#a-level studyblr

Plan for the day:

- Write my A-Level drama essay

- Go and do some fundraising with the guides

Alternate title: I have so many text posts explaining my absences I’m not sure anyone cares.

Hello,

I started this blog was back in March 2015. (TW: Suicide) School was weeks away from breaking up for the Easter holiday. My final exams were in May and this was the most important time in school. I however, wasn’t allowed into the school building due to being too much of a danger to myself. Due to this I was very alone and struggled to motivate myself. So, I found the studyblr community as Science-Studying (Hey, anyone remember that?)

Honestly, I loved that time. Yes, my mental health was messed up but trying to build this blog gave me something. Unfortunately I think it just made me more frustrated and angry but I enjoyed it. I eventually got sorted out with medication and I felt good! I made friends and I felt like I had accomplished something with this blog. I got good grades and was ready to start college. 

I was getting really tired during that summer. I needed a nap everyday but I took that as all my hard work paying off.

I started college! and for the first month I worked so hard the first month!!!! However, I was so exhausted. I put it down to burn out but my love for this blog soon faltered as I hated working. I couldn’t concentrate on anything and I felt constantly sick.

My new love was my youtube channel. I had started a channel under the name of Science Studying and wanted it to run aside to my blog. However, as my interest in studying faltered so did that topic. My main focus quickly turned to books and reading. I changed my YouTube and this blog to EllisReads. I also failed all my A-Levels too due to the fact I was so sick and so tired

I was diagnosed with a Chronic Illness called “Chronic Fatigue Sydrome” and I was advised to stop going to college for a year. How could I remotely be a studyblr when I didn’t study?

Due to a extremely toxic online friendship, The internet started to give me extreme anxiety. It came to the point where I was too scared to go on my computer. I deleted my Twitter and my EllisReads Youtube. I temporarily tried a second Youtube EllisLikeTheIsland but my love had truly faltered. I wanted nothing to do with the internet. I would purposely look up things that made me anxious because of my intrusive thoughts.

What am I doing now?

Well, I am feeling a lot better. I start a fully funded access course in Law, Humanities and Teaching in September. The following year I want to start my degree in Primary Education. I started to realise I missed being a studyblr! I want to come back. I have blocked all I needed to block and used extensions to block tags that make me anxious. I think I am finally back  

Hey! Idk how these studyblr intros are supposed to go but I’ll just introduce myself, what I’m studying, and some of my hobbies and interests!

I’m Clare and I’m an a-level student who has just started Year 12 as of September 2018.

I study English Literature, Spanish and Sociology as of right now but it’s early days yet.

The texts I study for EngLit are The Great Gatsby, The Grapes of Wrath, Hamlet, A Doll’s House, Christina Rossetti’s poetry, and for coursework The World’s Wife, On Chesil Beach and Who’s Afraid of Virginia Woolf.

I’m not the most aesthetically pleasing student in the world - if I can’t buy the stationary in B&M or Poundland I’m just not buying it. Skint, innit. But I do try.

My music taste mostly consists of alternative rock and punk bands, especially female-led ones like Hole and Sleater-Kinney. I also like pop artists like Lana and Marina! I’m always up to talk about music.

I love comedy shows like AbFab, The Young Ones and Broad City among other things.

Hobbies include drawing, writing, reading....not many hobbies to be honest, must get some more hahaha! Nothing involving exercise, though :”)