#acceptance email

I am even more exited than yesterday since this morning I woke up to my acceptance email for Uni this year~ I've been to Uni before and for a long time I was dull about it. But after having a year off studying - a lot has happened in this year and now the comfortable Rachel is looking forward to going back to studying!

Good luck!

YAHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

I had a this feeling that UCSD was going to be my back-up of UCLA, but I guess that it's not meant to be. Now with this news, I don't even want to see what UCLA is going to send me. I mean, I had very high hopes for UCSD. I felt so damn confident in myself that I would make it in. I still have my hopes, though. I would've loved it if I made it in for the aesthetics of things, at the very least. It brings my whole mentality of things down. It's not much of a thing of getting in or not. It's hurting my self-confidence in some sort of way. Now, somehow, I really don't feel suitable for anyone or anything anymore. Ugh. This hurts. It hurts a lot. Well, I have UCLA to look forward to... and I have been accepted to NAU since January. I feel even more pathetic now. So much more pathetic than I have been recently. I cannot wait until after all this college stuff is over. I'm tired of waiting for all of these people's telling me I can't do what I dream to do. I should have opened that email after my homework because I feel too goddam depressed from that news. I really do.