ooh tysm for the recommendation!! it doesnt really fit for vivian, but interestingly enough, yknow who it did make me think of?

her dad.

for those who dont know, vivian's family has a history of addiction. her dad, martin, battled an addiction to a drink called ataraxia. whether he won or lost the battle, we'll never know, because he got a divorce and left them when vivian was twelve, thinking it was better that way. viv hasnt seen or heard from him since.

the reason it doesnt work for viv is that the song talks about the drugs removing all feelings. elysium doesnt numb; it does the opposite— it simulates intense pleasure. she doesnt use it to numb the negative emotions, but to pile on so many more feelings that she forgets about the bad ones for a while.

but ataraxia, martin's drug, is a numbing agent. its point is that it strips you of all emotions and puts you in this calm, detached state. it's usually only used clinically, like to relieve really bad ptsd survivors when nothing else works. in that case, "took your peace, your pain, your pleasure / left you with one face forever" is PERFECT for martin.

this is he :>

Oh, God, I’m so sorry to hear that. Firstly because it means you have understood absolutely nothing from the canon, and thus you’re missing the beauty of it. And secondly, you know, since Ran and Shinichi are literally endgame and pretty much established to be canon since always and forever. 

Perhaps she is ‘made for Shinichi’ in the sense that they are really good partners --that they work together very well because they think similarly and are in the same situation together. But don’t confuse that with a romantic attachment. 

And please refrain from trying to boil down a complex character like Haibara to a single trait like being made for a guy. There is so much more depth and difficulty in her character and in her struggle that to establish that she is ‘made for someone’ with the implication that her value resides solely on being with that person is an insult to her and to her entire character development arc. 

The next time you come into my ask box with hate (which, as you know, I always encourage) please try to make it a little more challenging. Cause on a scale of 1 to 4869, 4869 being the most hurt or rage a hate ask can provoke, this was like a 2. If you only give me a single, short, clearly false statement there’s not much I can work with and my answers will be so dull that no one in the shinran fandom will deem them rebloggable and so in the end we’re both losing, you know? You lack the attention you so clearly thirst for in sending these asks, and I do nothing to reinforce my shinran passion.