#adeline stuff

Adeline sat in the red patterned auditorium seat next to her mother. She glanced at the broken clock on the wall and took in the smell of the auditorium, slightly woody and reminding her of her home's basement, as she watched Simone dance across the stage with grace. Older than her by just a year, Simone was everything Adeline wanted to be, with her long, flowing ginger hair, big eyelashes, and incredible ability in terms of dance.

“Mom, I wish I could do that,” Adeline said, looking to her mother with starry eyes. Watching these performances for so long, she’d known that this was what she wanted to do for years. It wasn’t hard to tell - when she watched them, she had a special sparkle in her eyes. It was like magic to her.

“Oh, honey, I know,” her mother said, laying a hand on her shoulder. “But you know boys don’t do that.”

Her hair was getting long now. Her mother had been asking when she would cut her hair every time they went to lunch. She’d chuckle awkwardly and say she was going to eventually, and Simone would tell her to get off Adeline’s back.

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The lights in her apartment were off. She laid on her bed, the room illuminated only by a string of cheap fairy lights hanging on the wall. Glow-in-the-dark stars stuck to her ceiling in various colors.

She sat up and slowly got to her feet, in her comfy socks, white tank top and bulldog pajama pants. Eight o’clock. It was about time she ate something.

She walked out down the hall and into the living room. She flicked on the TV - Guy Fieri's voice filled the apartment as he talked about 20,000 dollars. That would be nice.

She opened her freezer and pulled out a frozen macaroni and cheese she'd bought from the grocery store the day before. Slowly and carefully, she peeled up a corner of the film, then tossed it in the microwave.

It was getting harder to hide lately - the hair, the constant shaving, the three thrift store dresses in her closet she was too afraid to wear. It was starting to be a little too much to deal with nobody knowing.

Her phone chimed with a text from Simone. A picture of her cat.

| Nala is soooo sleepy! 🐱🐾

She chuckled softly. The way Simone texted was corny, but she was glad she at least wanted to talk to her.

| aw!! give her some pets for me :))

Adeline suddenly had a stupid idea. A really stupid one.

i think

She hesitated. Should I really do this?

i think im

The microwave went off. She shut off her phone.

She grabbed a fork from her silverware drawer, lifted the plastic film and started stirring. She got a little lost in thought. Simone must be confused about why she spent so long typing before leaving so suddenly. But she needed someone to know about her. She might lose her mind if she had to hide it from everyone for much longer. And she thought it might take her a bit to gather the courage.

She put it back in the microwave and picked her phone back up. Before she could think twice about it, she sent the text.

| i think im a woman

Immediately, she went to back out and delete the message, but Simone had already read it.

| I don't know what you mean 😅

She sighed exasperatedly. She hadn't expected her to understand right away, but she really didn't feel like explaining.

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She screenshotted the given definition - "A trans woman (short for transgender woman) is a woman who was assigned male at birth." - and sent the screenshot to her.

| Oh I know a girl like that at work! Her name is Georgia 😃

| So you're a trans woman?

| yeah

| Does anyone else know yet?

| not yet

| just you

| please don't tell mom

| Got it 😃

She smiled down at her phone. This went better than she expected.

| Let me know if you need any makeup tips! I've done years of stage makeup 🤣🤣🤣

The microwave went off again. It was done.

| thank you :))

She tucked her phone into the pocket of her pajama pants and took out the mac and cheese. A little pepper, garlic powder, and salt, and it was ready, if still a little hot to eat. She grabbed a bag of chips from off the top of her fridge - she deserved a little treat for doing something so brave, she thought - and sat at the table, turning on a show she'd already watched on Prime Video.