#96kg

Khadzhimurat Gatsalov 

Since then I have had headaches almost everyday. At the time of me getting sick I was pretty healthy, I weighed around 72kg this was unusual because people with IIH are usually overweight and I wasn’t so I wasn’t your usual patient.

I really struggled with the fact that I was a really healthy person and then suddenly I wasn’t anymore. I used to do HIIT workouts 3 times a week, and I would bike ride for an hour every day and do 8km walks in under an hour 2-3 times a week. So coming to terms with headaches that left me with blurred vision after walking up a flight or stairs was really fucking hard to come to terms with. At uni I would always have to briskly walk from the tram to make my first class and so many times I would drop my bag in class and act normal and walk to the bathroom and have a complete breakdown because I couldn’t see and I couldn’t breathe. So many times I remember sitting in there feeling like I was dying and I was a healthy person only a few months before so I didn’t know what the big deal was. 

Two years on, I have gained 24kgs as every time I attempt to exercise I get severe headaches that leave me unable to do anything and I end up sleeping for the rest of the day. I’m going on a holiday to Japan in 8 months and I don’t want to go and feel like a fat loser anymore. I don’t want to feel ashamed of my body anymore. I want to be proud of myself again, and I feel embarrassed of myself for saying this but I want guys to look at me again. I want to feel attractive and I want to feel strong. I don’t want to feel weak anymore. 

Hopefully by June next year I will be back down to 70kg. Which I know is a big goal, 26kgs in 8 months. I feel like I can do it. I just want to lose 1kg a week. That was what I used to lose every week. I just need to be strict with myself and try really fucking hard, and obviously until I get lighter I’ll be doing a whole lot of sleeping because these headaches will be a huge fucking problem. 

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