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To my favorite person—

my love,

I know how difficult I am to handle, but thank you for not giving up on me.

Thank you for holding on, though I pushed you away so many times.

You amaze me by how you always see the good things in me even I think I'm being the worst version of me at times.

You always understands me even I myself don't. That's one thing I like about you. You don't judge, but instead you try to understand everything in every possible ways.

You bring me so much happiness from the moment you came into my life; You're my happy pill in this sad world.

You're this selfless man I know who loves to surprise me with random presents and even small cute gestures.

You always bring the best in me. You supported me in everything since day one. You would tell me I can do this and that. And that with prayers, everything is possible.

I told you my story but you still stayed. You would remind me that it was a decision you made, that you will never regret.

There was once a time when you told me (that you've prayed to God to give you someone you can relay to. And He gave you, me.) That I'm your answered prayer. And that I was your missing piece and now, I complete you.

You told me I amazed you for so many reasons but NO, love. YOU AMAZE ME MORE.

You're a good man with such a beautiful soul. There's so many good beautiful things about you, my love.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ❤️

28 July 2019

It's so cute when you talk about the planets, the universe and whole galaxy. You fed me up with lots of trivia.

You know how much I love the moon, and when you saw it in its beautiful phase, you would text me and would tell me about it; As I would tell you to wait up cause I'm gonna go and take a look. But you're this overprotective guy that would stop me and would tell me it isn't actually that beautiful for me to stay at my room cause you dont want me passing by on guys at the lobby.

It was three in the morning...

You asked me if I still want to see you.

"really? You're doing this right now? What kind of game are you up to? To ask me that in this unholy hour?"

And you then told me about this weird dream that woke you up.

You dream of me leaving you.

You woke up sweating with a weird feeling as your heart beats so fast.

You then told me to never leave you.

It's amazing how you can pull yourself from bed everyday despite of all the problems, depression, pain & shits that life is throwing you.

It's amazing how you still fight despite of how life is throwing you shits

FIRST LOVE. What is it exactly? For some, they consider it as the happiest day of their lives. Some would tell you, that it was like a roller coaster. Wherein there were many ups and downs— but still together for couple of years now. But for some, their first love was their first heart break... And then, there comes a time when I wonder if what really hurts for them: to know that your someone is dead or to see him or her with someone else. Or maybe both?

My love for my family is unexplainable. My family is definitely my happiness. But when I met my first love, I found a different level of happiness. I know it was a major sin when I committed to a relationship with him. In fact, I don't even know if the Almighty could forgive me for this. But I hope He knew how sorry I am. If I could only turn back time... But swear to God, having him in my life that time was something I couldn't explain. He was actually the best part of my everyday. I was always excited to wake up in morning to read his sweet good morning messages. And to end my night with his sweet good night text like there's no tomorrow.

I might had crushes on some guys back then, but I never did imagine spending my life to anyone. But only to him. He was never my ideal man. Really. He was someone a girl doesn't like to be with. He is this bad boy, hard-headed, playboy, and a short-tempered boy who hates school. In fact, I don't think if he has ambitions and plans in life. In short, he's suchlike a gangster. But he, my not so ideal man, was the one I unexpectedly fell in love with. It was all unexpected.

Until changes happened. Strangers turned to friends then to lovers. We spent days together that turned to weeks, months and then years. We were so happy that we couldn't express it. We often go out, but it isn't a hindrance for us to show our love for each other. Through texts and phone calls, we're like together each day that passed by.

Until something happened again...

It all back to their place. Lovers turned to not-even-friends and then turned to strangers.