#adhd kid

me: mhm, yeah

adult: so we should punish them harder than we would a full grown adult

Ever since I was a toddler, when my mother would put me to bed, she would give me three chances to call her back in to say something or ask something.

I would always find my mind in chaos once i would wind down physically (i think cause there was less stimulation). so i would be getting up and asking her for water or how bees communicate or if full house was based on a real thing. all of the questions i could have possibly had all day came reeling back and i simply could not sleep until i had answers. unfortunately, my mother, though i love her, was not understanding at all, and ended up giving me way too much melatonin.

i still face these behaviors to this day, and because i’m almost 17, it’s a lot less socially acceptable. especially after moving in with my aunt, who is much less understanding than my mother already was.

even this post is something that was stuck in my brain only after:

realizing i needed to plug in my chromebook

getting up to do that and seeing my water bottle

realizing i forgot to drink water today

passing the bathroom on my way to get water

realizing i forgot to brush my teeth

going back to my mother and aunt while brushing my teeth to confirm for the 8th time today that i have a dentist appt next week

getting yelled at for being all over the place at 1 am on a school night

remembering to plug in my chromebook

wanting to make this post

asking if anyone checked the mail

getting yelled at for being awake still

checking the mail

oooooh stars

its supposed to thunderstorm tomorrow

listen to Corpse’s agoraphobic on repeat