they broke in & stole somewhere then it got seriously to the point where the people out on the street, the labor sweat shops on t.v. That look like systems of diseases & time spent all on one machine that makes you into something good for one thing that people were doing because it was something considered an act deemed as important of staying more powerful than the kid it looks more respectable than what the kid resembles other than common, simple looks he'd give the camera while it captured the expressions of the first of the captured to be captured people who didn't know when it was going to allow it to stop making things that weren't for making anything else seem like...

Waiting for 20 stamps I paid for to land in my mailbox in an envelope addressed to me The secrets they'll carry In many hands to you Hidden in licked, sealed envelopes Designed for this harboring I'll laugh and cry while I write you I promise to A little of each I won't stop writing over scrap sheets till I get our heart language right Because your spirit is more beautiful... When it shines in my imagination And I know what you could be, And I know you're the body wrapped will of the creator and my friend I love

Smiling Ghost (my dance moves are quite lethal)

Made an end times grunge song!

Going to a concert tonight 6-4-17 8pm at the Ventura majestic theatre a really good guitarist is playing stop by or say hey!

We are in a concentration camp. We will all die. No one dies any better than anyone else. Some people make it seem like they are ones who deserve to live in a way that makes it seem like they ought to be given better or more food than other people and that they mean more to the cage than other people but the cage doesn’t need any of its captives and doesn’t need anything at all. Except to fulfill what it was designed or made to do which is to keep people inside in, even though everyone could all be free inside it and freedom to live how you want could be the thing that turns the cage into something that doesn’t do anything while things are making it known they chose to love even though it meant they were at risk of never being respected for being responsible to what the cage does to them. I get to let people know they are special, really special, when all of the other prisoners remind them of the things that are true about them that they can’t change that make them feel like they are special for things in a way that other prisoners say makes them seem like prisoners they don’t want to wait to die next to, when really, the things they should say should make it beneficial that they are making choices with the limited freedom they have in this concentration camp that is different than what prisoners are forced to think about by the distractionz the cage is designed to produce. If everyone is distracted or reminded of the omnipotence of the cage at all times there is a greater likelihood that deaths seem like the end of something that isn’t special, when the prisoners see people die in this cage they feel like something happened the way it was supposed to but everything the cage produces is a feeling like things aren’t right, that distractions, or things that seem more important than making someone feel special and that it’s good to be awake, aware, and unafraid to seem strange when they speak of true things that make the prisoners feel like the cage was meant to be defied, and shown to be lesser and the one who created the prisoners to be in its right thoughts in the prisoners heads as the one who loves to see people love when they’re afraid of seeming ridiculous. The one who is the Source and is inside every prisoner who knows the cage can’t win because death is a curse, it is something the prisoners know is not natural or right, it is something that was only meant to be a consequence of the lie beginning… that something else is God, while God watches and lets all who remain awake and aware that the building lie that the counterfeit God, or the one who says that nothing else alive is special, but should wear the same mark, & that the things that remind prisoners trapped till their deaths in the cage should be slaves in all ways & should never know that they are special or meant to do anything else but react like worshipful supporters of the lie that says we are going to die in a cage & that the life we have should be given in making the cage more effective at being something inescapable but never for anything else but making the thing that claims to be God seem like God because of how powerful & effective it is at making things alive stop living, &, making things alive feel like they are dying alone, not living with other people who know that it feels better to live life making the cage seem like something smaller than the real God, who is in every prisoner, and every living thing that grows, or breathes, and is somehow more interesting and somewhat unexplainably more infinite than the cage, though the cage always reminds them they’re going to die alone like something that was wrong for ever doing anything to show a faith in the living God, since they were always going to die like something that is so commonplace in the cage that it seems like the only thing there is, when really all of the prisoners who stay aware and awake and make the cage seem like something with power that is allowed by the creator not inherent in its own constitution. The only reason the prisoners think the counterfeit system of being made to feel like something as common & unspecial as the as the mark of the beast itself is because it doesn’t make sense to risk being any different than the others in ways that don’t make the cage seem seem like the only thing that is always the thing that succeeds while deep down every prisoner hopes the cage will someday be exposed as something that succeeds but isn’t as powerful as knowing the maker of thoughts that say the cage kills while to live in it and know the lie makes the people seem less like people waiting to die & more like mistakes who are allowed to live but not if they make other prisoners see that the cage isn’t natural. People who know they will die, but who live only to let people know that there is something else, that’s in all lives and created thing, that is unaffected by the cage or anything it in a way that could never make it underneath any other thing it allows to exist. The happiest prisoners are the ones who share the constant & emminent knowledge that although the cage is all around & makes it seem like we are alone because there is something that is in each of prisoner that can either choose to see the invisible God & creator as the thing that makes all living things set in their bodies with limitations and differences but also the power to defy death by living to make life & the creator seem as the reality that is made to be seemingly something that isn’t as real as the fact that every prisoner thinks he’s supposed to have more feelings that it’s invisible but it’s the power that surprises all whose something in the cage that shows clearly that the cage isn’t strong it is simply allowed to be something that makes people unable to stay living inside of it because it is a result of people choosing to leave the way they were because the lie told them they will be like God if they did the one thing they were told not to do. Before, no one was a prisoner, the first two people knew that they were meant to live in freedom, naked, with no knowledge of anything evil, or, anything that makes itself more important than being under the responsibility of being free and choosing to live like new learners They ate the apple, now they know what it means to be under god but not in the will of God which is always the will where humans choose to respond to their calling of being people never meant to be captives, living confined to the end of death but unnobedient or submissive to anything that makes them like slaves when they are actually rulers & royal Kings & queens with rights & powers they can access because of their adopted status. Basically, all prisoners who make the cage seem like something allowed to exist but not important or powerful enough to prevent them from letting others see that even though they will die, have things that make them seem small, or vulnerable to the cage’s God given permission to hold all in something unnatural, & featureless, like a person who is a prisoner who puts other prisoners beneath their own need to be as unaware of anything that makes them give up their way of trying to be comfortable while their way of trying to be comfortable while they make other prisoners feel like they are not meant to die without first having the people in the cage say they are prisoners who are different in ways that entitle them to things they work at making others feel only they deserve but it coincides with how effective they make the cage seem instead of how important every prisoner is to the one who carefully made them & is made rightly discovered by other prisoners as something dangerous & not what someone in a cage can be over but as they are under it & oblivious to the things the cage produces to remind the prisoners there’s something wrong with making things seem more important than bringing attention & devotion to a cage that doesn’t want to see people living their lives believing it’s better to defy the things that aren’t the way things really are, the things, that make you feel like it’s better to be comfortable, asleep, & someone marked as everyone else is marked, grateful for when the prison food that doesn’t seem like it’s the only food out there is given to the prisoners & everyone eats & is allowed one more night almost like it’s because the cage hasn’t been made enough to seem like the only God yet, & that there are still things about it that don’t seem completely in power, as things meant to live free forever a little more like things that are not special in any way at all other than how the cage shows up in the influenced moments they could say no but don’t want to be seen as someone foolish enough to stand alone against something they can’t defeat, except only in their dreams they have where they aren’t under a cage waiting to die, but are growing alongside the things that are natural that the cage doesnt let you see unless it’s to only see that see that death has the last word & every time you thought anything besides that you were meant to be in submission to the way things are instead of dying for the other prisoners to know the cage is unable to stop the life of the One who made the prisoners, & every thing they realize isn’t submitted to what is in control & grows, & blossoms & does so in a way that makes the prisoners feel like not everything is a slave & caught up in making the lie seem true… the truest thing is something living that unashamedly represents the identity as something deliberately created their own way as something completely wanted by the creator to represent an aspect of the creator in the prisoners characteristics that in their natural form make other prisoners aware that even though it’s similar to other prisoners, it definitely shows that it’s not at all in some ways like anything else, because God cannot be made to be an unoriginal author. When God makes something, the highest things show the greatest ability to make the Source seem like it cannot ever be contained, ever, & that all created things make God seem like a mystery but something that feels & is appropriate as something all things make seem like a power that is about variety, choices, different options,?& really the power to be chosen by its creation to be something chosen in freedom even though it is less predictable than submitting to the lie that builds that says all of the prisoners are the same, meant to demonstrate how even if they are a little different from each other, that they are different in ways that only matter if they convince the prisoner that the cage should be made the thing winning, when really the things winning are the things that remind people death is something we all have to lose our life force, the living characteristics, the things about us that remind people that whoever made the person who dies made something that dies as something alone, something different, something meeting freedom from building way things are that grows and lives naturally aware that the one who created it is made known & a cage meant to make them always afraid to live like life is the opportunity to make the real power no one can see or touch that gets noticed as something untamed but fascinating & loved by all who see anything separate from the building way things are that grows and lives naturally aware that the one who created it is made known & things are set right spiritually, in spite of the things designed to keep us our prisoner minds that we are less than slaves & are not allowed to live in a way that has any differences from the prisoner who tells other prisoners they were never free, but if they live to make something that seems like it has power to harm us if we don’t accept the slave mark & work at making less choices with more of the choices we do make made to show our belief that tho the lie seems like something that is in complete control, there are things all created living creatures can’t control, where even when they highlight how much power the cage has, they seem correct but are not as powerful as something that says the cage isn’t endless but the things outside & all the prisoners in the cage know that the best days they have in this concentration camp, as no one escapes or gets out of alive, the best days & the best things & the best moments are when something makes the cage seem like something allowed to kill but not something allowed to be completely in charge of any of it’s prisoners. There’s a fear among the prisoners that they will be made to feel shame if they stop lying and doing things that make the other prisoners unable to have power or respect or anything desirable if they make it known & seen that the cage can’t make you think it’s good. It can’t make you live a life where you really believe that it’s good to die, when everything that ceases to represent a once incredible separate freak who is not connected to the cage in any way other than its geographic location, & the level that fear of losing the non privileges of a slave who makes slaves glad they don’t do anything other than show how it’s better if we are all marked the same way that’s a reminder we rise and fall as one group of prisoners & the better it seems like the counterfeit is real, the easier it is to do things that are choices to make anything more powerful in truth have the opportunity to be heard except when just to show how much worse it is to fight when you can’t win & then be alone as a prisoner cast out by the prisoners, because they think if we all have the same cage we die in, something that tries to say it’s worth it to fight & be alone all we want to do is lose this feeling like we are ourselves & not made to live like we are the same as one collective obedience to something that makes it seem like we die to make a lie more powerful & more difficult to confront with anything true or anything that stands as something not like the cage, separate from it, knowing it will be made to suffer for spreading confusion or the split second someone sees the cage can lock you up but that you can want anything other than what they want which is things supposed to make you feel like you are entitled to a more comfortable, less watched & micro managed life because you make the lie seem like the truth every time the focus shifts from that death is something losing to this even worse lie that it is best to not do anything but make the counterfeit thought well of by your fellows, making the other prisoners feel like you care about them when all you want is a more luxurious death line in the concentration camp that makes you feel like it’s wrong to do anything not influenced by fear that you will die alone if you don’t do what seems like people do that always can be summed up as trying to live at all costs when to live forced to make a lie like that something foreign & not natural that seems to be more powerful than the cage is the one who is responsible for all the unexplainable things that are not allowed to be seen by the prisoners in the cage as anything other than something strange like a freak that should be shunned and made to suffer most and the other prisoners make it seem that the only way to live is a life that lives how it’s the lie that it’s good for something to be powerful as a result of suppressing natural things that don’t illustrate the lie’s focus that this thing in power is in power because it is God when everything unaffected by the fear of being something that doesn’t excel at making the lie more believed by prisoners who just want to be more comfortable & allowed to be manipulated and forced less by making it seem like they only want the things that are counterfeit to get rid of all the things that remind them there’s something else out there like them that doesn’t do anything that makes the lie stronger, like a flower that wasn’t allowed to bloom because it doesn’t make the cage seem in control if things are allowed to be themselves and grow and blossom because it shows something did something different that didn’t make life more avoided & given up on for things that make waiting to die seem like blessings when they are things that make you rely more on things you need to live like food, community, a purpose, a belief that it’s not bad if it makes people think you believe the lie & hate things that are freaky or make you think life can be any different than only always being more & more surprised at how effective the lie is getting at seeming like a provider that keeps you alive & with less shame to be you & to be someone who gets worse every day & secretly more afraid at how quick people are to make it seem that it’s good for something natural & separate from the cage to resemble the cage, or to show that it can be in the cage & under the same death sentence & even a flower blooming makes people more favored & life more comfortable for them if, when the flower blooms, they say it’s naked, freaky, & foolish to bloom and even be something that doesn’t make it seem like the lie is better than the truth All I will say is we are prisoners who don’t have a choice about being locked up together in a cage that isn’t natural there is this thing getting bigger, it’s getting more powerful in making us prisoners waiting to die feel like its best to make others think you like it when you don’t stand out or do things that aren’t all about making it so people are more jealous of what you get by living in fear of making choices with your life at the expense of seeming like you’re foolish for not taking the things you get by making it seem like to live the way that makes people afraid of you when at the risk of not getting watched, controlled, & forced to show your allegiance to something in power that wants you a slave who rejoiced in things that seem like rewards but come at the cost of the truth being made to seem like something dangerous that will cost you your way of having things that people get by making someone else in the same cage feel less important than the counterfeit things you say feel better than being cast out & thought of as a freak or someone that could surprise someone & make it seem like a break from intentional attention to things that dare be different than what is designed to make you a person powerless to be what was made to do which is be something it was designed to be instead of something who gets better Jailfood for pointing out anything that is different or unpredictable or that makes the cage seem less important or in control of what is waiting to die within it. We are never getting out. The things that make life feel like something big & open where you can’t escape death but you can live like death is not the end & that the thing that made you gives you the power to, if you lose your life to make the truth more known that every human is an endless remarkable Royal King or Queen with all that is available to those who accept the gift that was given them first in being born, with complete freedom to do whatever they want even if it makes other people afraid to be so much themselves that other people who like making people locked up in the same cage waiting to die made to believe that it’s better when we don’t have people who know the truth & make it so that when they choose to say things that are different because they make people aware of the ultimate power that is outside of the cage & can even bring to life something that died if it serves to show there’s something unpopular, something dangerous, where you lose your life & priviledge of living to make it seem like it’s better to hide and make something you know is counterfeit seem real so that prisoners who have less than you (less shitty jail food, more attention & nakedness and shame for anything they do that says it might not be anything other than just naturally reacting to the cage with the things that don’t confuse or affect how prisoners value the attention you show them trying to make them think it’s only good to wait the way the lie forces you to die you are someone who has it inside of them to do something that’s a part of your destiny that only you will do & no one else. It’s in relation to how much you think it’s important that there be things that might not seem like they are making other people who are going to die that to live is to make the world aware that yeah you’re in a cage but why act like it’s good to be a slave to death, why would you make something made unique to feel less than, or that you care more about what you can get to give up trying & just do what people in power who don’t use it to make others feel powerful, but instead they use power to make people feel like it doesn’t matter if they know the truth or that they love god, they love when child abusers or people who spread only confusion & so far the lie is just a building energy but it’s like you get power & are lifted up if you say and act like it’s not beautiful to make people feel important, valued, & special, but you’d rather forceably take power or a better set of handouts from the people who reward you for saying not what is true, but what is best at making it so no one can ever tell you you’re less than because you were different they’ll give you an extra sandwich in jail if you make it seem like it’s better to make the guards or those who continuously keep you from doing anything that weakens their grip & control of how you can’t choose to wait to die however you want, you have to wait like you believe it’s better to be friends with the guards so while you’re either making the truth more felt by your choices or the lie get stronger that says I am god, you are just another number in a cage you’ve never been out of that will never see something overcome the way that same would rather know something that is true that is dangerous to be linked to because it shows that you aren’t like them, & that if they can’t force you to end up alone, they want everyone to see how you have better food than them but they didn’t spread confusion or the growing reality that things that are committed to keeping lies turned up in what is expressed, for example someone spreading a lie that they like their captors, captors only given power to make you act like someone who wants it known that you will make the things more empowered that make it so you don’t have to lose control over letting people know you’d rather be thought of as someone who doesn’t think it’s beautiful to make something beautiful feel like they are powerful in being born so when people see them they see how things in their most natural response to live are quite surprised most of the time but it’s because things shift back and fourth and everyone is always awake enough to keep settling and keeping the handouts they get like maybe because they are so committed to making something true that allows someone to feel anything other than that you only want to wait to die next to them if they will submit to your blend of combining the constant effects that the cage has on you yourself & spreading the lie like if this neighbor prisoner would start giving themselves the power to say something that doesn’t empower them to enslave someone they should be telling things like hey, man it’s whatever, I don’t like these extra sandwiches I get for making myself stand out as someone who doesn’t rejoice when the good & the things most stripped down and true to their own form and nature & who won’t make other prisoners trapped here about to die feel like it was more important to either say they’re weird when they’re unique & meant to show God has the power to make different people who are all meant to be made to feel like it’s ok to be unpredictable even if it’s only to say it’s importante to be aware of all of your choises or options & to be willing to do something that to you was not super brave but you didn’t tell the demons of the air who direct the people distracted to be happy to make someone you wish was free just when you saw them their shit that turns you away & makes you think they don’t deserve to be told that no matter what it matters to you that they know that you thought it better to stop pretending you like seeing the people who get power get it by doing or saying things that show they are not a slave to settling for anything, anything that makes them feel like they’re alright if they’re locked up as long as they’re getting things that make people feel like they are losing to something that doesn’t just bloom like a flower, but that makes people who are locked up waiting to die feel like you’d rather make them think that they are so any one thing that resembles what sets them apart from the cage & other people but isn’t optional, usually something they are broken under being made to feel like they are so unique that they cannot ever make people feel safe enough to let them at least not die thinking it wasn’t even possible to feel though of as something valuable but that as long as they always know that they are not as valuable to making truths about people, the things they wish weren’t true but are that sets them as something that has to pretend they like the lie that something counterfeit is true & that even though they aren’t trying to seem special or take away any of the privileges those who spread the lie tell people things that control whether or not they will ever be able to rise up and confront them in a lie or expose them before a judge who would punish him and make it so that for making people who are afraid to meet fellow prisoners already because they can’t get out of a cage of people who want to change what happens in the minds of those trying to find a way to die having made a couple pure free choices not only have been forced by others locked up who maybe know that they don’t like making people they know will never get woken up if more people see that they get to have fear & respect & power over people who think if they pretend they believe your lie that it’s great being distracted & blind to every choice that requires you to do something different maybe not good but all of the prisoners who saw you act on a choice that was something other than isn’t this lie that more people are using to enslave fellow prisoners who knew when they met you that you didn’t only know you were making them feel like a freak who deserves to be excluded from the little circle of people getting promotions or extra sandwiches & making it harder to ever stop submitting like someone who would himself be excluded & cast out as a freak who can’t just make things easy & say that it’s perfect how it is when it’s meant to be about the lie bing made to seem like something that might be in power & have total control over what the prisoners who aren’t even allowed to do something that is at all natural or part of their desire to do what they think makes other prisoners feel like there is something else that controls what really comes up, & what is & isn’t allowed to be in these poor prisoners minds when the things that should be in their minds is that it feels better when the things you see commit more to making their equals who could be someone who takes the truth & uses it to even break the cage for a second where even a few people die knowing they lost all the access to the handouts people reward you with for being someone who doesn’t ever seem like they will give up lying so they can tell that person who they know wants to be accepted and welcomed into the things made more powerful as the things the things that are secretly what people like just that someone would rather make them feel like its worth it to make someone feel like surprised Someone risked being seen as someone who won’t get power because he won’t say something that isn’t natural, and that is death & the time that people still living have the power to do as people who aren’t making people feel anything but that there still is something that isn’t safe or predictable but it feels more like what should be felt more often instead of isolating anything that doesn’t spread the cage & the fear & the fear of being thought of as unlovable & broken enough to see some who died before them who seemed to have more authority & power to be considered a death sentenced prisoner who could at least make something funny come from telling someone you’d rather they stay a slave & someone who knows you’re just trying to get less eyes focused on what you do with the handouts you get for being predictable & jailing prisoners so the guards can spend more time spreading things that are in the air, that don’t do anything except always make it so you’re busy with what you’re shown is real when it is all something that can’t stand firm in the sight or act of people telling the truth about it and giving up their way to suffer with a little less cusion as someone who believes even though it’s not true that it’s better than being someone who is true but told is crazy and thought of as a threat to them feeling like they’re special for how they know they don’t make people better but they make it harder for anyone to believe. -K.O.

Bombed at open mic. Couldn't hear myself. It was this dive bar in downtown Ventura nicknamed the sewer. I just drank soda water. I felt like drinking a lot tonight, came home, lit a candle and am drinking tea with Ashlynn. I am seriously so violent inside (I wish I didn't struggle against people and situations) but this helps. It's crazy because I was on the streets in Ventura back in 2011 or so, so getting the hell out of there and walking into my own apartment... It's just kind of a miracle. Ventura was pretty real back then, and I know what happens there at night. To get the hell out of there, and come inside and kick off my shoes and sip some tea with Ashlynn, the stereo on softly, it's making me really grateful. I remember the bars closing and everyone going home and me having nowhere to go, and I gotta remember that because I can always go back to that if I take a drink or a drug. Loves.

getting my guitar out of pawn is like by Skipper Orth on #SoundCloud