And while staring at darkness, you realize that the world that exists within the headset is not real, and that you’re just a character.

Then you feel guilty for having a personality that is not yours, so you stop taking the drug.

Then you crash.

Mentally, physically, and emotionally.

It's hard at first because you can barely open your eyes. 

All you want to do is sleep.

You’re nostalgic.

You’re only interested in learning about Pangea or the savanna.

You’re eating nonstop.

Then you’re back to normal, and you want to go back.

As mentioned in my previous post I am currently struggling with stimulant dependency. A side effect of using amphetamines is lack of appetite, around January 12th I began dieting.

Well its been a little over 2 weeks and so far I've lost about 7 pounds. Since my addiction began I've lost about 12 or so pounds in total.

Last Saturday I decided to begin taking diet pills too alongside diet and excercise. I stopped taking Adderall so I could safely use the diet pills.

No motivation to do anything

having a BRUTAL nosedive of an adderall crash already and hearing the astronomical society’s star party is cancelled made me disproportionately sad lol