#afiq

maybe i have craved solitude for the longest time that being alone is not being lonely people keep asking me things like do you miss home? and i say no i do not feel homesick i have a home but it is not a place

my home is my cats lazing on the sofa while i laugh at funny videos

my home is in afiq's presence as we eat pizza in the hospital he is warded at

my home is the kitchen with my sisters as we argue on which actor we find most handsome

i do not miss home at all i do, however, miss my laksa i do miss the sensation of my babies snuggled against me

somedays i might be rajin 

somedays im not

somedays i am able to run 3km without stopping

but not today hahaha. managed for 2.4 km je then i walk until 4 km

somedays i am independent

somedays i cry to my sleep sebab homesick rindu mak abah HAHA

somedays im clingy for attention from A

and somedays i am able to lose 1 kg a week

but not this week TT managed to lose 500g je camtu 

but still, slow progress is better than no progress

i feel healthier. i feel achieved. i am happier. thank you to my body sebab stay strong all those runs and cardios

alhamdulillah. your girl passed her exams!! T.T im so thankful Year 3 is finally over. my degree life is so bumpy but i made it through somehow. 

currently im staying at home. helping mak abah whenever i can. Year 4 starts on 19/10 and will be conducted through online classes 

my life has been normal so far. im surrounded with people that loves me, babied by mak, abah and shea and at times, i babied upi and pia too! 

honestly, there are a few things that i tak boleh sabar dah...

1. starting Year 4 (online or physical classes idc, orang nak gi sekolah!!)

2. hiking....

My baby's fit like a daydream Walking with his head down I'm the one he's walking to So call it what you want, yeah, call it what you want to

never have i ever saw him so sad and demotivated like i did on last Saturday. he has been nothing but cheerful and radiates positivity in whatever he does and says. it is so so weird to see him in that position! but that just proves that dia pun human ;( 

and when he finally told me everything, i feel relieved and happy that he shares a bit of his struggles with me. sebab the least i could do for him is to be a good listener and selit a few advices and motivation here and there. 

tapi when he is with me

he is so soft

me: why?? sebab... aku.... kasar?

my friend: haha yepp....

me: haha then sampai bila2lah kau akan wonder kekeke

* i told him the story*

him: HAHAHAHAH aimi kan......