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Every year on some type of social site I do my Thankful crap, year in review. well 2013 was almost a month ago, and I didnt do it. I been busy (ya Ill go with that) so we can see that 2014 is bring on procrastination.

WELL LET THE REVIEW BEGIN:

I met some of the oddest people in 2013, that really really kinda altered me in ways. All these people are interesting in separate and unique ways. Like Moira. Shes a cool broad who means what she says. Tom, a happy go lucky gay guy with the most interesting story. Russ, a guy that lisa bangs that doesn't infuriate me to the core. KIBO, who technically I knew for a while...but I really had some great times with him with talks and stuff. Hes a great guy, like TOm has a very interesting story. Its sad I didnt get to know more of it. Some of the Okees crew, Weird...like ready to be on the next TLC reality show odd. But they were all cool. I even got to rekindle or should I say start getting to know family members. LIke some of my cousins, alex and Marco, ezio even. Even marcos odd ex Johnna. who at first was a cute plucky young 20year old who quickly turned into a bitch. But shes young. She will learn that you cant be a cunt everyday.

2013 was I guess a good year. I got my freedom at a cost. I finally freed my self of My ex rob. It wasnt as sad as I thought it would be. In 14 years I was afraid to leave. I was afraid no one would want me, that I would die alone. That I couldnt make it on my own. But after a summer I never thought I would have...I made my mind up and decided I couldnt play the gf role to an alcohlic any more. I got off the roller coaster ride for good.  BUT with the Freedom I got from that...I lost a house I worked for, I lost a slew of friends that I had with rob (not that they are missed)

2013 also let me shed 97 lbs. 104 as of today. Not the best way to lose weight , but I did it.

I was forced into treatment for Depression, I had my tonsils removed as well as my gallbladder and part of my intestines with a tumor. I had a tumor on my throat removed. I was put on HIGH blood Pressure. I had only a few panic attacks, and I was cursed with weekly Vertigo episodes. It wasnt the BEST year for my health..but I go to physical therapy to do the Epleys manuevour for Vertigo and I by force I have to go to a therapist for Depression...which I dont think I really have. Its more situational things. Bad days make me sad. Good days make me hapopy. Im not walking around saying LIFE BLOWS. it has ups and downs. I try TO stay POSITIVE. WHICH also brings me to the fact. Im not AS much a door mat as I usually was. Still, Im a push over..but Not as bad.

I saw my mothers Grave, Only once and that was good enough, I think. I didnt have the moments every one told me I would have. It was a very hard to describe few mins. It wasnt sad, IT didnt bring closure. Shes in my heart and I miss her no less. My dad dated big ass broads, and thats cool. I just hated the fact that I had to take on the role of being the glue for the remnants of the family. ANgela was mad and I was upset he didnt care she was mad. Frustrating, but I want TOMAS to be happy.

I won a COMEDY Roast back in July. 5k (3452) after taxes. Too bad almost all, and Im embarrased to say almost all went to my friends Heroin addiction. But I think of life as a wash. One day, Ill get something good back. The Roast was A very fun experience. I dont think I have talent..it was a fluke. The funny people were MIA that evening and I got lucky. 2014 I was offered a TON of chances to restart my Hobby and possible career with getting my Sitcom DAVE AND DAVE off, but ITs not that I dont want to..its just TIMING. I cant be jet setting to NY or BOSTON to perform. I still have a time consuming job. PLUS I dont want the pressure. IT was a fun hobby. AND still at 29 (ok a slight exaggeration) I dont have the followers who would want to support and see me.

I didnt smoke for 6 months. I Stopped my tanning addiction for the most part. I stopped eating cotton balls, and mostly quit throwing my food up in the fall. Had a few slip ups.

AND I know I missed alot in 2013, But I did save the BEST part for last. I met someone that I really really love. He annoys the shit out of me and keeps me on my toes, and I love every moment of that. I love everything that this person brings to the plate, a kid thats great, an apartment I was dreading that feels like home..killer orgasms and smiles and great conversations. I feel 100 percent with him.