#90-or-less

I have recently been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. It hasn't hit me hard because mostly I'm just glad to have a diagnosis in the first place as I was expecting to be turned away and told there wasn't anything wrong with me, as it wouldn't be the first time that's happened. So I'm making some changes to my diet and I'm trying my hardest to lose some weight this way but it's so expensive to eat well and whatnot.

Here's a small update of some stuff in my life

First off, I'm making slow but sure changes to my diet, adding in more veggies and fruit, my sweets cravings have been completely killed by strawberries (I admit I do eat them with a little bit of sugar but my dudes I used to smother them in double cream) which is nice but I'm struggling with chocolate cravings but I'm trying to limit the amount I'm eating and I've started to eat a bit more dark chocolate to try and stop those cravings in their tracks

Second of all, I've lost 1kg from doing these little changes over about 3 weeks, I know it doesn't sound like a lot but I am really quite overweight and when I was a little less overweight I didn't lose weight at all in my fitness journey which, as I'm sure you can understand, is quite frustrating, so this is a nice positive step forwards, so once I can get my pain under control (I will talk more about this soon) I'll add in some exercise and hopefully that will become 1kg a week!

I know I'm not the most regular blogger but I appreciate all you guys for staying here and not unfollowing me

I know ive been a little quiet on here recently with my own posts but I'm about to enlighten you on what's been going on in my life, the good at the bad.

I'll start with the bad first because who wants to end on a sad subject. My mother and my sister aren't talking. My sister and I, aren't talking. To any of you who know me irl, you'll know this isn't an unusual situation however this time it's very different. My sister pushed the boundaries and has really wounded my mother by posting things about her on Facebook and then, when questioned about it, ignoring it. My sister has been throwing shade about me since I was born lmao she's jealous in all kinds of ways. Her most recent joy is expressing how glad she is that I (6 months ago) failed and withdrew from university as a consequence. Another thing leading up to this was my aunt dying, quite suddenly too. My sister likes to pretend that she is the only one who cares etc etc and so when I, at the request of my mother, got involved in arranging care, and later funeral plans, she got annoyed and started going on and on about how lazy I am (because I wouldn't do house clearance which my mother told me not to do because she had something else to occupy me with) and how I never cared when my aunt was alive (we had an interesting relationship and I'll leave it at that). So all in all my personal life is a mess in terms of my family.

My boyfriend is working on his MA dissertation so he's quite occupied with that and I'm assisting wherever I can.

Now for some good news (yay)

I have been accepted and enrolled on an Open University course for BA (hons) Language Studies with German and Spanish.

And not only that but SFE are funding me so I don't have to work stupid hard and scrimp and scrape money together to do it.

I'm really hopeful that my future will be looking up soon and that I can complete my study with high levels of attainments (I don't wanna jinx anything but who doesn't want a first) because of this I have recently been spending a lot of my time reading around my first modules (Spanish 1 and Exploring Languages and Cultures) and damn I've reen finding some interesting stuff.

In the closer future my boyfriends parents are throwing a party and I get to meet 34 people who speak varying degrees of English and who are all "very excited to meet me" so yall, wish me luck

Sorry for the long post, I just needed to share about stuff, as I'm not telling very many people about my degree, in fact, only 2 friends, my boyf and my mother and brother know, its less pressure that way, but now I'm accountable for studying by posting it here 😂

Please excuse the poor quality of the picture, my camera apparently doesn’t like candles

The boyf says the desk looks ‘calmer’ and reckons it’ll help me study...

It IS calmer, but thats because I’ve taken my TV off my desk so it can be wall mounted

After a two week break I went back to the gym, did my very delayed C25k run and did clubersize which I enjoyed more than zumba as I didn't get as out of breath but still felt that I was doing something good here's some selfies I took (featuring what my hair does when it gets windy)