#7-17-16

Stop over analyzing and just be who you are. Thats all that really matters in the end.

Spending all day with my momma 😍

he makes me feel like I can read and write again. like pretty much after I sarted dating exscorpio I stopped reading and writing as muych as I used to. but after Taurus I really stopped writing. and I want to start writing again. like he encourages it and stuff.i shared theidea that I have always wanted to be able to play music or be able to draw or paint and he was all for it and it just makes me feel good. like hey maybe I should try to start doing all these things that ive always wanted to do.

we talked about kids and marriage and he is down to have a small wedding and to start actually thinking about having kids after me and him finish up with school and I said that about marriage too but he said that he doesn’t want to wait that long and was concerned as to why I would want to wait so long. but I reassured him that it was because planning a wedding is stressful by itself and takes up a lot of time and attention and if I am going to school I don't want that added stress or distraction and he was like okay I understand but that it will be a small wedding and if we just rush it through or choose to do it all in a summer or take a semester off or something then we can do it. but I don t know about that. like I understand so I kind of want to try that but I don't know.

me and him are going to go through this semester and see how hard it is to not spend as much time together. and if it is super difficult then we will start making plans to move in together for spring semester.

I had an interview with proscribethis past firday and they should be getting back to by this coming Friday for sure.

we are going to Austin, me and Taurus, and we are planning what to do and where to go it sounds like it is going to be fun.

okay so I shared something with Taurus that ihave never shared with anyone before. I told him about this and at first he was a little mad until I was like I shouldn't have mentioned it because literally no one knows about it and I don't want anyone to read it and I figured if you knew about it you would want to read it and like I don't want you to read it I want it to be where I don't have to be censored. and after some stuff happened he finally understood what I meant and he was happy that I even shared about this. and I also shared that thing that I once wrote for Taurus. and he had some things that upset him or made him feel insecure because of when he read it but headressed them with me and we talked about it and everything turned out for the better. I don't know I think I am ina good place with him right now and he is making this month out to be a good month and lets face the truth I have never liked having todeal with this monthbefore like ever it was always full of disappointment.