once i left mormonism i was able to deconstruct the beliefs i was fed and explore my options. because i finally had options.
things like children, i really donāt remember actually wanting kids. like. i knew i was going to have children eventually, or i expected to, but i much more imagined my future without children than with.Ā
i remember in my first marriage even having to debate between my career and children. not choosing certain paths because of the difficulties it would present once children were involved. i knew if i had kids i didnāt want to be like my mom and i told her that regularly. having children is still anĀ āifā statement though. i donāt have strong opinions on wanting them, i know i donāt want to go through pregnancy. i know that being potentially forced into a vaginal birth would be incredibly difficult psychologically.
but kids? like kids i birth to raise? idk man.
the current political climate is not one i want to bring children into. have you seen outside? the current literal climate is not one for children. itās not one for any human much less children.Ā
the generational trauma? ew.
the responsibility for allllllll of it? also ew
im just, i donāt think i see the desire?
i could have kids, like im not necessarily against having children BUT i donāt actively want them either.Ā
kids are fun but the best part is giving them back to their parents.
