#8.23.15

My mom says it gets better but how the fuck will it get better if she's not getting me therapy like my doctor actually told her to get me or even talking to me about how I feel I'm thirteen and I want to down a bottle of pills and there's no way she doesn't know when she can see my search history or when someone tells her I need help she won't even TALK TO ME about how I feel or what I think how can it get better from here????

I'm so fuckinf tired o my mom I had to take a survey thing when I went to my doctors office and it asked about having suicidal thoughts and hurting myself and I answered truthfully (mostly) and the doctor said that she would talk to my mom about getting me help and it's been at least a month and a half and my mom hasn't said a damn thing I need help so badly because I want to die and I've wanted to die for about three years now and it's like she knows and is ignoring my cries for help even my guidance counselor told her me and my sister need help and she won't fuckinf get it or even talk about it