#@frickss75

Chapters: 50/50 Fandom: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America (Movies)

Rating: Mature/explicit

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers, Sharon Carter & Steve Rogers, James "Bucky" Barnes & Sam Wilson, James "Bucky" Barnes & Wanda Maximoff, Steve Rogers & Tony Stark, Steve Rogers & Sam Wilson Characters: James "Bucky" Barnes, Steve Rogers, Wanda Maximoff, Sharon Carter (Marvel), Tony Stark, Sam Wilson (Marvel), Shuri (Marvel) Additional Tags: Established Relationship, Top Steve Rogers, Bottom Bucky Barnes, Steve and Bucky are married, Bucky Barnes Has Issues, Bucky Barnes Has PTSD, Bucky Barnes Has Nightmares, Bucky Barnes Has Panic Attacks, Bucky has a cat, Steve Rogers is a SMOL, Protective Steve Rogers, Past Abuse, Past Torture, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Anxiety Attacks, Flashbacks, Angst, Fluff and Angst, Rough Sex, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Sex, Idiots in Love, Angst with a Happy Ending, Sam Wilson Is a Good Bro, Awesome Sharon Carter (Marvel), Telepathic Wanda Maximoff, wanda maximoff is a good sis, Tony Stark Is a Good Bro, Dwarves as Cats, Happiness does occur, Mental Health Issues, Mental Instability, Bucky has a therapist, Artist Bucky Barnes, painting as therapy, Artist Steve Rogers, both are artists, Bucky Barnes Recovering, Soft Bucky Barnes, Bucky is not an Avenger, Bucky is getting better, Depression, Implied/Referenced Suicide, past suicide attempt references, Implied/Referenced Self-Harm, Christmas Fluff, Implied/Referenced Abuse, Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con, Implied/Referenced Torture, Stalking, Eventual Happy Ending, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse

Series: Part 2 of The Recovery of Bucky Barnes Summary:

Sequel fic to Until It Sleeps (my labor of love) Seems I wasn't done yet.

Set a few months after Bucky and Steve's first anniversary, there is some unfinished business still to take care of it seems which unfortrunately create a few angsty situations for a our happy couple. But nothing they can't overcome right?

If you haven't read the previous one, just know there are references to things that happened in so feel free to ask if you don't have the time to read 38 chapters lol

December/January are always rough for Bucky but the upcoming trip Germany is setting off the triggers in many ways. Things like learning new information and simply seeing a photograph or simply seeing an item from his past are enough to set off his anxiety all over again.

Snippet:

Steve just hoped he’d believe in himself enough to realize it and use it to just destroy the man at the table and the organization he represented.

But right now, it was his turn. And the world turned to see what Captain America had to say.

And he had a lot to say.

“What is your relationship with Sergeant Barnes?”

Steve actually smiled a bit at this, thinking there were a lot of answer to that. He just went with the obvious one. “He’s my husband.”

“How long have you been married?”

“A year and a half actually.”

“But you’ve been together for much longer haven’t you?”

Steve smiled again at this, knowing the answer was so intricate and sometimes unbelievable to him. “We met when were kids so if you’re going strictly by years it’s been over 8 decades.” He said and added. “Although I slept for about 7 of those.”

That actually got a chuckle from a large number of people, Steve himself couldn’t honestly believe it. They’d known each since the 1920’s. Starting out as kids on playground and had ended up here. Never in their wildest dreams did they ever believe they’d still be together, or even alive at this point in history. Sometimes his life still amazed him.

“Well in the time you were awake you’ve known him pretty well.” The prosecutor asked with a smile on her own face before getting serious. “Can you describe what he was like prior to his initial capture by the Hydra organization?”

“He was smart, confident, pretty well-adjusted I would say considering how hard things were sometimes then.” He told them, wanting to paint a picture of who Bucky was prior to all this. “He hated bullies, that’s how we met actually..” Steve gave a sheepish smile then. “I was getting my ass kicked again and he protected me.”

“So he was good person in all respects?”

Steve gave a stern look that. “He IS a good person.” He corrected. “This hasn’t changed that.

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Poster’s note:

This is the second work in @frickss75‘s magnum opus, The Recovery of Bucky Barnes:  https://archiveofourown.org/series/1542769. 

A Stucky WIP on AO3

By: Frickss75

Instinct (245102 words) by frickss75 Chapters: 12/? Fandom: Marvel, Captain America - All Media Types, Marvel Cinematic Universe, Jurassic World Trilogy (Movies) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers, Steve Rogers & Natasha Romanov, James "Bucky" Barnes & Owen Grady Characters: Steve Rogers, James "Bucky" Barnes, Natasha Romanov (Marvel), Owen Grady, Clint Barton, Wanda Maximoff, Sam Wilson (Marvel), Bruce Banner Additional Tags: Established Relationship, Top Steve Rogers, Bottom Bucky Barnes, Breaking Up & Making Up, situationship - Freeform, it's complicated - Freeform, Mysterious Past, Trauma, Bucky Barnes Has PTSD, Temporary Amnesia, Bucky Barnes Has Nightmares, slowly revealed backstories, Past Amputation, Past Medical Experimentation, Strange Abilities, Bucky Barnes Needs a Hug, commitment issues, Steve Rogers Needs a Hug Too, Paleontologist Steve Rogers, Protective Steve Rogers, Working at Jurassic World, Dinosaurs, Bucky trains raptors, Communicating With Animals, Some dino mayheam, some horror, gene splicing, Genetic Engineering, dinos are not the bad guys, humans are worse than dinos, Past Character Death, death under mysterious circumstances, all kinds of myseties, Bucky and Owen were Navy friends, Mentions of other characters - Freeform, Raptor Squad, Intelligent Animals, Protective Raptor Squad (Jurassic Park), Marvel/Jurassic AU, Non-Canonical Character Death, occasional graphic violence, non Canon, Angst and Fluff and Smut, Dorks in Love, too stupid to admit, Angst with a Happy Ending, Child Abuse, traumatic childhood, past connection, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, scary dino horror, Depression, Suicidal Thoughts, Self-Destructive Behavior, happy ending i swear, situational violence, Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con, Questionable Consent, freaky scary animals

Summary:

Bucky has a mysterious past, parts of which he can't remember. Like the accident that cost him his arm. But years ago his friend Owen Grady gets him work at Jurassic World, working with some of the most dangerous animals to ever exist. And Bucky has a gift that makes this job perfect for him as well. A mysterious ability he has no idea how he obtained. But he found a found and purpose on Isla Nublar. As well as a relationship with the resident Paleontologist by the name of Steve Rogers. All of this complicated by a tragedy at the park and the mystery surrounding it, and Bucky's past.

Chapter 12: Reflection

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He gently nuzzled Bucky’s neck as they stood there by the window, both of them naked as the they were born. “You can hear them can’t you?”

“Yeah.” Bucky confirmed then, his eyes still looking outward, beyond the trees. “They’re a a lot louder at night.. always have been.”

Steve nodded at this and continued to nuzzle Bucky’s neck. “Probably because most predators are nocturnal by nature.” He observed, following Bucky’s eyes to the moving trees, creating strange light patterns on them both. “Especially the Troodons considering their eyes are so light sensitive and all.”

“Yeah…they’re out hunting..” Bucky confirmed then, his head tilted as if listening. “Looks like they will actually be short a herbivore or two in the morning..” Steve saw his eyes flicker a little then. “Everyone’s gotta eat I suppose.”

“Are they… thinking anything else?”

He saw Bucky shake his head slightly. “No.. this is all just instinctual.” He told Steve in a matter of fact way. “They’re just.. trying to survive like anyone else.”

Steve thought on that just a little, knowing it was true. Every form of life that existed on earth, past and present, naturally or artificially created, had that same instinct. Survival. And he understood as a paleontologist and a naturalist as well, that that no form of life should ever be judged for that. That there was no real malicious intent with most of these animals, just a natural imperative. He remembered Dr. Gant saying once that it didn’t matter if these things were created by us, they didn’t know that, they just know they exists and they have to survive and whose to judge how they do it.

Which led him to the thought of Bucky’s sort of predilection toward carnivores as opposed to the gentler animals here. Because he’d never once seen him directly interact with the herbivores, or even indicate that he could hear them at all.

“Can you hear all of them?” He asked then, realizing he’d never really asked this. “Or is it just…“

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Chapters: 38/38 Fandom: Marvel Cinematic Universe

Rating: Mature/explicit

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers, Steve Rogers & Sam Wilson, Steve Rogers & Tony Stark, James "Bucky" Barnes & Wanda Maximoff, James "Bucky" Barnes & Sam Wilson Characters: Steve Rogers, James "Bucky" Barnes, Sam Wilson, Tony Stark, Wanda Maximoff Additional Tags: Marvel Universe, Post-Serum Steve Rogers, Steve Rogers Feels, Top Steve Rogers, Protective Steve Rogers, Bucky Barnes Feels, Bottom Bucky Barnes, Bucky Barnes Recovering, Bucky Barnes Has Issues, Hurt Bucky Barnes, Bucky Barnes Remembers, Bucky Barnes Has PTSD, Relationship Study, Relationship Issues, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Past Abuse, Past Torture, Mental Health Issues, Mental Instability, Bucky Barnes Has Nightmares, Angst and Fluff and Smut, Fluff and Angst, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Comfort/Angst, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Eventual Happy Ending, Romantic Fluff, Emotional Sex, Rough Sex, Dorks in Love, Work In Progress, Canon Related, Non-Canon Relationship, Sam Wilson Is a Good Bro, Tony Stark Is a Good Bro, Suicide Attempt, Implied/Referenced Sexual Assault, Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con, dangerous sleep issue, Bucky Barnes gets a cat, wanda maximoff is a good sister, Artist Bucky Barnes, Photographer Steve Rogers Series: Part 1 of The Recovery of Bucky Barnes Summary:

Steve finally has Bucky back in Brooklyn with him, but he is finding out that his issues are deeper than he thought. His PTSD manifestsin many ways, including some very bizarre sleep behavoir. And Bucky is fighting internally with constantly returning memories and some deep seated fears about himself. Steve loves Bucky no matter what and is determined to prove it to him however he can.

I do apologize for any grammatical errors, I do occasionally miss words for some bissare reasons lol. and I do like to talk so my notes could be long.

Am also on Tumblr under the same username as here if interested :)

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This was after all, a safe place. A place he didn’t want to leave.

He could feel the rise and fall of Steve’s respiration against his back and was reminded of just how healthy he was now. How strong. He remembered the times, early on, when Steve couldn’t breath right and being scared that one day he’d just stop. It seemed so long ago. A lifetime really. But here they were again.

Only this time, it was Steve holding and protecting him. Sheltering him from the things that could hurt him. Stopping him from hurting himself.

Bucky felt so much love for him it actually hurt. Causing him to nuzzle his face against the arm that was now under his head. It had gotten there somehow in the night.

“Hey.” He heard him say, his voice groggy. “You stayed.”

Bucky nodded, rubbing his face against that same arm like a contented cat. “I guess I did.”

He felt Steve nuzzled the back of his neck softly, his fingers playing in his hair. “I’m glad you did.”

“Yeah.” He replied, smiling as he pulled Steve’s arm around him a little more. “So am I.”

He couldn’t guarantee if it was a permanent thing or not. Some days he felt stronger than others, and the urge to run was always just under the surface. Like all the horrors in his head, new ones bursting forth every day, causing fear and self-loathing. But for today at least, he had no plans to run away.

“No matter what.. I’d still love you.” Steve whispered into his hair. “I always will.”

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Poster’s note:

https://archiveofourown.org/users/frickss75

mature readers only

mind the tags!

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For the series The Recovery of Bucky Barnes alone: https://archiveofourown.org/series/1542769

Book links:

1 Until It Sleeps mature

2 In a Little While mature

3 A Life Less Ordinary mature

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For the series Life In Pieces alone: https://archiveofourown.org/series/3690295

Book Links:

1 Sweetness Follows mature

2 Living Proof mature

3 Fragments mature

Frickss75 specializes in Bucky as a recovering war hero, brutalized and exploited by the Soviet Union and Hydra, building a new life and family with his lover and spouse, Steve Rogers. Her stories are alternate universes following Bucky's canon recovery in Wakanda.

Her very first work lays the groundwork, which underlie both series, and is still an active theme. This means if you like or love one of her works, be sure to subscribe to the main link above and catch up at your leisure, as well as receiving subsequent works in your mailbox.

Main tags:

Multiple personalities, ptsd, recovery and counseling, sexual acts, mild kinks, angst, issues with the Serum, fighting Hydra, domestic tiffs (and making up!), male pregnancy, childbirth (not very graphic), domestic life, raising children, cats. There's more, but just check tags before opting to read.

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Marvel Cinematic Universe Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers Characters: James "Bucky" Barnes, Steve Rogers, Wanda Maximoff, Original Characters Additional Tags: Established Relationship, Married Bucky Barnes/Steve Rogers, Top Steve Rogers, Bottom Bucky Barnes, Weird Biology, Mpreg, Non ABO, men with babies, Bucky Barnes Has Issues, Bucky Barnes Has PTSD, severe anxiety, Multiple Personalities, Past Torture, Past Rape/Non-con, Medical Trauma, Past Institutionalization, Mental Illness, Hydra were super assholes, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Mentions of Avenger friends, Mentions of other characters - Freeform, Ayo makes an appearance, The Countess makes an appearance, Bucky is the mom/dad, Steve and Bucky Have Kids, super soldier babies, Kid Fic, they have cats, very sexually active couple, Rough Sex, Car Sex, Emotional Intimacy, Flashbacks, Story within a Story, Bedroom confession, Angst and Fluff and Smut, Angst with a Happy Ending, Dorks in Love

Series: Part 3 of Life In Pieces Summary:

While preparing for hip surgery Bucky has to face his past medical trauma and relive a part of his life he'd rather forget. Part 3 of the Life in Pieces Collections (all previous tags apply as well)

Snippet:

He went to go sit down in the recliner, feeling the now almost unbearable pain of his disintegrating hip at every step. It was a relief to just sit down. There was no way to put it off. It had to be taken care of. He would simply have to suck up the anxiety as best he could. If his mind would just… shut the fuck up once and a while.

We don’t want to go to the hospital.. He’d heard the panicked voice of the Soldier say in his head multiple times. Hurt us at the hospital..

And he could feel the intensity of the of the other one as well. The welling fear and anger that drove that part of his mind. He had to keep it under control. They were like out of control pinballs in his head, bouncing off the walls in 10 different directions. It was all he could do to keep it off his face while dealing with his children. He could hide it easier from them however than he could from his husband. That punk could read him like a book. Even when Bucky kept the cover tightly closed. It was like he had x-ray vision along with his super-strength.

Bucky found that ability both annoying and comforting in equal measure.

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Fragments

The latest book, coming soon, from the series:

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Steve’s eyes got a little soft at this and he reached out again to gently brush Bucky’s hair. “Don’t do this Buck..” He whispered to him. “I know you’re scared about tomorrow.”

“I’m not scared..” He lied, averting his eyes. “I just… don’t like hospitals.”

It was weak and he knew Steve was far too perceptive to fall for that lame explanation . And Bucky knew his entire face and demeanor were giving him away now. It pisses him off that he was that transparent to Steve but… it was strangely comforting too.

“Yes you are..” Steve replied, turning Bucky’s face back to his. “You wouldn’t be acting like this fi you weren’t.”

He gritted his teeth a little in response, wanting bite. Because he felt, as always, caught and cornered. “Even if I am punk..” He hissed, wrapping his metal arm like a talon on Steve’s arm. “I don’t remember why… “ He dug his fingers a little more and continued. “I don’t..”

It was honest as he was capable of being at that moment. And it still felt like a lie. A subterfuge. It was like before, feeling but no context as to why he felt that. It had taken years of digging in therapy to even scratch the surface of all the trauma. He was still digging through it. Even now, a decade or so later, he was still finding new things. And because he was still working through that time with Hydra, the time in the psych ward hadn’t really been touched on. It was still, like a lot of things, fragments.

“How can I help Buck?” Steve asked at that, not asking for further explanation here. “Tell me.”

There were so many ways he could answer that one. He knew what he wanted, but also knew that that and what he needed were two different things. And knew Steve knew that too. So Bucky gripped Steve's shirt and looked in the eyes, steadying himself.

"That.." He breathed to him. "Is a very loaded question punk.."

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Poster's note: This was the first Stucky series I ever read, and set the bar high for great fandom works! @frickss75 is a friend, mentor, and loving cat mama! >^.,.^< >^.,.^<

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Frickss75′s monumental epic of Bucky’s journey back to himself.  Of course Steve is there every step of the way, as is little Arya >^.,.^<, and all their Avenger friends and family! 

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Let’s start at the beginning, with:  https://archiveofourown.org/works/17625677

Until It Sleeps

Frickss75′s Summary:

Steve finally has Bucky back in Brooklyn with him, but he is finding out that his issues are deeper than he thought. His PTSD manifests in many ways, including some very bizarre sleep behavior. And Bucky is fighting internally with constantly returning memories and some deep seated fears about himself. Steve loves Bucky no matter what and is determined to prove it to him however he can.

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https://archiveofourown.org/works/21399505

In A Little While

Frickss75′s Summary:

Sequel fic to Until It Sleeps (my labor of love) Seems I wasn't done yet.

Set a few months after Bucky and Steve's first anniversary, there is some unfinished business still to take care of it seems which unfortunately create a few angsty situations for a our happy couple. But nothing they can't overcome right?

If you haven't read the previous one, just know there are references to things that happened in so feel free to ask if you don't have the time to read 38 chapters lol.

December/January are always rough for Bucky but the upcoming trip Germany is setting off the triggers in many ways. Things like learning new information and simply seeing a photograph or simply seeing an item from his past are enough to set off his anxiety all over again.

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https://archiveofourown.org/works/33476821

A Life Less Ordinary

Frickss75′s Summary:

Preparing for a family results in all kinds of issues and complications for Steve and Bucky, including mental health issues and new revelations from the past as well.  How will Bucky balance his mental health with a pregnancy? And will he reconcile the rest of his history and trauma in the process of becoming a parent? And how will Steve adjust to this as well, having to once again be the stable force in Bucky's life as the family they always wanted is as close at it will ever be.

Now introducing Frickss75′s latest .  .  .              

Chapter 28: Fearless    

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“Well if it’ll appease you guys maybe I’ll just buy the Dodgers and bring them back to Brooklyn,” Tony declared at one point, “Cause frankly, Rogers has been griping about that since he came out of the ice and all.”

“You’d have to rebuild Ebbet’s Field too,” Steve said as he downed an Asgardian beer that might just get him drunk before night’s end, Bucky thought. “Since you’re throwing money around all.”

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Before Bucky could answer he was kissed solidly and heard himself whine into it, gripping Steve’s shirt. The kiss was so intense, so mind-scrambling Bucky almost forgot they were in mixed company. Just wishing they could tear each other’s clothes off and climb on the counter right now. But alas they were not alone as evidenced by a throat clearing behind them.

“You really should save that for later fellas.”

Bucky turned with glazed eyes to see Natasha standing behind him with an amused look in her eyes.  He felt himself flush almost instantly; he thought he must’ve looked so hot and bothered and completely discombobulated. Damn punk.. he thought to himself, does it to me every time.

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Chapter 28:  Fearless

https://archiveofourown.org/works/33476821/chapters/115973095

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Bucky made love to Steve with his arms wrapped around him, stroking him with the metal hand. Breath against his neck, occasionally biting his neck the way Steve did to him. And literally drove him into not one but two sweet orgasms, both of which Steve was very loud about too. They had no secrets, none at all.

After Bucky had his own release, Steve could feel the metal fingers wrapped loosely around his neck and loved the sensation. Especially when they turned his head and allowed him to kiss him just like that. The fingers stayed there, gently squeezing but not in a dangerous way as they kissed like that. He knew that trusting that helped Bucky too, made him know on a deep level that it wasn’t dangerous anymore. But Steve had a feeling this might not be just Bucky now.

The purry growl that coming out was the other. The Red One. Who spoke two words for the first time. “Love… Steve…”

Upon hearing this, Steve turned in his arms, separating them, but he had to face him now. “Love you too.” He breathed in return, pulling their lips together again. “Every part of you.”

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I just love this story (and it’s sweet author) to pieces!   >^.,.^<

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